The ethics of offering health advice to individuals as untrained, unlicensed entertainers

WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.080 --> 00:00:11.869 It's only and now it's online and Bible this stylecom emotions with Bible style. 2 00:00:12.830 --> 00:00:17.469 Okay, what's happening? Welcome back to bipolar style. I'm johnny emotions. 3 00:00:18.070 --> 00:00:23.460 You're one and only hosts. Yep, no more cohosts, which brings me 4 00:00:23.620 --> 00:00:29.339 to the first topic of the day. So I've noticed on Youtube there's a 5 00:00:29.379 --> 00:00:32.899 lot of drama going on. I'm not going to name names, it's not 6 00:00:33.060 --> 00:00:40.810 important. What's important is that it happens. So there's a youtuber that sells 7 00:00:41.810 --> 00:00:47.250 untrained, unlicensed medical advice for people with mental health issues or, I'm sorry, 8 00:00:47.329 --> 00:00:51.520 maybe mental illnesses, whichever way you want to frame it, and he 9 00:00:51.640 --> 00:00:54.359 got a lot of shit for it. A lot of people are just jumping 10 00:00:54.399 --> 00:00:59.359 on him, mostly because he dipped his toe into the, quote unquote, 11 00:00:59.520 --> 00:01:03.920 drama community on Youtube, and I didn't know this existed. Fascinating to me. 12 00:01:03.349 --> 00:01:07.469 So there's a thing called the drama community, you know, and it's 13 00:01:07.510 --> 00:01:11.629 not about your local theater, you know group, or it's not about the 14 00:01:11.670 --> 00:01:15.790 high school play, nothing like that. It's literally people talking Shit about each 15 00:01:15.829 --> 00:01:19.980 other and gaining cliques. So Weird. I have no idea what with kids 16 00:01:19.980 --> 00:01:23.340 are into these days, but anyway, these people aren't kids. These are 17 00:01:23.379 --> 00:01:27.659 grown ass men like me getting involved with the drama community. Mostly the drama 18 00:01:27.739 --> 00:01:36.810 community is younger women and younger dudes, a lot of seemingly maybe gay dudes. 19 00:01:36.849 --> 00:01:38.450 A lot of them are out. So I'm not like calling people gay 20 00:01:38.489 --> 00:01:42.209 that are not gay and there's nothing wrong with being gay, just saying that 21 00:01:42.370 --> 00:01:46.489 that's the community and they love it. They all talk shit about each other 22 00:01:46.689 --> 00:01:51.079 and back and forth and include each other's names and their comments sections and in 23 00:01:51.200 --> 00:01:57.359 their ride up. So anyway, this one youtuber eventually got so much shit 24 00:01:57.480 --> 00:01:59.560 he said, well, I'm decided, I'm going to pull back for a 25 00:01:59.680 --> 00:02:01.950 week. I'm not going to post anything now. Granted, he didn't remove 26 00:02:01.989 --> 00:02:07.950 any of the fucking videos where he talks shit about everybody by name, but 27 00:02:07.110 --> 00:02:15.550 you know he's taken a break. In the interim, another youtuber was talking 28 00:02:15.629 --> 00:02:21.139 about the first guy by name and went on this kind of rant about him 29 00:02:21.180 --> 00:02:23.819 for about an hour, also giving out his personal phone number, his own, 30 00:02:23.939 --> 00:02:30.849 not the previous Youtuber, and at the end of his video he gets 31 00:02:30.930 --> 00:02:35.449 swatted. You know what's Watt it is when an anonymous caller cause the local 32 00:02:35.530 --> 00:02:39.650 police station by Your House and tells them that you're you and you just killed 33 00:02:39.729 --> 00:02:44.919 your family and someone's tied up, you've got a hostage, so that the 34 00:02:45.039 --> 00:02:49.360 local police department sends out the SWAT team to your house. This is highly 35 00:02:49.439 --> 00:02:53.680 dangerous because people have been killed by not complying with officers and, you know, 36 00:02:54.360 --> 00:03:00.069 trigger happy cops and whatnot. So swatting is highly dangerous and it's something 37 00:03:00.229 --> 00:03:05.550 that apparently happens in the gaming community a lot and maybe the drama community, 38 00:03:05.909 --> 00:03:09.229 not really before in the mental health community. So I found that whole thing 39 00:03:09.270 --> 00:03:17.500 fascinating because it all started with one jackass offering unlicensed, untrained mental health advice 40 00:03:19.139 --> 00:03:23.659 for a price. So obviously that's unethical. You can't do that and as 41 00:03:23.699 --> 00:03:30.129 a podcaster, neither can we. We can't offer our advice on on your 42 00:03:30.169 --> 00:03:34.169 kid, on your brother, your sister, your mom or your dad, 43 00:03:34.169 --> 00:03:37.289 whoever's got a mental health issue. If you are listening to this podcast, 44 00:03:37.810 --> 00:03:40.439 I'm sorry but this is all the help I can provide you. I can 45 00:03:40.800 --> 00:03:46.680 steer you to a list of local like dbsa meetings, the depression and bipolar 46 00:03:46.800 --> 00:03:50.680 support alliance. They've got a great list of meetings. You can go there 47 00:03:51.199 --> 00:03:54.319 meet other people, just like you in person and it's really heartening. In 48 00:03:55.069 --> 00:03:58.509 fact, it's saved my life a couple of times. So I'm really big 49 00:03:58.590 --> 00:04:02.830 on DBSA meetings. For example, you just go to dbs alliance Dot Org, 50 00:04:03.509 --> 00:04:08.069 find yourself a local meeting. If you have to, maybe start your 51 00:04:08.069 --> 00:04:10.500 own. I know that's asking a whole lot of almost had to do that 52 00:04:10.740 --> 00:04:15.020 myself and it's a little too much. So hopefully there's a dvs a meeting 53 00:04:15.099 --> 00:04:17.660 near you. You can go to a church meeting. They a lot of 54 00:04:17.740 --> 00:04:24.769 grief counselors, a lot of pts, PTSD meetings near military basis and things 55 00:04:24.810 --> 00:04:27.689 like that. I know you're probably not in the military and you may not 56 00:04:27.769 --> 00:04:31.649 go to church, but DBSA helps. So what I'm saying is that I'm 57 00:04:31.730 --> 00:04:36.170 really an activist, I'm not an advocate. And how do you define that? 58 00:04:36.290 --> 00:04:39.720 So I found a definition that kind of sat with me pretty well and 59 00:04:39.759 --> 00:04:45.199 I said an activist is a person who makes an intentional action to bring about 60 00:04:45.360 --> 00:04:48.360 social or political change. So, for an example, Rosa parks was a 61 00:04:48.439 --> 00:04:53.589 civil rights activist who challenge racial segregation in one thousand nine hundred and fifty five 62 00:04:53.629 --> 00:04:56.870 by refusing to give up re seat on the bus for a white man. 63 00:04:57.589 --> 00:05:02.389 Conversely, an advocate is one who speaks on behalf of another person or group, 64 00:05:02.790 --> 00:05:06.699 and I don't speak on your behalf. I speak only on my behalf. 65 00:05:06.740 --> 00:05:11.939 I consider myself an activist. I've been a political activist, I've been 66 00:05:12.620 --> 00:05:15.500 whatever. I'm just a mental health activist, if you will, but I 67 00:05:15.579 --> 00:05:17.699 don't speak for you and I'm not a doctor, I'm not a therapist. 68 00:05:17.699 --> 00:05:23.689 I cannot help you, and neither can the cohost that I was trying out. 69 00:05:24.129 --> 00:05:27.410 That person can't help you either. Maybe they can, but in my 70 00:05:27.449 --> 00:05:31.689 mind it's a highly unethical to offer advice that you're not trained or licensed to 71 00:05:31.889 --> 00:05:38.680 offer. Or maybe, to put it more succinctly, an activists is to 72 00:05:38.720 --> 00:05:43.199 speak. To be an activist as you speak. To be an advocate is 73 00:05:43.360 --> 00:05:46.560 to listen. Of course, some people might claim to be both, but 74 00:05:46.680 --> 00:05:50.069 that's kind of risky because to be an activist just you really got to go 75 00:05:50.750 --> 00:05:56.350 fucking balls out sometimes and literally throw your body on the gears of the machine. 76 00:05:57.189 --> 00:06:00.750 That's not speaking for other people. An advocate would not do that, 77 00:06:00.389 --> 00:06:04.019 because WHO said that? The people you're speaking forward wants you to do that. 78 00:06:04.779 --> 00:06:09.579 It's not a thing. So decide if you're going to be an advocate 79 00:06:10.139 --> 00:06:14.420 and what your qualifications are for being an advocate. If you're not trained, 80 00:06:14.860 --> 00:06:18.449 if you're not licensed, you know, tread real lightly on being an advocate 81 00:06:18.610 --> 00:06:23.970 because you don't know that you're speaking for other people. You should ask them 82 00:06:24.009 --> 00:06:29.050 first if it's okay to speak on their behalf. I'm an activist, bottom 83 00:06:29.089 --> 00:06:33.160 line. So, anyway, I have like I built the show from scratch 84 00:06:33.240 --> 00:06:36.920 right. I did everything about the gear, learned the software, design the 85 00:06:36.959 --> 00:06:42.000 artwork, build the website, pay the hosting company, created the Bipolar Party 86 00:06:42.079 --> 00:06:47.430 Forum, join the Party at Bipolar Partycom, all that Shit. That's on 87 00:06:47.589 --> 00:06:51.829 me. So it's like my art project and to have somebody come in and 88 00:06:53.029 --> 00:06:56.829 scribble all over my art that's fucked up. Or maybe if you had a 89 00:06:56.910 --> 00:07:00.310 house guest. Or One of my favorite examples is camping. If you can't 90 00:07:00.389 --> 00:07:03.259 a lot, you probably know what I'm talking about. So when you camp, 91 00:07:03.860 --> 00:07:08.019 you go out and you want to leave as little a footprint as possible. 92 00:07:08.100 --> 00:07:11.699 You don't want to disrupt the natural order. When you're camping, you 93 00:07:11.819 --> 00:07:15.930 tread lightly. Don't disrupt the natural order. Find Your place in the Wilderness 94 00:07:16.209 --> 00:07:20.810 and enjoy. You don't go trampling through the forest, cutting down trees, 95 00:07:21.410 --> 00:07:25.769 shitting all over the place without burying it, you know what I mean. 96 00:07:26.290 --> 00:07:30.839 So really important to know your role and to stay in your lane. If 97 00:07:30.879 --> 00:07:33.360 you're not qualified to be in the other lane, if you don't have a 98 00:07:33.519 --> 00:07:38.399 license, if you never been to medical school, don't offer mental health advice 99 00:07:38.680 --> 00:07:43.120 to other people, especially specific other people, and taking it to a whole 100 00:07:43.160 --> 00:07:46.110 nother level. You can't accept gifts, you can't accept money or any kind 101 00:07:46.149 --> 00:07:50.310 of gift to go offer that help or engage in those activities. So to 102 00:07:50.389 --> 00:07:55.949 me it just crosses all kinds of ethical lines and I had to put an 103 00:07:55.990 --> 00:07:59.180 end to it and unfortunately I had to go back and delete all those episodes, 104 00:07:59.220 --> 00:08:03.980 well all six of them. So I will redo the newbies guide to 105 00:08:03.060 --> 00:08:09.379 bipolar disorder by myself, if I have to, all do a condensed version 106 00:08:09.860 --> 00:08:11.180 which is more in line with my show. Anyway. I like to keep 107 00:08:11.180 --> 00:08:16.850 it short and we'll put all that back up in due time. As you 108 00:08:16.970 --> 00:08:22.209 probably heard, on the last episode, the quote Unquote intermission where I had 109 00:08:22.370 --> 00:08:24.529 to kind of apologize, well, not kind of a did apologize, I 110 00:08:24.610 --> 00:08:31.600 think, to anybody who thought I was quote Unquote Med shaming. That's not 111 00:08:31.759 --> 00:08:37.720 the case. Not Med shaming anyone. However, if one of your recovery 112 00:08:37.759 --> 00:08:43.149 goals is to successfully function without drugs, it's okay. You can go ahead 113 00:08:43.149 --> 00:08:46.269 and celebrate your success. Don't let let people gasp like you into thinking that 114 00:08:46.509 --> 00:08:50.470 their way is the only way, because illness is not a contest. The 115 00:08:50.549 --> 00:08:54.980 one who consumes the most meds does not win. We're all just trying to 116 00:08:56.139 --> 00:08:58.620 feel better. And again, you may have heard me say it on the 117 00:08:58.700 --> 00:09:03.100 internet or out of podcast. I'm an anarchist. I don't give a fuck 118 00:09:03.139 --> 00:09:05.860 what you're putting your body. I just want you to feel better and, 119 00:09:05.659 --> 00:09:09.940 conversely, I don't care if you don't put anything in your body. I 120 00:09:09.049 --> 00:09:11.649 read a book once when I was younger about a guy who went from being, 121 00:09:11.929 --> 00:09:16.649 you know, regular Omnivore, to become a vegetarian, to becoming a 122 00:09:18.129 --> 00:09:22.970 Vegan, to becoming a fruitarian, then an Aquitarian, where he survived only 123 00:09:22.009 --> 00:09:26.159 on water, and then he became an Artarian, where he learned to survive 124 00:09:26.320 --> 00:09:31.879 only on air. Obviously I think that's bullshit, but it's just it's fascinating 125 00:09:31.919 --> 00:09:35.399 that you know what people think is okay for them or what might help them 126 00:09:35.440 --> 00:09:39.669 if you found something that works for you, fucking do it, but don't 127 00:09:39.990 --> 00:09:46.629 diminish people because they've successfully lived without medication, anymore than somebody without meds diminishes 128 00:09:46.669 --> 00:09:50.950 others for taking them. It's just stupid argument. Why are you guys fighting 129 00:09:50.990 --> 00:09:58.580 about that? So simply, just to recap, I find unlicensed, UN 130 00:09:58.580 --> 00:10:05.580 trained medical advice for mental health patients completely unethical. If you take this show 131 00:10:05.700 --> 00:10:09.690 to be advice, don't be an idiot. I'm an entertainer. I've been 132 00:10:09.730 --> 00:10:13.169 an entertainer since I was a kid it you know, I've just done all 133 00:10:13.250 --> 00:10:18.330 kinds of things in that realm and I've never considered myself anything but entertainer and 134 00:10:18.370 --> 00:10:22.600 then an activist. I'm not a medical professional. I'm a guy suffering from 135 00:10:22.639 --> 00:10:28.840 bipolar. This is my journey. You're listening to this because you're following along, 136 00:10:28.879 --> 00:10:31.799 presumably, but I'm not here to help you. So, unfortunately, 137 00:10:31.240 --> 00:10:35.549 if you've got a very specific issue, don't call me. I'm not giving 138 00:10:35.590 --> 00:10:41.509 out my fucking phone number on the Internet so people can swap me just I 139 00:10:41.629 --> 00:10:45.230 can send you all the information I have about things in your area. I 140 00:10:45.309 --> 00:10:48.750 could point to to resources you know, and frankly, that could be a 141 00:10:48.870 --> 00:10:50.899 service. I'm not getting involved with it. It's not my forte. But 142 00:10:50.980 --> 00:10:54.980 if you want to help somebody with purerocracy, cool, try that. That 143 00:10:56.100 --> 00:11:00.059 could work. Again, tread lightly, though, on accepting money or any 144 00:11:00.100 --> 00:11:03.980 kind of gift, because then it's implied that you're doing it in a quid 145 00:11:03.059 --> 00:11:09.129 pro quel fashion and you're just not qualified to do that. Likewise, if 146 00:11:09.169 --> 00:11:13.210 you build something, control it. It's yours to control. Don't let people 147 00:11:13.210 --> 00:11:18.960 fuck with your projects. And you know, because people could always go build 148 00:11:18.000 --> 00:11:22.320 their own. Half of the reason I do these podcasts to encourage other people 149 00:11:22.360 --> 00:11:26.799 to do their own podcast. and well, so be it. So go 150 00:11:26.960 --> 00:11:30.399 do your own podcast. Don't come shit in my house, Shit in my 151 00:11:30.519 --> 00:11:35.230 woods or whatever. And, more importantly, don't appear as though you're a 152 00:11:35.309 --> 00:11:39.750 user stepping on podcast to podcast to podcast, you know, trying to make 153 00:11:39.789 --> 00:11:41.750 an anime for yourself, like you're a professional. You're not a professional. 154 00:11:41.789 --> 00:11:46.149 You're not a professional doctor, you're not a professional therapist, you're not a 155 00:11:46.190 --> 00:11:50.940 professional podcaster. Get it together, otherwise you're a danger. You know you're 156 00:11:52.179 --> 00:11:56.220 you creating mayhem for other people and it may or may not work out, 157 00:11:56.220 --> 00:11:58.620 but that's not a gamble. I'm going to take with this show. So 158 00:11:58.940 --> 00:12:05.250 anyway, no more colost. So one fun thing I did today. It 159 00:12:05.330 --> 00:12:07.929 was kind of a fun thing precipitated by a not so fun thing. It 160 00:12:09.090 --> 00:12:18.799 turns out someone close to me has erupted into this narcissistic personality disorder. None 161 00:12:18.799 --> 00:12:22.600 of the rest of us were aware of it fully. Some like, oh 162 00:12:22.639 --> 00:12:24.960 Cheez, I got to get out of here. I need some space to 163 00:12:24.039 --> 00:12:28.480 breathe. I cannot deal with in PD type folks. I was raised by 164 00:12:28.559 --> 00:12:33.870 one and I know all the tailtale signs and I know when to back away. 165 00:12:35.470 --> 00:12:39.549 So it's Tuesday and apparently in this town I'm in, Tuesday is cheap 166 00:12:39.990 --> 00:12:45.299 movie day, so I went out and saw Captain Marvel, which was surprisingly 167 00:12:45.379 --> 00:12:50.659 good. At generally like Marvel Universe movies. I don't really have a favorite. 168 00:12:50.659 --> 00:12:54.259 I do like some more than others, but this captain marvel one was 169 00:12:54.340 --> 00:12:58.179 fucking a lot better than I thought it would, let's give it that. 170 00:12:58.809 --> 00:13:03.970 So I found it really interesting, especially that they focused on emotions. So 171 00:13:05.049 --> 00:13:09.490 there's there's several scenes where the mentor and the Mentee, let's call her, 172 00:13:11.529 --> 00:13:16.919 had discussions about how emotions are bad and emotions are not the soul of a 173 00:13:16.000 --> 00:13:20.200 warrior or some bullshit like that. And by the end of the movie it 174 00:13:20.360 --> 00:13:26.200 turns out that controlling your emotions and using them appropriately are exactly the things that 175 00:13:26.360 --> 00:13:30.110 will save the world. You know. So that's if nothing else, go 176 00:13:30.269 --> 00:13:33.909 see it for that message that controlling your emotions are the things that can save 177 00:13:35.029 --> 00:13:39.269 the world. Stifling your emotions does not make you a fucking warrior, you 178 00:13:39.509 --> 00:13:43.659 goof makes you more like a caveman and undeveloped human that doesn't know how to 179 00:13:43.779 --> 00:13:50.340 deal with emotions, because, honestly, warriors have to have emotions to anger 180 00:13:50.500 --> 00:13:52.899 rage, those are emotions. You have to know when to control them and 181 00:13:52.980 --> 00:13:56.409 when not to control it. But lots of cool stuff, a lot of 182 00:13:56.450 --> 00:14:01.450 good connective tissue that explains many other parts of the rest of the avengers story. 183 00:14:01.889 --> 00:14:05.809 I thought that was really cool. We got to see why fury doesn't 184 00:14:05.809 --> 00:14:09.440 have an eye. That was neat, kind of like when in Solo, 185 00:14:09.600 --> 00:14:13.679 the Star Wars one, where we got to see Han Solo meet Chewbacca for 186 00:14:13.759 --> 00:14:16.639 the first time and we got to see and meet Lando Cal Rizzi in and 187 00:14:16.799 --> 00:14:22.159 when the Millennium Falcon was brand new. I like Solo for that, and 188 00:14:22.600 --> 00:14:26.070 Captain Marvel had a lot of origins pieces thrown in there and I thought that 189 00:14:26.190 --> 00:14:31.070 was exceptional. And a lot of the other parts that we know from the 190 00:14:31.190 --> 00:14:35.710 other avengers movies, both like Captain America, Solo Movies, thor and whatnot, 191 00:14:35.070 --> 00:14:39.860 kind of all come together with Captain Marvel, which sets up things pretty 192 00:14:39.899 --> 00:14:43.620 nicely for next month's avengers end game. I think that's what it is, 193 00:14:43.659 --> 00:14:46.580 end game. Yeah, so it looks pretty cool. You know, I 194 00:14:46.700 --> 00:14:50.100 don't where I am now movies, isn't the thing? Like when I was 195 00:14:50.139 --> 00:14:54.090 in San Francisco Downtown, I had a movie pass is twenty bucks a month 196 00:14:54.090 --> 00:14:58.169 and I'd go see movies all the time for twenty bucks. So I see 197 00:14:58.289 --> 00:15:03.330 far fewer movies now, but that one was really cool. I like movies 198 00:15:03.370 --> 00:15:07.279 that deal with emotions in a kind of upbeat, positive way. They didn't 199 00:15:07.279 --> 00:15:11.000 beat you over the head with it. And Man, the whole movie was 200 00:15:11.159 --> 00:15:16.440 like it was all women, like I think was women code directed, women 201 00:15:16.519 --> 00:15:22.110 leads and, if not women, people of Color, black people. Let's 202 00:15:22.110 --> 00:15:24.629 say what people say people of Color. We're all a color. I think 203 00:15:24.710 --> 00:15:28.470 black people like to be called black people, least in two thousand and nineteen. 204 00:15:28.470 --> 00:15:31.669 There's nothing wrong with be called black person. Often Times I wish I 205 00:15:31.710 --> 00:15:35.779 was a black person so I could experience that, to which my black friends 206 00:15:35.820 --> 00:15:39.539 saying, though, you don't. But anyway. So the whole movie was 207 00:15:39.700 --> 00:15:46.220 very progressive in that sense. The only male lead that was white was not 208 00:15:46.340 --> 00:15:50.289 a was not a good guy. Spoiler alert. Wait the fuck spoiler alerts 209 00:15:50.490 --> 00:15:54.570 if you if you don't want to movie spoiled, go see it when it 210 00:15:54.649 --> 00:15:56.529 opens. We're not going to wait around a month for you fucking get around 211 00:15:56.570 --> 00:16:00.289 and Oh no, don't tell me, don't tell me. No, fucking 212 00:16:00.330 --> 00:16:02.610 go see the movie if you want to know. Otherwise we're going to talk 213 00:16:02.649 --> 00:16:06.120 about we're not going to hold our conversation waiting for your dumb ass to go 214 00:16:06.200 --> 00:16:08.120 see the movie already. Go see it if you care about spoilers or not. 215 00:16:08.759 --> 00:16:14.039 But anyway, the the one main white actor in the movie, White 216 00:16:14.080 --> 00:16:15.720 Male actor. He turns out to be the bad guy, which is a 217 00:16:15.879 --> 00:16:22.110 great flip on the on the whole Hollywood script. Anyway, join the party 218 00:16:22.429 --> 00:16:26.750 at Bipolar Partycom so I went and saw a therapist last week. I'm going 219 00:16:26.870 --> 00:16:30.590 back again this week. That was good, you know, I kind of 220 00:16:30.950 --> 00:16:34.500 pulling it back together. Haven't seen a therapist since like may of last year, 221 00:16:34.539 --> 00:16:37.899 so it's almost been a full year, maybe nine or ten months, 222 00:16:37.940 --> 00:16:42.659 since I've seen the therapist. In that time between I've moved, change jobs 223 00:16:42.700 --> 00:16:48.090 and, you know, a lot of high stress situations and I've not been 224 00:16:48.210 --> 00:16:52.330 on medication since I left my last job and ran out of the insurance there. 225 00:16:52.409 --> 00:16:55.649 Because I haven't I don't honestly know where to sign up for insurance in 226 00:16:55.730 --> 00:16:59.570 this town or how to even do that, because I'm not good at bureaucracy. 227 00:16:59.610 --> 00:17:03.360 I think I really do have adhd when it comes to things like dealing 228 00:17:03.399 --> 00:17:07.839 with bureaucracy, for example. So I go without insurance and without therapy. 229 00:17:07.880 --> 00:17:10.599 At any rate. I found a cool dude. He's like an ex cop 230 00:17:11.240 --> 00:17:14.839 and he's full on into minimalism and he seems he's got kind of a Buddhist 231 00:17:14.839 --> 00:17:18.069 air to him, but I'm pretty sure he's a Christian, which a COP 232 00:17:18.269 --> 00:17:22.910 Christian therapist. You're saying what I thought the same thing. The Dude seems 233 00:17:22.950 --> 00:17:30.619 pretty cool and I'm not going to disparage cops to his face or religion to 234 00:17:30.740 --> 00:17:34.140 his face or anything, because we're not we're not talking about labels in the 235 00:17:34.220 --> 00:17:37.380 sense of what we have and I think that's a new thing too. I 236 00:17:37.500 --> 00:17:44.849 noticed at Kaiser in California. She looked at my chart and saw bipolar disorder, 237 00:17:45.329 --> 00:17:48.690 but she she didn't even mention it, though she her whole thing was 238 00:17:48.849 --> 00:17:52.730 it's called, I think, outcome based therapy, where they talk about with 239 00:17:52.890 --> 00:17:56.930 you, you know, we discuss how you want to feel. What do 240 00:17:56.970 --> 00:17:59.599 you want to change in your life? We don't talk about like the labels. 241 00:17:59.640 --> 00:18:02.160 We don't reinforce that, oh well, you have bipolar disorder, so 242 00:18:02.359 --> 00:18:04.039 therefore you have to do x, Y and Z. It's not like that 243 00:18:04.079 --> 00:18:07.960 at all anymore. And modern therapy, apparently it's all about well, how 244 00:18:08.000 --> 00:18:11.160 do you feel? How would you like to feel differently, and I really 245 00:18:11.200 --> 00:18:15.789 appreciated that and it got me to thinking that maybe if we all focused on 246 00:18:15.829 --> 00:18:22.990 on that, on the outcome, our therapy or a progress or our recovery, 247 00:18:22.589 --> 00:18:26.630 would be a lot easier if we just focused on how we wanted to 248 00:18:26.710 --> 00:18:30.339 feel, which led me to my research of emotions and mood and just basic 249 00:18:30.380 --> 00:18:34.859 human affect. You know, affect is it's just our general kind of state 250 00:18:34.900 --> 00:18:41.019 of being before mood or emotions come into play. A lot of people confuse 251 00:18:41.140 --> 00:18:44.970 the word effect with affect when they write it down, it just affect with 252 00:18:45.089 --> 00:18:48.450 the a and the beginning instead. So check it out. Human effect, 253 00:18:48.049 --> 00:18:52.849 moods, emotion, they're all different things, similar and sort of related, 254 00:18:53.529 --> 00:18:56.519 but when it comes down to the way you feel, it's important to you, 255 00:18:57.160 --> 00:19:00.119 you know, address which one of those that you're working on. So 256 00:19:00.319 --> 00:19:03.920 in my case, I'm very reactive, I'm highly sensitive, if you will, 257 00:19:04.640 --> 00:19:08.200 and I react a lot, which pulls up emotions. I just like 258 00:19:08.359 --> 00:19:11.710 reach into the bin of emotions and pull up whatever comes up. Well, 259 00:19:11.990 --> 00:19:17.589 that's not entirely effective. In fact, a lot of times that's counterproductive and 260 00:19:17.710 --> 00:19:22.710 much like in Captain Marvel, I have to learn to control my emotions and 261 00:19:22.829 --> 00:19:26.660 use them in the proper way to rule the world or save the world or 262 00:19:26.779 --> 00:19:32.380 whatever the fuck it was. So I'm going to focus more on emotions. 263 00:19:32.460 --> 00:19:34.740 In fact, I'm going to do a show called emotions where I just talk 264 00:19:34.859 --> 00:19:40.849 about emotions versus mood and each week or each day, whenever I get on 265 00:19:40.930 --> 00:19:44.970 the mic, I'm going to discuss the emotion I'm feeling, how I got 266 00:19:45.009 --> 00:19:48.410 to that emotion and how I can kind of control it. So, hopefully, 267 00:19:48.450 --> 00:19:52.809 again as an activist, I want to change the social and public view 268 00:19:52.000 --> 00:19:56.119 of mental health and mental illnesses. So, therefore, I think a show 269 00:19:56.119 --> 00:20:00.359 about emotions, especially coming from a dude, might be helpful. We can 270 00:20:00.400 --> 00:20:03.400 talk about emotions. People say, Oh, yes, stifle your emotions. 271 00:20:03.440 --> 00:20:07.710 They don't. Those people don't stifle their emotions. They run around angry, 272 00:20:07.750 --> 00:20:11.390 enraged and all that. They pretend like that's not an emotion. People that 273 00:20:11.470 --> 00:20:14.470 say you got to stifle your emotions, they only mean you got to stifle 274 00:20:14.750 --> 00:20:18.589 the weak emotions, the ones they consider weak, like crying or sensitivity. 275 00:20:18.710 --> 00:20:22.859 Or sensitivity is not an emotion. You get what I'm saying. So they 276 00:20:22.859 --> 00:20:26.500 want you to stifle only the feminine emotions, but it's okay to embrace the 277 00:20:26.539 --> 00:20:30.339 male emotions, the more Mancho now that's dumb. We're going to dig deeper 278 00:20:30.539 --> 00:20:36.250 into emotions and mood and how they both work together so that we can feel 279 00:20:36.250 --> 00:20:41.730 better, because the more I focus on bipolar for example, it just it's 280 00:20:41.849 --> 00:20:45.970 circulates. I see a lot of us in the twitter sphere. We keep 281 00:20:45.049 --> 00:20:48.450 circulating the same articles. I'm not sure if we're. I know where I 282 00:20:48.490 --> 00:20:52.960 get mine. Front I usually like read scientific papers or articles based on a 283 00:20:53.000 --> 00:20:57.160 scientific paper, and I'm usually really quick on it and then weeks later I'll 284 00:20:57.160 --> 00:21:02.759 see other bloggers talking about the same shit. So, whether we're copying each 285 00:21:02.759 --> 00:21:07.109 other or all getting it from the same sources at different times, we're kind 286 00:21:07.150 --> 00:21:08.869 of like in our own bubble and I'd like to break free of that a 287 00:21:08.990 --> 00:21:15.269 little bit more by only focusing on emotions. And again, it's only going 288 00:21:15.309 --> 00:21:19.460 to be my emotions. I'm not telling you how to have emotions. I'm 289 00:21:19.500 --> 00:21:23.380 not saying I'm an advocate for you and your emotions. It's just going to 290 00:21:23.420 --> 00:21:30.539 be a continuation of my journey how I'm working out my mood disorder by addressing 291 00:21:30.579 --> 00:21:33.650 the emotions. And again, it's not going to be label based like well, 292 00:21:33.690 --> 00:21:37.049 what do you have? I have borderline and I have bipolar and PTSD 293 00:21:37.210 --> 00:21:40.970 and anxiety. Who gives a fuck, how do you feel? Let's work 294 00:21:41.009 --> 00:21:44.170 on that. Let's work on how you feel now and how you want to 295 00:21:44.210 --> 00:21:48.240 feel next. And by focusing on the emotions, I think we'll be able 296 00:21:48.279 --> 00:21:52.640 to get a lot further, a lot faster. Not that again, not 297 00:21:52.759 --> 00:21:56.400 that it's a contest, but in this case it's a fun contest, if 298 00:21:56.480 --> 00:22:00.799 it were a contest, because we're just trying to get better, taking more 299 00:22:00.880 --> 00:22:03.910 MED's is not going to make us better. It will just cover the symptoms. 300 00:22:04.349 --> 00:22:07.509 More you get me, in fact, I think I deleted a bunch 301 00:22:07.509 --> 00:22:11.750 of episodes where we talk about that a lot and that the MED's the drugs 302 00:22:11.789 --> 00:22:17.940 you take for your mental disorders, for your neuroses. They're only covering the 303 00:22:18.059 --> 00:22:23.980 symptoms, generally speaking. If you're schizophrenic, they're actually some physiological things that 304 00:22:25.019 --> 00:22:29.940 are happening there, but generally speaking you have to go and Reprogram your brain 305 00:22:30.049 --> 00:22:33.769 with new knowledge, with New People and new locations. If you're in a 306 00:22:33.849 --> 00:22:37.410 fucked up situation, that all has to be changed. Otherwise, the MED's 307 00:22:37.490 --> 00:22:41.809 you just keep taking them and keep taking them and you'll never actually be better. 308 00:22:41.009 --> 00:22:45.359 You might feel better until you stop taking the drugs, but that's almost 309 00:22:45.400 --> 00:22:49.240 like addiction. It's not addiction because the mechanism is different, but it's habitually 310 00:22:49.279 --> 00:22:55.319 addictive. It's a habit. You're habitually taking those drugs to make yourself feel 311 00:22:55.400 --> 00:22:57.589 better because, oh, woe is me, I can't get out of bed. 312 00:22:57.630 --> 00:23:00.190 I can't. Yeah, I get it. Fuck, yeah, I 313 00:23:00.230 --> 00:23:02.269 get it. I do that all the time, but I don't say it. 314 00:23:02.430 --> 00:23:04.230 I don't get on the Internet and like preach it and you know, 315 00:23:04.309 --> 00:23:07.349 what you put out in the world is what comes back to you. If 316 00:23:07.390 --> 00:23:11.029 you're preaching that, you're wine and all the time about I feel bad. 317 00:23:14.500 --> 00:23:18.740 Guess what, that's what the energy that's coming back to you like attracts like 318 00:23:18.420 --> 00:23:22.259 that. Sounds like a dumb cliche, but in a way it works. 319 00:23:22.579 --> 00:23:26.380 I think Oprah talked about it, the law of attraction, all that Shit. 320 00:23:26.059 --> 00:23:30.009 I don't know, seems a little hocus focused to me, but in 321 00:23:30.529 --> 00:23:33.970 retrospect a lot of it is just wisdom. If you if you're friendly, 322 00:23:34.089 --> 00:23:37.329 if you smile more, people will smile back at you. If you're whining, 323 00:23:37.849 --> 00:23:41.039 what is the old cliche? Laugh and the whole world laughs with you, 324 00:23:41.440 --> 00:23:45.759 cry and you cry alone. Well, now we have the Internet and 325 00:23:45.880 --> 00:23:48.960 people can cry on the Internet and everyone will jump in and cry with them. 326 00:23:48.200 --> 00:23:52.400 It's the most fucking crazy thing out there. It's like depression in that 327 00:23:52.559 --> 00:23:59.990 sense. Is is contagious. People just depressed reading other people's depressing shit and 328 00:24:00.150 --> 00:24:03.630 the idea that suicide rates keep going up. That's because when you see suicide 329 00:24:03.670 --> 00:24:07.630 as a viable option on the Internet, all of a sudden you think it's 330 00:24:07.630 --> 00:24:11.420 a viable option. That shit's contagious to not in the traditional sense of germs, 331 00:24:11.740 --> 00:24:15.660 but we've got to think a lot more bigger picture than just germs. 332 00:24:15.019 --> 00:24:19.059 There's germs in the fucking photons coming off the light on your screens, in 333 00:24:19.220 --> 00:24:22.900 a sense. You know what I mean? What you don't know what I 334 00:24:22.940 --> 00:24:26.250 mean? Come on, catch up. So, anyway, my next show 335 00:24:26.490 --> 00:24:30.730 I'm going to do it just called emotions. It's already up in Itunes, 336 00:24:30.809 --> 00:24:33.529 but those are old episodes. Like, if you haven't been following that show, 337 00:24:34.210 --> 00:24:40.480 here's how that went. I started doing one called manic episodes and I 338 00:24:40.599 --> 00:24:44.200 thought, yeah, now I'm just focusing on my mania. Then I had 339 00:24:44.319 --> 00:24:48.039 one called chaos update, which I thought, yeah, that's a cool name, 340 00:24:48.480 --> 00:24:49.839 but I'm like, Oh, wait, now I'm just generating more chaos 341 00:24:49.920 --> 00:24:55.509 in my life because I'm just focusing on the chaos. So the nature of 342 00:24:55.630 --> 00:24:59.789 those particular shows, in the things I talked about, are not nearly as 343 00:24:59.829 --> 00:25:06.630 focused as the podcast that will become, which is simply called emotions. And 344 00:25:06.990 --> 00:25:11.140 in this sense I don't have a problem simply focusing on my emotions because once 345 00:25:11.220 --> 00:25:15.500 I focus on them, I can learn to control them better, I can 346 00:25:15.539 --> 00:25:19.900 learn to pick the most appropriate one and respond accordingly instead of reacting with the 347 00:25:21.019 --> 00:25:26.329 wrong emotion. So I hope you're able to check that out. My twitter 348 00:25:26.410 --> 00:25:32.089 handle is at John Emotions. That's a lock to count. So you have 349 00:25:32.210 --> 00:25:34.609 to ask for permission to follow me there. They don't want to fucking Weirdos 350 00:25:34.650 --> 00:25:41.519 following me. And if you're a band or a brand, don't bother. 351 00:25:41.559 --> 00:25:45.359 I don't follow bands or brands back because they're all trying to sell me something. 352 00:25:45.359 --> 00:25:47.559 They're all trying to send me their fucking demo tape. You know what 353 00:25:47.680 --> 00:25:49.670 a demo tape is? An obligation. It's not a gift. When you 354 00:25:49.789 --> 00:25:53.269 give somebody a demo tape, if you're in a band, demo whatever, 355 00:25:53.349 --> 00:25:57.029 Demo tape, whatever you call it, it really is. It's an obligation, 356 00:25:57.750 --> 00:26:03.309 just like authors and their books and filmmakers in their films. Like here, 357 00:26:03.869 --> 00:26:07.460 watch this, read this, listen to this. I'm like, that's 358 00:26:07.500 --> 00:26:10.220 too much. It's too much. I'm not here to listen. I'm not 359 00:26:10.259 --> 00:26:15.420 an advocate, I'm an activist. I'm here to speak. So maybe selfish, 360 00:26:15.500 --> 00:26:18.059 but whatever. Just want to clear the air. I'm an activist. 361 00:26:18.500 --> 00:26:22.329 I'm going to talk. You can listen if you want to. You fucking 362 00:26:22.450 --> 00:26:26.170 deleted if you don't want to. Whatever. I do appreciate you, though. 363 00:26:26.289 --> 00:26:29.250 There's a lot of you out there and I hope some of this resonates 364 00:26:29.289 --> 00:26:32.880 with you, and if so, man, fucking share it, subscribe. 365 00:26:33.200 --> 00:26:36.640 There will be plenty more. And again, it's just going to be me 366 00:26:37.000 --> 00:26:41.359 for the for the time being, for the foreseeable future, just me. 367 00:26:41.440 --> 00:26:48.150 Yeah, like it, hate it, whatever. I do take the criticism 368 00:26:48.230 --> 00:26:51.829 to heart. So anytime I get an email or a message or a call 369 00:26:51.910 --> 00:26:56.470 or whatever, I listened to it and I will make changes accordingly, so 370 00:26:56.589 --> 00:26:59.670 long as it fits in with the vision I have for the show. Overall, 371 00:27:00.150 --> 00:27:03.579 cool. All right, enough about me. What about you? Oh 372 00:27:03.619 --> 00:27:07.460 wait, I'm not listening to you. I'm not advocate. All right, 373 00:27:07.460 --> 00:27:10.059 I got to get back to what I was doing in the other room, 374 00:27:10.700 --> 00:27:14.819 which was absolutely nothing. I was meditating and stretching and I think I'm going 375 00:27:14.819 --> 00:27:18.329 to go do some more of that tonight and drink some water. When the 376 00:27:18.410 --> 00:27:21.569 sun comes up, I'm going to go play in the sunshine. So in 377 00:27:21.650 --> 00:27:25.970 the meantime I will see you on twitter and have a fucking excellent day. 378 00:27:26.009 --> 00:27:37.160 Chow styles on I cheese a five following on twitter. Joy Excuse me,