March 23, 2018

Wild Stallions and The Art of Emotions; Borderline and Bipolar Disorders Combined

Becky from That B-Word podcast stops by to help John Emotions test some new podcasting software and give some shout-outs to their current favorite social media followers. They also discuss entertainers with Bipolar-related shows and movies. During...


Becky from That B-Word podcast stops by to help John Emotions test some new podcasting software and give some shout-outs to their current favorite social media followers. They also discuss entertainers with Bipolar-related shows and movies. During John's overdubbed Intro segment you'll hear sirens. He explains the sirens after the closing credits. This episode also announces the launch of John's second podcast The Art of Emotions on Apple Podcasts.

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WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.120 --> 00:00:04.519 Hey, what's up? Thank you for letting me back in your head again. 2 00:00:04.719 --> 00:00:08.310 I appreciate it. If you are subscribing, that's awesome. See Lots 3 00:00:08.349 --> 00:00:12.869 of downloads and that means somebody's listening and you or one of those people. 4 00:00:12.910 --> 00:00:17.550 So killer. This is kind of a bonus episode. So what I was 5 00:00:17.670 --> 00:00:22.500 doing? I've always kind of been torn between the bipolar style just focusing on 6 00:00:22.739 --> 00:00:30.219 bipolar alone, and me having an outlet all these noises, sirens. I'm 7 00:00:30.260 --> 00:00:34.140 in downtown San Francisco, by the way, so I've got my slack binging 8 00:00:34.340 --> 00:00:40.250 over there and there's a fire truck apparently stopping close by anyway. So I've 9 00:00:40.250 --> 00:00:46.170 been torn with producing the bipolar style show and focusing only on bipolar because one 10 00:00:46.210 --> 00:00:51.520 of the reasons I wanted to have a podcast was so I could get things 11 00:00:51.560 --> 00:00:55.799 off of my chests, regardless of what they were about, and sometimes I 12 00:00:55.880 --> 00:01:00.240 find the bipolar style context a little too limiting. So what I'm going to 13 00:01:00.320 --> 00:01:04.909 do is start another show just called the art of emotions, you know, 14 00:01:06.109 --> 00:01:10.150 like John Emotions and the arts of emotions. That's going to be a lot 15 00:01:10.189 --> 00:01:14.989 shorter podcasts, probably a lot more frequent. So if you tune into this 16 00:01:15.109 --> 00:01:21.459 podcast for bipolar information. Excuse me, if you tune into this podcast for 17 00:01:21.540 --> 00:01:26.420 bipolar information, awesome. Keep doing that and I will start to focus even 18 00:01:26.540 --> 00:01:32.659 more on things very specifically to bipolar. If you listen to this show because 19 00:01:32.700 --> 00:01:40.569 you like to hear me Yammer about then maybe go to Johnny emotionscom and listen 20 00:01:40.689 --> 00:01:45.530 there to my daily podcasts. That's also on itunes and spotify and all that 21 00:01:45.650 --> 00:01:49.120 other stuff. So you can either listen to buipolar style for bipolar stuff, 22 00:01:49.640 --> 00:01:53.120 or if you just want to hear me Yac and talk and chatter and rant 23 00:01:53.159 --> 00:01:57.079 and rave, go over to itunes and look forward the art of emotions. 24 00:01:57.480 --> 00:02:00.950 Cool, all right. So to get to that point, I needed to 25 00:02:01.189 --> 00:02:05.950 test out some software that would let me, you know, talk on my 26 00:02:06.030 --> 00:02:10.870 phone and actually broadcast the podcast. That makes sense. Yeah, let's be 27 00:02:12.030 --> 00:02:16.900 broadcast a podcast from my telephone and when I'm at home I can also do 28 00:02:17.020 --> 00:02:22.900 live podcast like stream straight out, so people can comments and we can chat 29 00:02:23.139 --> 00:02:28.060 while I'm actually pushing the audio out through the Internet. Anyway, Long Story 30 00:02:28.139 --> 00:02:36.569 Short, I needed some help testing this particular software, and who better to 31 00:02:36.689 --> 00:02:43.530 help me then my internet twitter friend Becky from that B word podcast. So 32 00:02:43.729 --> 00:02:49.599 she does a podcast about borderline personality disorder, bipolar and the various things that 33 00:02:49.639 --> 00:02:53.400 are attached to those disorders. We started our podcast around the same time. 34 00:02:54.080 --> 00:02:58.199 So while we're all kind of part of a same little click on twitter, 35 00:02:58.319 --> 00:03:01.469 I guess, if you will. Yeah, that's pretty new. So she 36 00:03:01.629 --> 00:03:07.750 helped me test the software and we did these like three fifteen minute increments and 37 00:03:07.909 --> 00:03:12.469 they actually turned out pretty cool. So I'm just going to drop them here 38 00:03:12.939 --> 00:03:15.860 and let you listen to this as a kind of a background podcast. Let 39 00:03:15.900 --> 00:03:24.500 me stop for a second. Let this Siren Pass. Oh wait, it 40 00:03:24.580 --> 00:03:30.729 didn't pass, it stopped. It's right downstairs. That's exciting. Anyway, 41 00:03:30.849 --> 00:03:34.090 maybe I should go downstairs and take a look. So I'll let you listen 42 00:03:34.129 --> 00:03:43.599 to these podcasts. It's only now. It's online by this stylecom yes, 43 00:03:43.639 --> 00:03:51.439 join emotions with boybo style. This is becky from that B word podcast, 44 00:03:51.680 --> 00:03:57.349 and this is johnny emotions from bipolar style, and we wow, sion. 45 00:03:58.789 --> 00:04:02.270 All right, thanks for joining us from around the world. And we were 46 00:04:02.349 --> 00:04:06.270 trying to think of like will let's let's do your podcast and then my cast 47 00:04:06.349 --> 00:04:10.500 podcast, and then we'll say and we're here to like pump you up and 48 00:04:10.900 --> 00:04:13.979 but we needed to do something better than that and she goes yeah, like 49 00:04:14.060 --> 00:04:17.339 like wild stallions are like yeah, so we didn't come up with anything better 50 00:04:17.379 --> 00:04:21.019 than wild stallions. If you have something better, you know, let us 51 00:04:21.060 --> 00:04:25.529 know what that should be if we do these podcasts again. Or will just 52 00:04:25.610 --> 00:04:28.769 be better than wild stallion? I don't think anything will just perfect that as 53 00:04:28.850 --> 00:04:31.649 we do it now. I was just a little guitar riff under there. 54 00:04:31.889 --> 00:04:35.569 Oh wait, they just heard the guitar riff, because I'm definitely dropping that 55 00:04:35.649 --> 00:04:41.480 shit in under our audio just now, for sure. Oh wait, do 56 00:04:41.560 --> 00:04:44.319 your listeners hear you curse, because I don't think you curse on your show, 57 00:04:44.360 --> 00:04:48.279 do they? Well, I don't not. I don't not curse on 58 00:04:48.360 --> 00:04:55.430 purpose, but it's nick. It's got the explicit tag. So okay, 59 00:04:55.509 --> 00:04:58.110 okay, St but all rights not often. Yeah, yeah, I didn't 60 00:04:58.110 --> 00:05:00.430 want to have to put you through more work than you have to do now. 61 00:05:00.790 --> 00:05:04.230 That's just which is kind of the nature of this particular podcast. This 62 00:05:04.350 --> 00:05:08.139 might even be like a bonus episode in my list. I don't know how 63 00:05:08.139 --> 00:05:11.779 you're going to list it on yours. In the trash can. Maybe it's 64 00:05:11.819 --> 00:05:15.019 like no, this is not going on. That B word at all absolutly 65 00:05:15.060 --> 00:05:20.300 put it out as an episode. So, but we were to Becky and 66 00:05:20.379 --> 00:05:26.529 I were talking about the different ways we make podcasts and I'm just currently testing 67 00:05:26.610 --> 00:05:31.689 some new software that will let me do really short podcast like thirty second podcasts, 68 00:05:32.009 --> 00:05:35.639 from my telephone. This is not one of those, but this is 69 00:05:35.680 --> 00:05:39.680 the same software. So, anyway, we just want to test out the 70 00:05:39.720 --> 00:05:46.800 skype function and Becky's always been a gracious host and, Guess Right, I 71 00:05:46.879 --> 00:05:48.519 try to be. Yeah, we had it started our podcast at the same 72 00:05:48.519 --> 00:05:55.430 time. Yeah, we did, and it's pretty it's pretty cool, saying 73 00:05:55.470 --> 00:06:00.509 everybody kind of develop at the same time and get new listeners and feed off 74 00:06:00.589 --> 00:06:03.339 each other shows. It's fun. It isn't Amal community. It's like the 75 00:06:03.420 --> 00:06:08.180 new school. There's an old school and now we're the new school. Yeah, 76 00:06:08.620 --> 00:06:11.259 because the old school doesn't let us in. I noticed it's like the 77 00:06:11.379 --> 00:06:15.540 seniors don't let the freshman out of the little freshman fucking campus area. You 78 00:06:15.620 --> 00:06:19.410 know, you're stuck on the freshman quad and the seniors like Nah, fucking 79 00:06:19.490 --> 00:06:23.610 freshman, and like what are you talking? A high school? Yeah, 80 00:06:24.329 --> 00:06:29.850 many, many big high schools anyway. So yeah, but it is fun 81 00:06:29.850 --> 00:06:31.490 to like eighty. Sorry, go ahead. Yeah, Know How many people? 82 00:06:31.569 --> 00:06:34.279 Eighty people in your class. Eighty people in my class. Yeah, 83 00:06:34.399 --> 00:06:38.920 Oh Dang, that is little. And that was Ohio as well. Yep, 84 00:06:39.319 --> 00:06:42.639 that's like the Ohio that John Cougar, melon camp kind of things about. 85 00:06:42.639 --> 00:06:46.879 Oh yeah, this is like deep red state. How do you like 86 00:06:46.040 --> 00:06:51.149 that down in the Corn Fields Ohio? Do you like it? You sound 87 00:06:51.230 --> 00:06:56.350 so developed. I'm saying that to be like facetious or anything, but I 88 00:06:56.430 --> 00:06:59.269 mean you sound very worldly, like a person that would live in San Francisco 89 00:06:59.629 --> 00:07:02.899 here, like I guess the the Internet makes things so you can be as 90 00:07:02.939 --> 00:07:06.620 cultured as you want to or not, and you've chosen to be cultured. 91 00:07:08.500 --> 00:07:13.259 Well, I listened to a lot of podcasts out of California. So do 92 00:07:13.459 --> 00:07:15.540 what ones to you? Oh yeah, that was the other thing about this 93 00:07:15.660 --> 00:07:18.610 show is we're going to like talk about the value of so social media and 94 00:07:18.850 --> 00:07:25.769 networking and other podcasts definitely come into that are there's some good well, I 95 00:07:25.850 --> 00:07:29.490 don't even want to say mental health podcast, because a lot about what our 96 00:07:29.529 --> 00:07:31.279 show is, and maybe your show as well, is like how do you 97 00:07:31.360 --> 00:07:35.279 live with the mental disorder? It's not just about the disorder, but like 98 00:07:35.800 --> 00:07:39.600 as a as a person with the mental disorder, I mean, do certain 99 00:07:39.720 --> 00:07:43.120 things and I always find it cool when other people are into the same stuff. 100 00:07:43.560 --> 00:07:47.509 So what kind of podcasts are you listening into right now? Well, 101 00:07:48.470 --> 00:07:55.670 we're talking about like kind of the West Coast type podcasts. There was one 102 00:07:55.709 --> 00:07:58.939 I was listening to for a while called in Taro Bang. I'm not actually 103 00:07:58.939 --> 00:08:01.779 sure if they're putting out new episodes. I haven't listened in a while, 104 00:08:01.220 --> 00:08:07.139 but they're kind of they talked a lot about the same sort of like mental 105 00:08:07.180 --> 00:08:11.699 health issues, gender quality issues, things like that. How do you how 106 00:08:11.699 --> 00:08:15.050 do you say that name and Taro? What's the last part? Bang, 107 00:08:15.170 --> 00:08:20.170 B Ang and Taro Bang. Yeah, like, okay, like funking on 108 00:08:20.209 --> 00:08:22.329 the head, Bang, like a gun or something like. In Taro Bang 109 00:08:22.850 --> 00:08:28.399 it's the word for a kind of I can't think of the word, like 110 00:08:28.560 --> 00:08:35.960 punctuation mark. That it's the cross between an explanation, exclamation point and a 111 00:08:37.679 --> 00:08:41.429 question mark. Wait, there's a there's a part, there's a character that 112 00:08:41.549 --> 00:08:46.470 represents those two or something in between them. Yeah, well, that's was 113 00:08:46.509 --> 00:08:48.590 called an internal Harrowbang and you'll see it. Yeah, Oh shit. Okay, 114 00:08:48.789 --> 00:08:52.389 I'm just sure this society before we digressed too far. When I was 115 00:08:52.470 --> 00:08:54.820 a kid in high school, I played in a band called panic and I 116 00:08:54.899 --> 00:08:58.539 didn't know how to express it anywhere. I wanted people to think of it 117 00:08:58.620 --> 00:09:01.419 in a certain way, so it had the exclamation point and the question mark, 118 00:09:01.539 --> 00:09:05.259 but I didn't know there's a character that meant both of those. That's 119 00:09:05.299 --> 00:09:09.580 totally cool. Oh Yeah, yeah, it is pretty cool. And Taro 120 00:09:09.659 --> 00:09:18.090 Bang podcasts. Yep, and I think that's type disc in and Travis mcelroy, 121 00:09:18.090 --> 00:09:22.490 I think. Do you that one? And let's see what else do. 122 00:09:22.610 --> 00:09:26.120 I was not of California, I think. Think. Oh No, 123 00:09:26.240 --> 00:09:31.120 Ross and carry's based out of California. They're pretty amazing. What are they 124 00:09:31.159 --> 00:09:39.350 talk about? Love them, they are their tag a client is a investigate 125 00:09:39.710 --> 00:09:45.950 spirituality, French science and claims that they paranormal. So they basically go through 126 00:09:46.070 --> 00:09:50.429 and like well, for example, one of the investigations they did recently was 127 00:09:50.470 --> 00:09:54.700 they went to scientology. I mean, I'm not going to get you killed 128 00:09:54.779 --> 00:09:58.700 for saying that. And why? No, fuck no, I win every 129 00:09:58.740 --> 00:10:03.340 time against those fucking idiots. Okay, good. Yeah, they did like 130 00:10:03.379 --> 00:10:09.610 like went to scientology and started all the classes and things and kind of was 131 00:10:09.649 --> 00:10:13.889 like we're reporting on what they were doing there. That's fun and it was 132 00:10:13.929 --> 00:10:16.450 a lot of fun. Yeah, yeah, it's really cool. They're so 133 00:10:16.649 --> 00:10:20.129 silly. Yet just to what what Becky was saying, I think I probably 134 00:10:20.169 --> 00:10:22.960 talked about on our podcast a while back. But anyway, I used to 135 00:10:24.000 --> 00:10:26.480 work for a traditional company out in the world, you know, manufacturing company 136 00:10:26.799 --> 00:10:33.519 that had turned out was run completely by scientologists and I didn't know that until 137 00:10:33.519 --> 00:10:37.870 I like needed to get paid the commissions as a salesperson and they didn't want 138 00:10:37.870 --> 00:10:41.909 to pay. So anyway, I ended up having to sue them. And 139 00:10:41.029 --> 00:10:45.190 that was part of the issue. was that they had this kind of glass 140 00:10:45.190 --> 00:10:48.549 ceiling. I don't know what the right element to use for their ceiling would 141 00:10:48.549 --> 00:10:50.980 be. Not Glass, but some kind of weird ass material, space age 142 00:10:52.059 --> 00:10:56.299 material ceiling that you can't functorium. Yeah, yeah, right, exactly. 143 00:10:56.580 --> 00:11:00.860 So all of the management every and they had this huge room full of these 144 00:11:00.899 --> 00:11:07.490 books with the I think it was called the wise business management theory or something. 145 00:11:07.649 --> 00:11:11.769 Was Like Encyclopedia Britannica of what Ron l Ron Hubbard things you're supposed to 146 00:11:11.809 --> 00:11:16.610 do in business. Basically Super Weird Anyway. So but, and I'm not 147 00:11:16.769 --> 00:11:20.919 throwing scientologists under the bus per se any more than any other religion. I 148 00:11:20.000 --> 00:11:24.840 think you're all wacky. I just think you're they're all nuts. I appreciate 149 00:11:24.159 --> 00:11:28.279 if, but just the same, the things I use for myself to heal 150 00:11:28.360 --> 00:11:33.230 myself and to feel wanted and needed on the earth are they're very unique to 151 00:11:33.309 --> 00:11:37.710 me. So I don't really want not religion too much. I just it's 152 00:11:37.789 --> 00:11:43.629 so outer space to me. It doesn't matter if it's like scientology or Christianity. 153 00:11:43.909 --> 00:11:48.299 It's it just doesn't matter to me. Yeah, now, I never 154 00:11:48.419 --> 00:11:52.100 really found much use for religion. I wish I did. Actually, I 155 00:11:52.220 --> 00:11:56.259 wish that I found some SOLAC in it, but I just don't. It 156 00:11:56.500 --> 00:12:00.500 will know any sense to me. It's not the faith. I like faith. 157 00:12:00.539 --> 00:12:03.009 I like the idea of hope, I love all of that. What 158 00:12:03.169 --> 00:12:07.370 bothers me are fake religious people, because, if I like, I would 159 00:12:07.370 --> 00:12:11.809 go to a Buddhist temple here in town, or I can sit in the 160 00:12:11.889 --> 00:12:16.960 pews at St Patrick's Cathedral alone and that's very meditative. I like the feeling. 161 00:12:18.039 --> 00:12:20.559 It's really interesting. But when you start meeting people that are in these 162 00:12:20.600 --> 00:12:26.200 various religions, they become so judgmental of everything and then the whole bit about 163 00:12:26.919 --> 00:12:31.309 mental health being a more of a spiritual problem than a science problem. That 164 00:12:31.470 --> 00:12:35.909 is so dangerous and that's really driven me away from Church in general, I 165 00:12:35.029 --> 00:12:41.149 guess. Right. Yeah, unfortunately, there's still people out there who would 166 00:12:41.149 --> 00:12:46.700 rather say that you're, you know, somehow spiritually a sinner or right is, 167 00:12:46.740 --> 00:12:50.179 that's stir something. Oh, you're mentally ill. Oh, how many 168 00:12:50.259 --> 00:12:52.740 sex partners have you had? Like that's they go right there. How many 169 00:12:52.779 --> 00:12:56.620 sex partners have I had? What the sex causes? Like, you know, 170 00:12:56.940 --> 00:13:01.009 irrational, I have feral sex has. Yeah, yeah, the apparently 171 00:13:01.090 --> 00:13:03.370 that was a thing. I'm reading, still reading that book infectious madness. 172 00:13:05.090 --> 00:13:09.129 It's amazing and it just it kind of goes back to the history of the 173 00:13:09.250 --> 00:13:13.039 church versus the scientific community. who gets control of the mental illness people? 174 00:13:13.679 --> 00:13:16.440 And it's always been a it's been a wrestle. You know, the science 175 00:13:16.519 --> 00:13:20.360 and the pharmaceutical people are like, nope, it's medicine, we want them 176 00:13:20.759 --> 00:13:22.759 at all costs. Yeah, the church is like wait, slow down, 177 00:13:24.200 --> 00:13:28.309 we can pray away the crazy and you know, so either way, like, 178 00:13:28.470 --> 00:13:31.710 Oh wait, I'm stuck in the middle, cal gone, take me 179 00:13:31.830 --> 00:13:37.230 away. Yeah, yeah, so, wow, okay, I'm watching. 180 00:13:37.309 --> 00:13:41.059 The software we're using says we have five minutes. So that's perfect because my 181 00:13:41.259 --> 00:13:46.980 podcast listeners love short bursts, because I guess I'm a spas and you're like 182 00:13:48.139 --> 00:13:50.019 the opposite and smooth and mellow, and you had a good point when you 183 00:13:50.019 --> 00:13:54.059 were talking to joe the other day and that you are one of few voices 184 00:13:54.139 --> 00:13:56.929 that have that tone, because there are a lot of dudes, apparently they 185 00:13:56.970 --> 00:14:01.529 are like yeah, I could do a podcast and typically, like most of 186 00:14:01.690 --> 00:14:05.850 podcast, is white males. So it is it is cool having your voice 187 00:14:05.850 --> 00:14:11.159 out there and here you hear that idea. Siren. Okay, I live 188 00:14:11.240 --> 00:14:16.720 in the shady part of town. It's pretty shady. Wait until you see 189 00:14:16.759 --> 00:14:20.879 some of the videos I've taken here. Oh my goodness, I even I'm 190 00:14:20.919 --> 00:14:24.590 up on Youtube. I will when I can contextualize them a little bit. 191 00:14:26.350 --> 00:14:28.830 It's because I'm not trying to mock the people I'm videotaping or recording. I 192 00:14:28.909 --> 00:14:33.990 mean, yeah, and I don't want to. I don't want any racist 193 00:14:33.029 --> 00:14:37.429 comments or anything like that or you know, those people should do this this 194 00:14:37.590 --> 00:14:39.740 for that. I mean, it's just, it's just, it is what 195 00:14:39.860 --> 00:14:43.500 it is. I live literally around the corner from a police station and there's 196 00:14:43.580 --> 00:14:46.139 high crime right in front of my doorstep. You know what I mean? 197 00:14:46.580 --> 00:14:48.379 It's yeah, just you want to see the wild west, take a look 198 00:14:48.379 --> 00:14:52.529 at this. When Donald Trump makes fun of, quote unquote, inner cities, 199 00:14:52.570 --> 00:14:56.490 he's making fun of this, but I like it. I don't know 200 00:14:56.570 --> 00:15:01.129 why he's making fun of it. He'should check it out some time. Man 201 00:15:01.529 --> 00:15:05.970 To do you need someone shout out some twitter shoutouts? I do, okay, 202 00:15:05.009 --> 00:15:09.080 because here's the thing, like, a lot of people on twitter are 203 00:15:09.279 --> 00:15:13.919 really helpful and I think they're always they're I don't know, I just like 204 00:15:15.000 --> 00:15:18.480 to recognize people, right. Yeah, so there's a lot of really cool 205 00:15:18.519 --> 00:15:20.669 people on twitter. Like, do you have some corner that we are in? 206 00:15:22.070 --> 00:15:24.230 Right, right, you have some favorites. I'm going to go and 207 00:15:24.230 --> 00:15:26.990 let me pull up mine. Who just people that? Yeah, you know 208 00:15:26.029 --> 00:15:28.669 what I do, and this click. I Love Sarah Fader. She's awesome. 209 00:15:28.750 --> 00:15:33.110 I love her twitter. Oh, Yad, yeah, I like her. 210 00:15:33.470 --> 00:15:37.100 Things stand out to me visually and she has she uses weird letters, 211 00:15:37.379 --> 00:15:43.019 Sarah Fader does. Yeah, yeah, and he's always be treating fin birds, 212 00:15:43.019 --> 00:15:48.139 which is hilarious. Is She wait, where do you go to find 213 00:15:48.179 --> 00:15:52.129 this. See, I feel like an old person where I'm like who am 214 00:15:52.129 --> 00:15:54.809 I following? But well, here's the thing. I didn't like a twitter 215 00:15:54.889 --> 00:15:58.889 check and I had like ninety nine percent real. I had like one fake 216 00:15:58.970 --> 00:16:03.210 follower, which I was happy with because I I prune these followers back pretty 217 00:16:03.210 --> 00:16:06.799 hardcore, like I don't really fall follow any brands back because I don't want 218 00:16:06.840 --> 00:16:10.919 to adds in my stream anymore. Yeah, there are, and I try 219 00:16:10.960 --> 00:16:14.399 to make sure that their twitter name matches their handle, so it's like, 220 00:16:14.720 --> 00:16:18.240 okay, that's probably a human, which is funny because it's a lot of 221 00:16:18.279 --> 00:16:21.990 people that are not mentally ill that seem like real humans that follow. Sometimes 222 00:16:22.110 --> 00:16:26.470 that's really interesting. Yeah, we're well, I guess, but like us, 223 00:16:26.870 --> 00:16:30.029 maybe they're. Maybe they are, but they're not out, so to 224 00:16:30.070 --> 00:16:33.179 speak, right, they're not tweeting about it or anything like that. Yeah, 225 00:16:33.340 --> 00:16:37.980 exactly, I have. They think that to us, the professionals, 226 00:16:37.059 --> 00:16:41.779 not just the the professional loudmouths. Here's what I did. So I go 227 00:16:41.940 --> 00:16:47.730 and follow people that have bipolar in their name. So speaking, bipolar is 228 00:16:47.730 --> 00:16:49.769 a new one. That's a good one. Mm Oh, you know who's 229 00:16:49.850 --> 00:16:56.289 really actually if you have bipolar disorder and you're not following Maria Bamford? You 230 00:16:56.409 --> 00:17:02.080 got to follow her because she is like not only person that has suffered with 231 00:17:02.159 --> 00:17:04.599 the disorder, but she's told her story in a way that lay people can 232 00:17:04.640 --> 00:17:10.400 understand. And also, was it going to say, oh, she's like 233 00:17:10.519 --> 00:17:12.079 one of us? I mean she's really in from what I can tell, 234 00:17:12.119 --> 00:17:17.549 from what she retweets, is really progressive and like not afraid, even as 235 00:17:17.589 --> 00:17:22.589 a celebrity, to retweet hard things. And I'm like, Whoa, that's 236 00:17:22.789 --> 00:17:26.869 that's all right. So not. I'm it's not just I'm onnern nuts because 237 00:17:26.390 --> 00:17:30.019 I'm onner nuts or anything. I'm stand. Did you know what hear this 238 00:17:30.099 --> 00:17:33.539 term stand? It's I didn't. I didn't know. It was from the 239 00:17:33.539 --> 00:17:37.940 Minem Song, but I didn't know in the Minem Song he used the term 240 00:17:37.099 --> 00:17:42.619 stand for Stalker Fan. Yeah, I didn't know that until like three weeks 241 00:17:42.660 --> 00:17:48.849 ago. I'm like her dirt, I'm late, dumb. Wait, I 242 00:17:48.890 --> 00:17:51.970 don't this is going to go too short. Can we do two to fifteen 243 00:17:51.970 --> 00:17:55.609 minuters? Yeah, okay, this is this is going to run out of 244 00:17:55.650 --> 00:17:57.880 time and like thirty seconds because I'm just on this little small plan here. 245 00:18:00.160 --> 00:18:03.160 But again, like I said, it's a test spread's gonna Upload them separately. 246 00:18:03.200 --> 00:18:07.759 Yeah, they'll be two different MPTHREES. This one's counting down to like 247 00:18:07.880 --> 00:18:11.799 twenty seconds. Do What do you? What do you? Yeah, this, 248 00:18:11.869 --> 00:18:15.190 so this is like the commercial break of the podcast. All Right, 249 00:18:15.269 --> 00:18:18.990 folks, were at the fifteen minute mark. The weather is forty eight degrees 250 00:18:18.109 --> 00:18:22.670 in rainy what's it like where you are right now? Is Cold as fuck. 251 00:18:23.150 --> 00:18:26.819 It's cold as fuck over there. We're Becky is in Ohio and we're 252 00:18:26.859 --> 00:18:30.380 going to go downtown to the same Patrick. Stay pread. Will catch you 253 00:18:30.500 --> 00:18:40.740 right back here in about two seconds. Style on cheese five following on twitter. 254 00:18:41.690 --> 00:18:51.089 joyless. Excuse me, as bad quality. Docom oh, we're back. 255 00:18:52.250 --> 00:18:57.319 Hey, we're wild stallions near earn here. What's up? It's John 256 00:18:57.400 --> 00:19:02.240 for bipolar style, and that's he from. That be word, all right, 257 00:19:02.440 --> 00:19:06.200 that be word. PODCAST, as I like to say, be cubed, 258 00:19:06.880 --> 00:19:11.069 borderline, bipolar and beautiful. There you go. I saw your little 259 00:19:11.069 --> 00:19:15.670 tagline there. I was listening to your podcast with Mr Bipolar Joe. I 260 00:19:15.789 --> 00:19:18.869 want, I'd like to do a podcast with him. He brought up some 261 00:19:18.990 --> 00:19:23.109 interesting points, both about marijuana and about family court. I guess would be 262 00:19:23.109 --> 00:19:26.859 the best way to say that. So if anybody's interested in those things, 263 00:19:26.700 --> 00:19:32.619 check out that be word podcast with Mr Bipolar Joe, and he's real fascinating 264 00:19:32.660 --> 00:19:36.859 to talk to you. I like his accent. Yeah, and I think 265 00:19:36.980 --> 00:19:41.369 I think he should connect with, if he's not already, somebody I'm I 266 00:19:41.490 --> 00:19:45.970 follow called Neuro rebel, I think that's her name. She's a big time 267 00:19:47.170 --> 00:19:52.009 into she's like what we are, but for the autistic community, okay, 268 00:19:52.170 --> 00:19:56.240 or for the community of people with autism. I've read an interesting thing the 269 00:19:56.319 --> 00:20:00.160 other day that some s scientists for a minute there about last year, as 270 00:20:00.200 --> 00:20:04.160 recently as last year, had come to the conclusion like wait a second, 271 00:20:04.160 --> 00:20:11.630 autism isn't really a disorder, it's a distinct just kind of person it's just 272 00:20:11.829 --> 00:20:17.029 a personality type. People Act that way. And it was super controversial, 273 00:20:17.150 --> 00:20:21.619 but mostly because a lot of the data kind of indicated that it's just it's 274 00:20:21.660 --> 00:20:25.980 just the way of living. But then the other folks came back and showed 275 00:20:26.420 --> 00:20:30.299 new science and said Nope, Nope, it's still a disorder. Anyway. 276 00:20:30.339 --> 00:20:37.130 Yeah, when bipolar Joe was talking about autism in his day life, instantly 277 00:20:37.210 --> 00:20:42.730 recalled the crossover on twitter from some of the different mental health alliances mental health 278 00:20:42.769 --> 00:20:47.529 activists. Some of US share empathy, I guess, with others, and 279 00:20:48.049 --> 00:20:52.279 autism. Autism is one of those things I shared empathy with and it's pretty 280 00:20:52.279 --> 00:20:55.920 cool. So, yeah, Mr Bipolar Joe is one of the guys I 281 00:20:56.039 --> 00:21:00.880 think you guys should follow on twitter. Ie, yeah, he's awesome. 282 00:21:00.680 --> 00:21:07.390 Don't that. You're your it's my new fiber guy. Yeah, his name's 283 00:21:07.630 --> 00:21:11.029 your stuff. You want to try to spell Yoursta? Okay, I'm going 284 00:21:11.109 --> 00:21:18.500 to go with e. You are St H. that's pretty pretty good. 285 00:21:18.900 --> 00:21:29.059 It's it's Jay zero zero ste who your stuff. Yeah, that's not close 286 00:21:30.299 --> 00:21:33.170 and I don't even think zero zero is the right characters. They just don't 287 00:21:33.210 --> 00:21:37.730 have those characters in this world. Anyway. I said give it your best 288 00:21:37.769 --> 00:21:41.730 shot, man, make it sound more international, boy, Polish Stil. 289 00:21:41.970 --> 00:21:45.970 It worked. Yeah, right, it's kind of fun. I like that. 290 00:21:47.440 --> 00:21:49.720 Oh, remind me, aims aimes is great person to follow. Oh 291 00:21:49.759 --> 00:21:55.519 yeah, he games is a good twitter to follow. I like. I 292 00:21:55.680 --> 00:21:59.559 like her. And so, just just briefly, if you listening, and 293 00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:03.549 you and you are listening, we're in your head right now, just go 294 00:22:03.670 --> 00:22:07.029 to bipolar. I mean go to either bipolar style or that be words bought 295 00:22:07.509 --> 00:22:11.349 twitter stream and you can follow along there, because I honestly like I don't 296 00:22:11.349 --> 00:22:15.190 know if Mr Bipolar Joe, I don't know what his actual handle is and 297 00:22:15.509 --> 00:22:18.460 aims, and not sure her candle is. I think it might be MR 298 00:22:19.140 --> 00:22:22.180 BY POLO JOE or Mr I'll spell that, will bep. No, that's 299 00:22:22.220 --> 00:22:26.420 his eating well, yeah, but I mean you get it, Mr Bipoli. 300 00:22:26.460 --> 00:22:27.339 Yeah, if you guys know how to use twitter, just go to 301 00:22:27.380 --> 00:22:32.130 twitter and poke around at either of our streams and look for these. And 302 00:22:32.130 --> 00:22:34.289 if you don't, but then why not? Yeah, why not? My 303 00:22:34.450 --> 00:22:37.569 twitter has picked up a lot once I quit facebook at the end of the 304 00:22:37.609 --> 00:22:41.049 year. Yes, like it's a lot easier just to focus in one place, 305 00:22:41.329 --> 00:22:45.920 and now basically I focus on either twitter or the slack channel. Bipolar 306 00:22:47.000 --> 00:22:48.759 party that we're in, which is pretty funny. I think that will be 307 00:22:48.799 --> 00:22:52.160 net asn't know. By the way, that's pretty awesome. Yeah, it 308 00:22:52.240 --> 00:22:53.799 was going. I tried it on a couple other platforms over the past, 309 00:22:53.920 --> 00:22:56.960 you know, eighteen months or so, and I just I know and like 310 00:22:57.119 --> 00:23:02.910 slack, so I figured if I'm going to be there anywhere anyway, why 311 00:23:03.750 --> 00:23:07.869 why start another platform anyway? Yeah, reality and positivity. That's and our 312 00:23:07.990 --> 00:23:12.619 mental health. She's really nice. She always forwards people's Nice messages. She's 313 00:23:12.660 --> 00:23:17.779 very positive and uplifting because, like, I'm kind of a Dick on twitter. 314 00:23:18.500 --> 00:23:19.819 So, but I mean, you hear my tone. I'm like, 315 00:23:21.019 --> 00:23:22.940 I'm not an actual Dick, I just kind of prickly. I guess us 316 00:23:23.019 --> 00:23:26.690 right, but you hear the tone of my voice and generally speaking, I'm 317 00:23:26.690 --> 00:23:32.009 kind and I'm just I just like to be provocative and kind of be an 318 00:23:32.009 --> 00:23:34.970 ass whatever. So that's my tone. But some of these people are genuinely 319 00:23:36.170 --> 00:23:40.450 really kind. Yeah, unpacked sparkle, you know, and I'm a sparkle, 320 00:23:40.609 --> 00:23:45.519 is great. Yeah, so he's great because he's proudly gay and bipolar. 321 00:23:45.599 --> 00:23:48.839 He's a widower and he just flaunts it. So I love that and 322 00:23:48.920 --> 00:23:52.440 that's what people love about him too. So, unpacked sparkle, big shout 323 00:23:52.480 --> 00:23:56.430 out to you. I do you follow Amelia? Know How to see easy 324 00:23:56.589 --> 00:23:59.750 the strange? Hold on, let me see, I'm going to go there 325 00:23:59.789 --> 00:24:02.990 now. Daisy. Yeah, she's really she's great. She loves yeah, 326 00:24:03.109 --> 00:24:04.950 we follow each other. Yeah, with a little anchor. There's a lot 327 00:24:04.990 --> 00:24:11.579 of positive stuff. I really I'm into her twitter all the positivity. Yeah, 328 00:24:11.660 --> 00:24:15.220 see, I get I get caught up because I accidentally a lot of 329 00:24:15.259 --> 00:24:19.660 people in my stream retweet things that are political and then I end up accidentally 330 00:24:19.779 --> 00:24:23.609 following the fucking political account and then every week or two I have to go 331 00:24:23.730 --> 00:24:29.609 trim out all the political things because then my my bipolar style stream becomes to 332 00:24:30.250 --> 00:24:33.650 anti gun this week or raging against trump that week. I'm like, oh 333 00:24:33.730 --> 00:24:36.650 now they don't want to hear all that Shit. Yeah, anyway, just 334 00:24:37.329 --> 00:24:40.880 I'm on it. I'm trying to. But we got a shout out to 335 00:24:41.000 --> 00:24:45.160 Diane Harwood with a lot of yeah, Diane, Dy Annie. She has 336 00:24:45.200 --> 00:24:48.319 been kind of what do you call it when you're up in bed, strung 337 00:24:48.359 --> 00:24:52.599 up, hung up and bed whatever they ate up. That's it. Late, 338 00:24:52.799 --> 00:24:56.589 late up. Yeah, I'm throwing up in bed's got a little bit 339 00:24:56.630 --> 00:25:00.670 of a different connotation. Yea, she had a broken jaw. So will 340 00:25:00.710 --> 00:25:03.789 miss her and for a little while longer, but hopefully she gets back on 341 00:25:03.950 --> 00:25:10.140 her blog. She's a great person to follow. Yeah, that move are 342 00:25:10.299 --> 00:25:12.740 is Eric Check? Oh Yeah, yeah, I don't think he likes me, 343 00:25:12.819 --> 00:25:17.140 but I like him, so whatever. I don't I don't think he 344 00:25:17.259 --> 00:25:21.380 likes the way I talk about bipolar. I'm too cavalier and flippant with the 345 00:25:21.450 --> 00:25:26.369 terms I use. Yeah, maybe, and also I'm just very into, 346 00:25:26.410 --> 00:25:30.569 you know, the meaning of words totally, and I'm very I appreciate that 347 00:25:30.730 --> 00:25:34.609 too. We just see different words different way. But yeah, Surez spell 348 00:25:34.690 --> 00:25:41.480 that so people can find that. It's Er easy, Schek. Cool, 349 00:25:41.519 --> 00:25:45.400 cool, and he's also got a youtube channel, so he's very active and 350 00:25:45.680 --> 00:25:49.069 he reminds me of like unpacked sparkle. That that's kind of his market. 351 00:25:49.910 --> 00:25:55.910 Yeah, dig it. See, I know you can't fire. Can't please 352 00:25:55.950 --> 00:25:59.549 everybody. I bipolar on fire. That's a good one. I follow to 353 00:26:00.589 --> 00:26:03.750 it's funny. I have a lot of borderline people that are in my community. 354 00:26:03.829 --> 00:26:07.299 To do you well, you do, because yourself have proclaimed borderliner. 355 00:26:07.019 --> 00:26:12.099 Yeah, yeah, that borderline guy. I'm trying to find his handle. 356 00:26:12.180 --> 00:26:17.259 I can't find it, but that fellow his twitter. It's that borderline line. 357 00:26:17.420 --> 00:26:19.210 Cool, HMM, I like one of it's easy to find like that. 358 00:26:19.609 --> 00:26:22.650 Once you that's that's the other thing that kind of trips me out right 359 00:26:23.130 --> 00:26:26.569 is, I think we were talking about it at the beginning of the earlier 360 00:26:26.609 --> 00:26:33.720 podcast just now, kind of the anonimity bit. Like yourself, Mr Mr 361 00:26:33.799 --> 00:26:37.880 Bipolar Joe and me. We're all kind of anonymous, right. We hide 362 00:26:37.920 --> 00:26:41.799 behind our icons. So what's your opinion of people that are full on like 363 00:26:42.279 --> 00:26:45.400 this is what I do, here's my face. You know, I think 364 00:26:45.440 --> 00:26:51.430 it's I mean it's great. I think that it's great people feel that they 365 00:26:51.470 --> 00:26:56.549 can do that and it's still surviving the real world, especially capitalism, where 366 00:26:56.549 --> 00:27:00.990 they judge that the stigma is so strong that. Yeah, I always wonder 367 00:27:00.029 --> 00:27:06.779 how people that are not famous for things, like like Adam ants or Russell 368 00:27:06.900 --> 00:27:08.980 brand or Maria Banford or somebody like that. It's like Oh, with they're 369 00:27:10.019 --> 00:27:12.900 famous for something else and they also bold enough to say, Hey, by 370 00:27:12.940 --> 00:27:17.210 the way, I'm fucking I have bipolar disorder. Yeah, so I rectal 371 00:27:17.250 --> 00:27:19.410 brand, he's so great. Do you follow his Youtube? I haven't seen 372 00:27:19.450 --> 00:27:22.650 it for a while. I don't follow a lot. I just I don't 373 00:27:22.650 --> 00:27:26.650 know. I like made a conscious effort to live out in the real world 374 00:27:26.009 --> 00:27:29.490 and people think like, Oh, you're better than us, you don't use 375 00:27:29.529 --> 00:27:33.359 Youtuber TV, but I'm I fucking hell of use Youtube and TV. I 376 00:27:33.519 --> 00:27:37.119 just it's just like a like a manic person. I just watch a random 377 00:27:37.160 --> 00:27:41.160 video of I have a pen I have an apple. I mean, I 378 00:27:41.240 --> 00:27:44.349 just watch some weird shit, right, and that's it. Then I'll go 379 00:27:44.430 --> 00:27:48.109 away outside and so, but I'll watched Russell Brandon when some of his videos 380 00:27:48.190 --> 00:27:52.150 reached kind of the fevered pitch that get shared around youtube anyway. But yeah, 381 00:27:52.150 --> 00:27:56.230 yeah, great. Oh, I like the fact that all those people 382 00:27:56.230 --> 00:28:00.700 I just mentioned are very articulate. They can kind of convey a principle or 383 00:28:00.740 --> 00:28:04.740 a point really clearly to a person that's healthy and make the person that's healthy 384 00:28:04.819 --> 00:28:08.299 think, oh, bipolar people aren't so crazy after all. Right, yeah, 385 00:28:08.339 --> 00:28:11.500 yeah, it's good to have people that can do that. Yeah, 386 00:28:11.619 --> 00:28:15.289 we need a few of them. If I'm struggle with that. So, 387 00:28:15.529 --> 00:28:18.329 yeah, I'm glad some moll that's the thing. I was reading about label 388 00:28:18.369 --> 00:28:22.970 theory. There's a thing called label theory where, I mean basically you become 389 00:28:22.049 --> 00:28:27.160 what people call you. So I always worried the most about people newly diagnosed 390 00:28:27.240 --> 00:28:33.440 with something like borderline or bipolar disorder, because I think it fucks with their 391 00:28:33.440 --> 00:28:34.880 head a little bit and all of a sudden they think, Oh, I'm 392 00:28:34.880 --> 00:28:40.519 dying, I'm dead. Yep, I've got stage four bipolar. It's over. 393 00:28:40.559 --> 00:28:42.670 Yeah, and I'm just like no, man, you're the same person 394 00:28:42.750 --> 00:28:48.109 you were yesterday with more clarity. That's all. So take that for what 395 00:28:48.269 --> 00:28:52.470 you will, but basically you're no different than you were yesterday. You just 396 00:28:52.549 --> 00:28:56.259 have more knowledge. So you're not. Yeah, you're not anymore sick because 397 00:28:56.339 --> 00:29:00.859 you got labeled. You just more knowledgeable. Yeah, so, I mean 398 00:29:00.900 --> 00:29:04.539 you have to know what something is before you can fight it or treat it 399 00:29:04.579 --> 00:29:07.940 or however you want to look at it. Yep, Yep, yeah, 400 00:29:08.859 --> 00:29:15.650 you can't fight a an enemy that you don't know. So exactly. So, 401 00:29:15.809 --> 00:29:18.009 yeah, go if you ever feel crazy, like if you're listening to 402 00:29:18.089 --> 00:29:21.809 this and you haven't been diagnosed, not, not, you back you obviously 403 00:29:21.809 --> 00:29:26.839 we already know what's wrong with you now, just playing and but I mean 404 00:29:26.000 --> 00:29:30.759 it's a new people that find the show randomly and like are just wondering if 405 00:29:30.799 --> 00:29:33.759 you have some kind of disorder. There's no, well, not. I 406 00:29:33.839 --> 00:29:37.319 take it back. There is some shame, but it shouldn't be internal. 407 00:29:37.319 --> 00:29:40.789 It shouldn't be on you. I'm saying there is a stigma and some of 408 00:29:40.829 --> 00:29:45.549 the fears you have about being labeled might be true. Right, would you? 409 00:29:45.670 --> 00:29:48.829 Would you concur on that? I mean, because it's definitely stigma does 410 00:29:48.869 --> 00:29:53.299 exist. Yeah, but that's no excuse to deny yourself that knowledge about yourself. 411 00:29:53.700 --> 00:29:56.299 Like, if you think you might be feeling crazy, just go find 412 00:29:56.299 --> 00:30:00.140 out. Maybe you have something, maybe there's something wrong with your brain. 413 00:30:00.220 --> 00:30:03.180 It's not you. You didn't have sex too many times. It's not a 414 00:30:03.859 --> 00:30:08.089 moral dilemma, it's a brain disease. Yeah, and I mean there's so 415 00:30:08.170 --> 00:30:14.890 much support, at least in the online area that I follow it. You 416 00:30:15.089 --> 00:30:19.930 can always find somebody to talk to you if you're feeling overwhelmed or so like. 417 00:30:21.250 --> 00:30:23.400 Oh, speaking of the people that are outspoken under their own names, 418 00:30:25.279 --> 00:30:29.839 electro boy USA, Andy Berman, he's good. Oh yeah, but bipolar 419 00:30:29.920 --> 00:30:34.319 activists. He's just at the electro boy USA over on. Do you ever 420 00:30:34.359 --> 00:30:37.750 go to twitter? I'm droop. Do you ever go over to instagram? 421 00:30:40.069 --> 00:30:41.390 Not much. I don't do much on it. There's some funny ones of 422 00:30:41.509 --> 00:30:48.390 ore there. There's like halfway to Hannah. She's a bipolar activists. There's 423 00:30:48.509 --> 00:30:52.019 the bipolar Barbie. She's a bipolar activist. And you know, they're pretty 424 00:30:52.019 --> 00:30:55.740 bold. They might not, I mean I don't actually know either one of 425 00:30:55.779 --> 00:30:59.180 their real names, but who cares? You know they're using their real faces 426 00:30:59.259 --> 00:31:02.980 and speaking their truth, telling the story. It's kind of cool. It's 427 00:31:03.019 --> 00:31:06.250 even, to me, more bold on Instagram, where you actually have to 428 00:31:06.329 --> 00:31:10.250 show your face, because I'm a big old coward and I hide behind my 429 00:31:10.369 --> 00:31:15.170 smiley face guy. But you know, to each his own. Yeah, 430 00:31:15.650 --> 00:31:19.240 there's aims. Oh, so aims. Hi, hi, aims. Her 431 00:31:21.079 --> 00:31:26.839 her twitter is aims. Can Do ames, can do with the K Ka 432 00:31:26.319 --> 00:31:32.119 and Doo. And Yeah, she's always around like whenever I'm like. You 433 00:31:32.240 --> 00:31:33.789 can just tell, like on twitter, when people follow you, by what 434 00:31:33.950 --> 00:31:37.670 they like and the way they reply. If they're genuinely nice, people like 435 00:31:37.869 --> 00:31:41.630 yeah, how fast they reply. If you're in need, some people are 436 00:31:41.670 --> 00:31:44.109 like Oh, and they'll say the right thing. So aims is one of 437 00:31:44.150 --> 00:31:48.420 those people. DIG It. And I'm a good friend ANICA. That's who 438 00:31:48.460 --> 00:31:52.779 I stay within New Orleans and Louisiana, street fort and whatnot. Yeah, 439 00:31:53.019 --> 00:31:57.059 Sonnica, that was great. Overrun by dogs, but I think overrun. 440 00:31:57.099 --> 00:32:00.380 I think he's a political guy. So sorry, buddy, I like a 441 00:32:00.769 --> 00:32:04.690 speaking of animals, I am Mo show. Do you follow him? Oh, 442 00:32:05.289 --> 00:32:08.970 oh my God, he's that. It's just cats. It's all in 443 00:32:09.049 --> 00:32:13.769 his cats. I'm going over to the SPCA today literally, I plan my 444 00:32:13.849 --> 00:32:16.039 bite, my bus route. I have to get around the fucking St Patrick's 445 00:32:16.079 --> 00:32:20.640 parade somehow, but I'm hopping on a bus to go to the SPCA to 446 00:32:20.640 --> 00:32:23.039 look at kiddies today. I think I want to get one. I thought 447 00:32:23.039 --> 00:32:27.599 about dogs, right, but with dogs in the city you got to walk 448 00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:31.349 them and when you walk them around this neighborhood you're walking them on the germs 449 00:32:31.509 --> 00:32:35.269 and then you're walking them back into your house and then they jump on your 450 00:32:35.349 --> 00:32:37.509 bed. You See. Yeah, this especially. Yeah, I did the 451 00:32:37.589 --> 00:32:43.950 infectious madness book about germs and how they can cause some mental illnesses. Yeah, 452 00:32:44.460 --> 00:32:46.059 I couldn't read that. I mean, wait, see how you're doing 453 00:32:46.140 --> 00:32:49.660 it. What we got like five seconds literally. You want to do it 454 00:32:49.700 --> 00:32:57.220 again? Sure, I don't care. Yeah, hi, this is becky 455 00:32:57.420 --> 00:33:01.089 from that B word podcast, and this is johnny emotions from bipolar style and 456 00:33:01.650 --> 00:33:07.049 weirdly, are wild stallions. Now, that was that was not our best. 457 00:33:07.250 --> 00:33:10.450 That was not I'm not or worse, but they haven't heard the practice 458 00:33:10.529 --> 00:33:15.279 ones and that's true. Okay, so to explain now why those three fucking 459 00:33:15.359 --> 00:33:21.880 podcast here is we're testing some software. We're testing some software called speaker, 460 00:33:22.079 --> 00:33:25.720 which I did, which will ultimately allow me to podcast from my phone from 461 00:33:25.759 --> 00:33:30.150 anywhere for ten seconds at a time. There's a fifteen minute limit on this 462 00:33:30.269 --> 00:33:34.349 thing, and apparently becky and I can't limit ourselves to fifteen minutes at a 463 00:33:34.470 --> 00:33:36.990 time. We just talk too much. Yeah, this is the third, 464 00:33:37.069 --> 00:33:40.819 third one around, which is is great. So typically we're like Yin and 465 00:33:40.819 --> 00:33:45.940 Yang to each other. And Yeah, but your eye, and what's kind? 466 00:33:45.940 --> 00:33:50.700 Am I your an introvert? Yes, yes, I'm an extrovert. 467 00:33:51.779 --> 00:33:55.529 See, that's it, but actually that that makes me y right, that's 468 00:33:55.650 --> 00:33:58.490 I had to look it up. The last time I tried to make the 469 00:33:58.529 --> 00:34:01.009 metaphors online because I didn't want to look like an idiot. And but in 470 00:34:01.130 --> 00:34:04.809 this context I don't want to assume that one of us is the light and 471 00:34:04.930 --> 00:34:07.409 one is the dark either. So let's just leave it at that. It's 472 00:34:07.449 --> 00:34:13.159 cool, I'm cooling the dark. Well, I'm yeah, I'm cool with 473 00:34:13.280 --> 00:34:16.840 being the ASSHOLE. Just the like loud, fucking who'sh that guy would shut 474 00:34:16.880 --> 00:34:23.000 up. Guy, YEA Mannah. People subscribe to your podcast. A, 475 00:34:23.079 --> 00:34:25.150 here you talk. What else do you think they do it for? I 476 00:34:25.230 --> 00:34:29.710 don't I have no fucking idea. I think they're confused, push the wrong 477 00:34:29.789 --> 00:34:32.630 button. That like the logo or something like. All right, let's cool 478 00:34:32.670 --> 00:34:37.750 logo. Thanks people, but yeah, by pull it. So we're basically 479 00:34:37.829 --> 00:34:40.539 just going through, if you haven't listened to the last two episodes, becky 480 00:34:40.579 --> 00:34:45.059 and I are going through some just of our favorite twitter people, and that 481 00:34:45.739 --> 00:34:47.739 favorite of all time just kind of currently favorite because, you know, what 482 00:34:47.940 --> 00:34:52.260 have you done for me lately is top of the mind and really would just 483 00:34:52.300 --> 00:34:55.170 scrolling through our twitter and seeing who've been talking to you lately. But there's 484 00:34:55.170 --> 00:34:59.090 a lot of a lot of cool stuff out there. Brian Hinkle, he's 485 00:34:59.090 --> 00:35:01.010 a new guy. I think he just drowned our our slack group too, 486 00:35:01.289 --> 00:35:04.809 if you go to buy any I think so. He asked about it, 487 00:35:05.010 --> 00:35:07.920 I think, but he's not using that name. Maybe in slack. I'd 488 00:35:07.960 --> 00:35:12.320 have to check. He's my he's one of my listeners. Hey, Brian, 489 00:35:12.400 --> 00:35:14.599 how you doing? Wait, is he in slack? Hold on, 490 00:35:15.320 --> 00:35:19.280 do do, do, do, do. Maybe he changed his name to 491 00:35:19.440 --> 00:35:24.030 norm. Well, decide, I'm just playing. I'm nice you. I 492 00:35:24.070 --> 00:35:29.670 thought normal somebody else. Maybe not. Probably. I haven't actually asked. 493 00:35:29.949 --> 00:35:35.110 I'm just assuming how people are right now. Man. So also, like 494 00:35:35.590 --> 00:35:40.940 have you like generally speaking, for New People, for new bipolar or borderline, 495 00:35:42.260 --> 00:35:49.539 but particularly by porter breeper bipolar in this case. Have you noticed any 496 00:35:49.699 --> 00:35:57.769 good roles in entertainment projects, movies, film shorts, documentaries, TV series 497 00:35:57.809 --> 00:36:02.849 or whatever, that that represent bipolar and not like an accurate light, let's 498 00:36:02.849 --> 00:36:06.039 say. I don't care if it's positive or negative, but have you seen 499 00:36:06.079 --> 00:36:09.559 any of that that represent by polar accurately to you? Well, I really 500 00:36:10.280 --> 00:36:15.079 you got me into Maria Bamford's Oh gosh, I can't remember the name of 501 00:36:15.159 --> 00:36:17.750 it now. Lady Dyed Tom you know it? Yep, yeah, lady 502 00:36:17.750 --> 00:36:22.150 dyed away. Yeah, yeah, give me onto that, and I really 503 00:36:22.190 --> 00:36:25.269 loved it. It's so deep and so rich in detailed. So, Oh 504 00:36:25.349 --> 00:36:29.750 yeah, wherever you are, if you sign up for a free netflix trial, 505 00:36:30.190 --> 00:36:35.460 just go straight to lady dynamite and watch Maria Banford. If you're aware 506 00:36:35.460 --> 00:36:38.300 of Maria Banford, then I'm sure you've already seen it. She's also got 507 00:36:38.300 --> 00:36:42.179 another one called, I get it wrong all the time, a stand up 508 00:36:42.219 --> 00:36:45.460 called grown baby. I think it's called. Yeah, I was just looking 509 00:36:45.460 --> 00:36:50.849 at her twitter page when it's on there she's she's really unique and in that 510 00:36:51.809 --> 00:36:58.130 she portrays people with bipolar disorder and actually has it, which is great. 511 00:36:58.170 --> 00:37:00.730 It's like hiring a gay guy to play a gay guy in a movie, 512 00:37:00.010 --> 00:37:02.960 or a black person to play a black person in a movie. It's neat 513 00:37:04.000 --> 00:37:08.440 when you can actually hire the person with the disability to play a person with 514 00:37:08.519 --> 00:37:14.320 the disability. Yeah, like, because the other thing that comes to mind 515 00:37:14.400 --> 00:37:20.030 is, like Claire Danes. Remember Claire Danes? Oh, yeah, and 516 00:37:20.230 --> 00:37:22.869 now she's on homeland. Homeland. Yeah, but what was he on in 517 00:37:22.949 --> 00:37:27.030 the s? What was that my so called life? Is that Clar I 518 00:37:27.150 --> 00:37:30.980 think so. I just remember. There's a cool band called size fourteen that 519 00:37:30.099 --> 00:37:37.699 had an excellent song called Claire Danes Poster, and probably slider in right there. 520 00:37:37.980 --> 00:37:43.340 I don't know. You don't. I know. We're gonna fix it 521 00:37:43.420 --> 00:37:52.690 in post. That's great. I love that song. Some beer, stay 522 00:37:52.769 --> 00:38:00.559 at home and stare at but Claire Days Poster Anyway. So apparently clear days 523 00:38:00.639 --> 00:38:06.119 does a marginal job of representing somebody with bipolar disorder. I don't really watch 524 00:38:06.239 --> 00:38:07.559 that show. I don't have showtime. Yeah, I'm not really there. 525 00:38:08.079 --> 00:38:14.349 I'm not rich. All of rich people showtime cable premium cable money. So 526 00:38:15.070 --> 00:38:17.829 who else got? There's not a lot of rippers. Oh wait, silver 527 00:38:17.949 --> 00:38:22.670 lining playbook. Yeah, I haven't actually seen that either. Okay, that 528 00:38:22.869 --> 00:38:27.070 was reasonable. That was a reasonable depiction of somebody with bipolar disorder, I 529 00:38:27.139 --> 00:38:30.900 thought. Oh wait, except the wrong person, I think, was depicted 530 00:38:30.980 --> 00:38:36.940 with it. So in the movie the wasn't the dude has it. Oh, 531 00:38:37.019 --> 00:38:39.179 I thought it was the girl who did. Yeah, the in my 532 00:38:39.539 --> 00:38:44.889 perspective, the girl acts like somebody with bipolar disorder. That's pretty close. 533 00:38:45.969 --> 00:38:49.929 The dude just I don't know, I guess he does. But yeah, 534 00:38:50.250 --> 00:38:54.010 just check that out. Silver linings playbook is worthy of anybody that's interested in 535 00:38:54.050 --> 00:38:58.599 bipolar disorder, just to watch how those people act, how they amp up 536 00:38:58.639 --> 00:39:02.239 the situation, how things get like turned up really fast without good reason, 537 00:39:02.440 --> 00:39:07.079 that kind of thing. Yeah, yeah, it just everyday life situations, 538 00:39:07.119 --> 00:39:09.550 kind of a you know, a year in the life of kind of thing. 539 00:39:09.989 --> 00:39:14.989 And it's also a love story, so it's Nice. It's got Christopher. 540 00:39:15.829 --> 00:39:19.389 Yeah, yeah, have you heard the of this new movie coming out 541 00:39:19.469 --> 00:39:22.309 called UNSANE? Have you seen marcials for that? I saw and of all 542 00:39:22.389 --> 00:39:25.820 over Youtube and stuff. Yeah, I saw the trailer, not the like 543 00:39:25.940 --> 00:39:29.579 the short trailer, and I've seen the video car hard, like the you 544 00:39:29.619 --> 00:39:31.820 know, the advertisement card for it. Yeah, what do you think about 545 00:39:31.820 --> 00:39:37.820 that? I'm kind of not I don't think that's really something that I want 546 00:39:37.820 --> 00:39:44.010 to see. Let me refresh my memory. It's got. It's a Steven 547 00:39:44.090 --> 00:39:47.769 Soderberg film that I'm not into his stuff a lot. He's a little young 548 00:39:47.849 --> 00:39:53.159 woman is involuntarily committed to a mental institution where she's confronted by our greatest fear. 549 00:39:53.639 --> 00:39:57.760 But is it real or a project of her delusion? Oh, I 550 00:39:58.000 --> 00:40:00.719 supposely was this guy who was stalking her. And Yeah, I would like 551 00:40:00.840 --> 00:40:04.639 that. That movie would probably make me feel trapped. I would probably have 552 00:40:04.719 --> 00:40:07.590 to get out of the theater just because I can't handle my own emotions. 553 00:40:07.710 --> 00:40:10.429 But it sounds like a paranoid delusion that I would have, like Oh, 554 00:40:10.550 --> 00:40:14.150 yeah, I don't like I don't want to go to the fucking emergency room 555 00:40:14.150 --> 00:40:16.510 because they'll keep me there forever. You know. Yeah, I always, 556 00:40:16.550 --> 00:40:20.030 like I said, as a kid, I used to like Whoa what if 557 00:40:20.030 --> 00:40:22.420 they accused you of something and you weren't, because I think I used to 558 00:40:22.460 --> 00:40:25.619 go to like a little weird classes as as a kid, like in second 559 00:40:25.659 --> 00:40:30.139 grade we would go learn about Greek mythology. One Time we learned about the 560 00:40:30.659 --> 00:40:34.860 Salem witch trials and they had talked about like well, if you were accused, 561 00:40:35.340 --> 00:40:37.170 they would tie you up and throw you off the plank of a ship 562 00:40:37.489 --> 00:40:43.809 and if you drowned you weren't a which, but if you swam you were 563 00:40:43.889 --> 00:40:46.769 a witch, and then they'd burn you at the stake. So that was 564 00:40:46.809 --> 00:40:50.599 always in my hand. I'm like, well, you're just fucked if someone 565 00:40:50.639 --> 00:40:52.559 accuses you of being mentally ill, because they're either going to, you know, 566 00:40:52.800 --> 00:40:55.000 force you to do it that way or that way, but either way 567 00:40:55.000 --> 00:41:02.400 their label sticks. Yeah, it's too much nobloy yeah, I don't I 568 00:41:02.400 --> 00:41:06.949 don't think I'll be able to see either. It's just gonna this is gonna 569 00:41:06.949 --> 00:41:08.429 be terrible. I'm more worried, though. I mean, I don't have 570 00:41:08.469 --> 00:41:10.550 to see it if I don't want to, right, but I'm more worried 571 00:41:10.590 --> 00:41:15.070 that it's gonna oh yeah, there's a movie last year that was like that. 572 00:41:15.510 --> 00:41:16.630 I've yet what it was called, but it was the same type of 573 00:41:16.710 --> 00:41:21.099 thing, a split personality one. Was it called Split? Yeah, split. 574 00:41:21.219 --> 00:41:23.139 Yeah, did you ever see that? I did not see that one 575 00:41:23.179 --> 00:41:27.659 either, for the same reasons. Yeah, I can't I guess I kind 576 00:41:27.699 --> 00:41:30.380 of avoid a lot of those kind of movies. Yeah, seen any of 577 00:41:30.460 --> 00:41:32.130 the ones we've talked about? The last one I saw that I did like. 578 00:41:32.250 --> 00:41:35.969 That had to do with that kind of mental illness. Was Way back, 579 00:41:35.969 --> 00:41:38.369 like in the s stick stigmata. was that the one we're just kept 580 00:41:38.409 --> 00:41:45.329 forgetting? Shit, no, stigmatto is the one with the Oh yeah, 581 00:41:45.369 --> 00:41:49.000 that was that lake ever with the stick matast. Okay, that was satanic 582 00:41:49.039 --> 00:41:52.039 possession movie. STIGMATA. Yeah, what was it called? With a guy 583 00:41:52.159 --> 00:41:57.880 cut, he had no short term memory, he had a tattoo everything on 584 00:41:58.000 --> 00:42:00.750 his body. Momentum, Momento. Yeah, yeah, so I like that. 585 00:42:00.949 --> 00:42:05.190 That was clever and that had to do with some kind of mental illness, 586 00:42:05.230 --> 00:42:07.670 I guess. But yeah, what about musicians, like did you ever 587 00:42:08.389 --> 00:42:15.309 get into the like? Some musicians are pretty outspoken somewhere less. Adam at 588 00:42:15.510 --> 00:42:21.460 was like known for that. You seen the AMY winehouse movie? I haven't. 589 00:42:21.659 --> 00:42:25.059 Now that's of great movies because it's all home video. It's not there's 590 00:42:25.099 --> 00:42:29.099 nothing shot on a pro camera. It's all her and her friends shooting her 591 00:42:29.300 --> 00:42:32.530 life and edite really, really well. But what I got from that was 592 00:42:34.730 --> 00:42:37.889 she might have a touch of that too. Now I'm like, I can't. 593 00:42:37.929 --> 00:42:39.130 I mean it's easy for me to say I'm just the guy talking with 594 00:42:39.170 --> 00:42:43.170 the Mike. I'm not a doctor, obviously, but she appeared as a 595 00:42:43.250 --> 00:42:46.400 person who was trying to treat her bipolar disorder with drugs. That's what it 596 00:42:46.480 --> 00:42:50.719 appears like to me, just as a person who's done the same thing. 597 00:42:50.760 --> 00:42:52.280 I'm like, Huh, that looks like looks like a girl version of me. 598 00:42:52.360 --> 00:42:58.280 I'm glad I'm not dead. Yeah, yeah, that or she kind 599 00:42:58.280 --> 00:43:02.030 of reminds me a lot of Nirvana, Kurt Cobain, to WHO. Yeah, 600 00:43:02.070 --> 00:43:06.550 there's a coup that way, really darky documentaries about that too. Some 601 00:43:06.670 --> 00:43:09.750 of them include some great scribbles from his own Journal. He use the graphics 602 00:43:09.789 --> 00:43:14.820 from his own life that he had drawn to excellent effect. That was great. 603 00:43:15.619 --> 00:43:19.460 Oh and trip on this. Okay, what happened? Miss Simon, 604 00:43:19.699 --> 00:43:23.659 I think, is the name of this about Nina Simone? Okay, I 605 00:43:23.860 --> 00:43:28.329 am not miliar. That's inspiring. If you don't know Nina Simone's work, 606 00:43:28.570 --> 00:43:32.289 folks out there outside of America, she was like a black activists back in 607 00:43:32.369 --> 00:43:37.889 the S, but also this really influential soul singer, or my guess jazz 608 00:43:37.929 --> 00:43:43.719 soul. She had really sultry little timber voice and she was amazing. But 609 00:43:43.880 --> 00:43:45.119 what I didn't know about it, because I had just learned of her music 610 00:43:45.199 --> 00:43:51.960 through that. What was it was like a bridget fond of movie no way 611 00:43:52.199 --> 00:43:54.909 out or something like that, when she played like an assassin. Back in 612 00:43:54.989 --> 00:43:59.429 the day. She was obsessed with Nina Simone, her character was obsessed. 613 00:43:59.469 --> 00:44:02.750 So back in the S I found out about Nina Simon. Anyway, forward 614 00:44:02.789 --> 00:44:07.110 to today. Well, she's definitely bipolar or has bipolar disorder, however you 615 00:44:07.150 --> 00:44:10.980 want to say that. Nina Simone. What happened Miss Simone? Definitely check 616 00:44:12.059 --> 00:44:15.539 that out because it's interesting to watch from a different perspective of somebody who has 617 00:44:15.659 --> 00:44:21.940 bipolar disorder but is also black, who's also a woman, who's a hardcore 618 00:44:22.059 --> 00:44:25.929 civil rights activist, and then she ends up marrying like this x White New 619 00:44:25.929 --> 00:44:30.449 York Serpico cop dude, and that's that's her guy, and there makes like 620 00:44:30.570 --> 00:44:35.250 this team and they tackle the record industry together and the whole thing. It's 621 00:44:35.250 --> 00:44:38.239 an amazing story and watching the whole thing it's like, yeah, power to 622 00:44:38.320 --> 00:44:43.639 the bipolar people. It's a fun watch. That's a good does them yeah, 623 00:44:43.960 --> 00:44:46.920 adamant, remember adamant from back in the day. Bipolar. Yeah, 624 00:44:49.320 --> 00:44:52.429 the two that that don't acknowledge it, and this might be something to think 625 00:44:52.469 --> 00:44:59.829 about. Whether or not you acknowledged bipolar and public is Elon Musk and somebody 626 00:44:59.909 --> 00:45:02.989 likes sting. Yeah, I just heard about Elon Musk. Right, but 627 00:45:04.550 --> 00:45:07.260 but he doesn't come out right and say it. He says it in a 628 00:45:07.300 --> 00:45:09.300 way that George Clooney doesn't say he's gay. You know, it's like it's 629 00:45:09.340 --> 00:45:13.860 like, yeah, it's not important, dread Clooney's gay. Yeah, we 630 00:45:13.980 --> 00:45:17.300 people ask George Clooney if he's gay. His answers almost universally it's none of 631 00:45:17.300 --> 00:45:21.929 your business, but not because he's gay. It's just like he very firmly 632 00:45:21.969 --> 00:45:25.289 believes that it's none of anybody's business about either direction. But it's true. 633 00:45:25.369 --> 00:45:30.449 And so I think that people like staying and Elon Musk, although they've alluded 634 00:45:30.489 --> 00:45:32.969 to it, we don't know their medical records. They're not outright saying I 635 00:45:34.050 --> 00:45:37.079 have bipolar disorders. So it makes you wonder, like, well, it 636 00:45:37.280 --> 00:45:40.199 was that their acknowledgements? Are they misusually the words what the way? I 637 00:45:40.360 --> 00:45:44.880 thought that Elon Musk was saying it was that it was sort of like a 638 00:45:44.960 --> 00:45:50.070 self diagnosis for him, that he thought that right. He hadn't actually gotten 639 00:45:50.110 --> 00:45:52.389 diagnosis side. Yeah, but like in how much study did he do on 640 00:45:52.429 --> 00:45:55.469 the topic? To Self Diag yes, which, but I mean it's valid. 641 00:45:55.630 --> 00:46:00.989 He's yeah, lack of sleep and that drive, super low, low 642 00:46:01.070 --> 00:46:07.219 sativity. Yeah, yeah, flight, flights of fantasy or and the grand 643 00:46:07.380 --> 00:46:09.980 delusions of grandeur. Let's fly to ours. But look, sometimes that shit 644 00:46:10.059 --> 00:46:13.500 actually works. You know, it takes kind of, quote unquote, a 645 00:46:13.539 --> 00:46:19.010 crazy person to push society's envelope. And if he is a bipolar disordered person, 646 00:46:19.130 --> 00:46:22.050 then blessing man, we can go on like this forever. So, 647 00:46:22.650 --> 00:46:27.409 yeah, we probably anyway. Well, we got like I've got a minute 648 00:46:27.449 --> 00:46:30.010 thirty left, so this is about to cut off. We've given both both 649 00:46:30.130 --> 00:46:35.639 shows, the B word show, that B word show, and bipolar style 650 00:46:35.679 --> 00:46:40.559 Stoil, like forty, forty five minutes of content, of completely faceless content. 651 00:46:40.719 --> 00:46:45.159 But I appreciate the use loose. What about people like to hear, 652 00:46:45.199 --> 00:46:47.389 I guess, talking, and I think it if this sounds as good as 653 00:46:47.429 --> 00:46:52.869 it sounds in my ears, people will appreciate the different tones in a podcast. 654 00:46:52.989 --> 00:46:57.230 The man, woman tone hmm. Yeah, I think. Yeah, 655 00:46:57.309 --> 00:47:00.429 it sounds as as layers of flavor. It's pretty cool. So anyway, 656 00:47:00.429 --> 00:47:04.260 I appreciate you time. Thanks for taking time off on St Patti's Day. 657 00:47:04.300 --> 00:47:07.940 Enjoy your new color. Thank you. Thanks for talking to me. Tell 658 00:47:07.059 --> 00:47:10.099 the wife and kids and you got animals, thanks. If you got animals, 659 00:47:10.340 --> 00:47:14.659 tell them all. Thanks for your time. Oh Yeah, I'M gonna 660 00:47:14.659 --> 00:47:19.250 go look for Madamal and I will look for a kitty like for the same 661 00:47:19.289 --> 00:47:21.610 reasons I just said. Are you going to get a little, little baby 662 00:47:21.650 --> 00:47:23.650 one? I'll get whatever speaks to me. Really we're I'm just going to 663 00:47:23.730 --> 00:47:27.969 the rescue cages and we'll look around, because I have a certain look in 664 00:47:28.050 --> 00:47:30.119 mind, and it doesn't pertain to age or anything, just like how they 665 00:47:30.199 --> 00:47:34.199 respond to me, how the how strong their neck is when they push up 666 00:47:34.199 --> 00:47:36.599 against my hand when I go to scratch him. There's a lot of little 667 00:47:36.679 --> 00:47:39.639 things involved. I've been a cat person most of my life, but I 668 00:47:39.760 --> 00:47:43.400 like dogs a lot too. I just don't want a dog in the city 669 00:47:43.519 --> 00:47:47.429 for the German reason we talked about. Yeah, yeah, okay, let's 670 00:47:47.429 --> 00:47:51.030 you see that. What's definitely an issue. You got a url for your 671 00:47:51.070 --> 00:47:57.389 podcast. I do it's that be word at stone fruit media DOTNET. Cool, 672 00:47:57.550 --> 00:48:08.739 and I am at bipolar stylecom style on cheese following on twitter. Joys. 673 00:48:08.860 --> 00:48:27.010 Excuse me, Hey, you stuck around. Good thinking. All right, 674 00:48:27.130 --> 00:48:29.280 so that was pretty fun, right, I thought. So there's neat. 675 00:48:29.320 --> 00:48:31.639 I'd like to have a second voice kind of bouncing off mine, give 676 00:48:31.840 --> 00:48:37.559 the show a little more context, a little more contour, and I thought 677 00:48:37.599 --> 00:48:40.989 it was fun. I paid for the software, by the way, so 678 00:48:42.110 --> 00:48:45.510 we don't have those fifteen minute stops at every point. That's great. I'll 679 00:48:45.550 --> 00:48:52.389 be using that on Monday when I talked to Becca Lombardo about keep talking MH. 680 00:48:53.989 --> 00:48:59.300 And okay, so here's the thing. Before, when I added the 681 00:49:00.260 --> 00:49:06.260 little intro bit before the podcast, you heard the sirens. So those sirens 682 00:49:07.139 --> 00:49:13.769 did stop at my building. And okay, so the little background. I 683 00:49:13.889 --> 00:49:20.210 manage a big building where they basically house all the the lowest rung of society. 684 00:49:20.809 --> 00:49:24.679 People are broken and sick and they don't have any healthcare workers or they're 685 00:49:24.719 --> 00:49:30.000 just totally forgotten people. Right, so people die pretty frequently and I'm used 686 00:49:30.000 --> 00:49:35.119 to seeing dead people, rig and Mortis and that sort of thing. Hopefully 687 00:49:35.960 --> 00:49:40.829 their caregiver or adult protective services had checked on them frequently enough so they don't 688 00:49:40.869 --> 00:49:46.190 start to sting that it's kind of gross. But we've also implemented some programs 689 00:49:46.230 --> 00:49:50.590 since I've got here to wear neighbors check on each other. So anyway, 690 00:49:50.829 --> 00:49:53.380 from a property management standpoint, you do the best you can with with the 691 00:49:53.460 --> 00:49:59.619 broken old people that are near death. But today was different. When those 692 00:49:59.739 --> 00:50:05.579 sirens were down there there was a gal social worker had come to do a 693 00:50:05.659 --> 00:50:10.010 welfare check on whatever clients. So what she had found was that he had 694 00:50:10.050 --> 00:50:15.250 passed away, which, okay, that's one thing, and so she was 695 00:50:15.329 --> 00:50:19.050 by the time, you know, I went downstairs, she had grabbed the 696 00:50:19.090 --> 00:50:22.000 dog and she was waiting in the lobby. There's the dog and I'm like, 697 00:50:22.079 --> 00:50:24.559 Oh damn, that stinks like if you've ever smelled a dead body who 698 00:50:24.760 --> 00:50:30.159 you never forget the smell and it gets instantly up into your sinuses and makes 699 00:50:30.199 --> 00:50:34.800 your eyes water and gets your throat. It feels like you tasted is nourly 700 00:50:35.519 --> 00:50:38.949 anyway. So I just kind of shut the door grabbed the fan because the 701 00:50:38.989 --> 00:50:43.190 last time, apparently this happens, somebody didn't put a fan in the room 702 00:50:43.630 --> 00:50:46.949 and it just got stinkier and stinkier because we weren't allowed to break the seal 703 00:50:47.429 --> 00:50:52.420 after the police had taken away the body. Not We, but whoever was 704 00:50:52.460 --> 00:50:54.900 working here then. Like I said, I'm the new guy here anyway. 705 00:50:55.860 --> 00:51:01.539 So we got the fan in the room and waited for the police. So 706 00:51:02.619 --> 00:51:07.929 the police we're doing their work and then the corner examiner office guy, he 707 00:51:08.050 --> 00:51:13.570 came up. He was doing his work and we had had some his ID 708 00:51:13.809 --> 00:51:17.130 and some keys that the social worker had in her hand had given to us. 709 00:51:17.250 --> 00:51:21.519 So he said, okay, I need because she had taken off the 710 00:51:21.639 --> 00:51:25.199 social worker lady, and we had the dog downstairs in my assistant manager's office 711 00:51:25.719 --> 00:51:30.239 waiting for the SPCA. So the police said, okay, can you come 712 00:51:30.280 --> 00:51:31.599 upstairs? And you know what the guy looks like, right. I'm all 713 00:51:31.639 --> 00:51:37.070 yeah, so let me just can you identify if I go take a picture 714 00:51:37.070 --> 00:51:42.670 of his of his face, and I'm sure, of course I'm getting choked 715 00:51:42.710 --> 00:51:45.349 up just thinking of the smell. He goes in the room, comes back 716 00:51:45.389 --> 00:51:52.300 down the hall, About Twenty Feet Down the hall and says now it's not 717 00:51:52.420 --> 00:51:57.659 identifiable, like what the fuck? What does that mean? He brought the 718 00:51:57.699 --> 00:52:00.739 other guy that had some kind of quiet discussion and we're back and forth and 719 00:52:00.860 --> 00:52:02.050 they wanted to go, you know, they walked back in the room and 720 00:52:02.090 --> 00:52:05.650 I'm like, Dude, can I look and he's all, well, you 721 00:52:05.690 --> 00:52:08.530 might not want to, but he doesn't know me. I'm curious as fucking 722 00:52:08.730 --> 00:52:12.969 like yeah, I totally want to look at like what I want to see, 723 00:52:13.130 --> 00:52:16.360 like what is that? What's going on over there? And my man, 724 00:52:17.360 --> 00:52:21.880 not sure I wanted to see that, but I'm glad I did because 725 00:52:21.920 --> 00:52:25.119 it's so impactful. So here's what happened and I don't know how the report 726 00:52:25.199 --> 00:52:28.679 I know what I saw. I don't know what the fucking reports going to 727 00:52:28.760 --> 00:52:30.750 show or whatever. But the guy has no next of kin. He's they 728 00:52:30.789 --> 00:52:36.070 signed them off as John Doe because he had no face. Yet the face. 729 00:52:37.469 --> 00:52:39.789 So what it looks like to me. It happened. And this is 730 00:52:39.869 --> 00:52:43.030 what's sad, because I know a bit of the history of the Guy I've 731 00:52:43.030 --> 00:52:45.820 I've been here like six weeks or so and I know this particular guy was 732 00:52:45.900 --> 00:52:54.139 taken away a couple of weeks ago because of mental health problem and he was 733 00:52:54.380 --> 00:52:59.090 kind of paranoid and roaming around the halls with the big old knife, excuse 734 00:52:59.170 --> 00:53:02.289 me, freaking people out I'm used to people roaming around with knives, so 735 00:53:02.369 --> 00:53:05.650 it didn't really freak me out, but it definitely, you know, something 736 00:53:05.730 --> 00:53:08.730 we had to address. His social worker came back. Then he was resistant 737 00:53:08.809 --> 00:53:13.599 to any kind of help or going to the hospital voluntarily. So he resisted 738 00:53:13.639 --> 00:53:15.840 in the police took him away and anyway, since then he's been back. 739 00:53:16.679 --> 00:53:20.800 But I put that into context because of what I saw in the room. 740 00:53:21.480 --> 00:53:24.920 Holy Shit, okay, I saw to like helium tanks, look like the 741 00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:29.829 kind you'd get at the you know craft store for your helium balloons at a 742 00:53:29.869 --> 00:53:36.630 kids party. To those tanks, some rubber tube into a, you know, 743 00:53:36.789 --> 00:53:42.219 hefty bag wrapped around his head, it's pretty clear he died by suicide. 744 00:53:42.219 --> 00:53:45.900 To me, I'm just thinking myself professional death merchant. I don't know 745 00:53:45.900 --> 00:53:49.860 what those guys right in their reports or what's even relevant after the guys passed 746 00:53:49.940 --> 00:53:53.460 on, but I'm like wow, that's that's just sad because, as you 747 00:53:53.539 --> 00:53:58.050 know, we have a bipolar show here. We talked about mental health all 748 00:53:58.130 --> 00:54:02.449 the time on twitter and it's just suicide as a whole different thing. When 749 00:54:02.449 --> 00:54:06.769 people die of old age, they just fade away. That, like I 750 00:54:06.809 --> 00:54:08.210 said, that happens a lot and we used to see in dead bodies. 751 00:54:08.769 --> 00:54:13.400 In this particular case, though, this guy just wasn't a dead body. 752 00:54:13.519 --> 00:54:17.079 This guy had taken his own life, I believe, early, just by 753 00:54:17.119 --> 00:54:22.000 the other way the room was set up. Here's the shocking part. Not 754 00:54:22.159 --> 00:54:27.389 Want to skip forward through this or just go to the next episode or something, 755 00:54:27.389 --> 00:54:32.909 because it's Gnarly, not only on the dudes head, where the like 756 00:54:34.110 --> 00:54:38.579 white hefty bag kind of thing was wrapped around his neck. So they're the 757 00:54:38.659 --> 00:54:44.780 bag was torn open. Like the dog who lived in there was like a 758 00:54:44.860 --> 00:54:49.179 corgy sized dog. HMM, maybe was a corgy or Jack Russell Terry or 759 00:54:49.219 --> 00:54:53.010 something, you know, something around that that range. I'm just going to 760 00:54:53.050 --> 00:54:57.610 say what I think happened. I think the dog fucking tore open, ripped 761 00:54:57.650 --> 00:55:02.809 open the hefty bag and ate the dudes face. I've heard of this happening. 762 00:55:04.010 --> 00:55:07.599 I've never seen it in person five feet away, but when the cop 763 00:55:07.760 --> 00:55:10.719 let me in there to go take a look and I'm like Whoa, that 764 00:55:10.920 --> 00:55:15.480 is fucking gnarly. The dudes fucking head was like eating a way down to 765 00:55:15.639 --> 00:55:20.119 his skull. His nose was gone, his eye was out of the socket. 766 00:55:20.199 --> 00:55:23.869 You could see his his whole teeth and jawline. And that didn't just 767 00:55:23.949 --> 00:55:29.110 happen from the helium inside of a paper bag. The paper bag was definitely 768 00:55:29.150 --> 00:55:36.380 ripped and that dog was not hungry. So we had the dog downstairs in 769 00:55:36.539 --> 00:55:42.099 the in the office, like the assistant manager's office, and the assistant managers 770 00:55:42.139 --> 00:55:44.699 like just real happy. Oh, we take care of the dog. That 771 00:55:44.860 --> 00:55:46.300 it. And I come downstairs I'm like, AH, fuck, keep that 772 00:55:46.699 --> 00:55:52.489 keep that dog's death mouth germs the fuck away from me. He's been eating 773 00:55:52.530 --> 00:55:55.889 face, and she last like a funny, oh, that's funny. Fire 774 00:55:55.969 --> 00:55:59.570 Department guy made that same joke, I might ask. No joke. I 775 00:55:59.769 --> 00:56:05.239 just came from fucking upstairs. I saw the guy's skull missing his face and 776 00:56:05.400 --> 00:56:09.320 that dog ate it. She goes what I'm like, don't give the dog 777 00:56:09.440 --> 00:56:15.159 any kisses, not that dog, not today. So man anyway. So 778 00:56:15.280 --> 00:56:19.030 are you glad you stuck around for that? Oh, which kind of brings 779 00:56:19.070 --> 00:56:22.670 me to the whole point of this past episode. Putting together this other software, 780 00:56:23.150 --> 00:56:30.670 I'm going to do much more frequent, shorter podcasts over at John emotionscom. 781 00:56:30.110 --> 00:56:35.500 So if you just want to hear my day to day misadventures, that's 782 00:56:35.579 --> 00:56:37.780 the place. To Be, and that way I can keep bipolar style, 783 00:56:38.300 --> 00:56:45.900 which you can listen to, a bipolar stylecom just more focused on bipolar issues. 784 00:56:45.139 --> 00:56:49.650 Sound cool all right, but either way, if you want by polar 785 00:56:49.889 --> 00:56:54.690 style stuff, subscribe on Itunes. Same thing John Emotions. The show they're 786 00:56:54.730 --> 00:57:00.969 on itunes is called the art of emotions and you can find it directly through 787 00:57:00.010 --> 00:57:02.800 the Internet. If you don't want to subscribe through Itunes, just go to 788 00:57:02.960 --> 00:57:13.239 Johnny emotionscom cool. Cool, all right, there's my kid texting me, 789 00:57:13.400 --> 00:57:16.030 he said and back from college spring break. I'm excited. All right, 790 00:57:16.389 --> 00:57:21.510 check it out. Glad you listened and I hope to see you on the 791 00:57:21.550 --> 00:57:25.949 Internet's visit me on twitter by polar style or johnny emotions. Take Care, 792 00:57:27.110 --> 00:57:27.389 see you.