Season 2 Recap: How to Become a Mental Health Advocacy Superstar ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.520 --> 00:00:15.789 It's only now it's online Bible this stylecom motions with Bible style. You GODDAMN 2 00:00:15.830 --> 00:00:20.390 motherfuckers. You fucking Walt in here. You think you know everything, don't 3 00:00:20.429 --> 00:00:24.699 you? Well, I fucking work my fucking ass off and you sure as 4 00:00:24.820 --> 00:00:28.899 fuck I'm not gonna fucking blow wood for me now. I'm now on. 5 00:00:29.460 --> 00:00:33.140 All your little bits are going to be under two minutes in duration and all 6 00:00:33.299 --> 00:00:39.329 scripts, and I do mean all scripts, require my personal approval. You 7 00:00:39.490 --> 00:00:43.850 see the kind of conditions I have to work in around here. I'm over 8 00:00:43.969 --> 00:00:49.049 it, man, I'm over it. Hey, welcome back to Bipolarh Stil. 9 00:00:49.689 --> 00:00:55.679 I'm johnny motions, high top the tenderloin in San Francisco, USA. 10 00:00:56.719 --> 00:01:00.960 So yeah, man, it's been a pretty wild month. I've done another 11 00:01:00.000 --> 00:01:07.469 podcast, so I've talked quite a bit about my experiences over there and I 12 00:01:07.989 --> 00:01:11.909 kind of felt like I had done this podcast already. So I hope I 13 00:01:11.950 --> 00:01:15.950 don't repeat too many of those type of things. Or if you heard that 14 00:01:15.189 --> 00:01:19.939 podcast, then you know you'll know what I'm talking about. So wow, 15 00:01:21.859 --> 00:01:26.620 all right, this podcast. You know I've been it's like episode twenty five. 16 00:01:26.659 --> 00:01:32.659 I didn't mean to do so many episodes into season two here. Basically 17 00:01:32.659 --> 00:01:37.969 you do like, I don't know, like twelvesh episodes per season, and 18 00:01:38.849 --> 00:01:44.530 two seasons roughly equals a year. It's kind of modeled after TV because I 19 00:01:44.650 --> 00:01:49.159 was drained in TV and just it's what it's, what's ingrained in my brain. 20 00:01:49.239 --> 00:01:56.560 Also, in music you release albums in sets of ten songs and sometimes 21 00:01:56.640 --> 00:02:00.040 a bonus song or two for somebody they need little extra money. So anyway. 22 00:02:00.120 --> 00:02:04.670 But dozen't or so seems about right when you mix the two metaphors of 23 00:02:04.750 --> 00:02:10.389 music industry and TV industry. But with this show here, let me back 24 00:02:10.430 --> 00:02:15.270 up a step. You'll get a lot of show here and twenty minutes because 25 00:02:15.430 --> 00:02:20.180 hey, you know I'm sometimes hypo manic. Anyway. So back up. 26 00:02:20.500 --> 00:02:29.419 The reason I started this show originally was because I wanted like a podcast that 27 00:02:29.699 --> 00:02:37.169 sounded like what's called a DBSA meeting. DBSA stands for depression and bipolar support 28 00:02:37.210 --> 00:02:44.560 alliance, and they have meetings all around America. So in these meetings people 29 00:02:44.840 --> 00:02:49.039 go around the circle, they check in, they say their name, they 30 00:02:49.120 --> 00:02:51.719 tell how their week was real quickly, like a scale of one hundred and 31 00:02:51.759 --> 00:02:53.000 ten. I had a shitty week, had a great week, and then 32 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:59.469 they indicate whether or not they want to share something specific more in depth later, 33 00:03:00.389 --> 00:03:02.469 so they can kind of work your way around circle. And then the 34 00:03:02.509 --> 00:03:06.509 moderate will come up and said, all right, we've got eight people that 35 00:03:06.590 --> 00:03:09.389 want to share. Let's start with you know, we'll go clockwise and Bob 36 00:03:09.509 --> 00:03:14.139 on the left, you go first, and then Bob will say, okay, 37 00:03:14.500 --> 00:03:19.580 well, thanks. Yeah, Bob here and well, you know, 38 00:03:19.860 --> 00:03:23.259 having a really hard time at work. My supervisors really big and getting on 39 00:03:23.379 --> 00:03:29.169 me and whatever. Okay, so you get it. So I derive a 40 00:03:29.210 --> 00:03:32.409 lot of value from those meetings in person and I noticed there were a lot 41 00:03:32.490 --> 00:03:38.650 of people that would drive for hours literally to the meetings in San Francisco, 42 00:03:38.729 --> 00:03:44.479 which are fairly established. Well, they're very established. They've been here twenty 43 00:03:44.479 --> 00:03:49.120 years, I think, and there's people coming from like like Taho all the 44 00:03:49.159 --> 00:03:52.479 way down to San Francisco. So I was thinking, man, there's got 45 00:03:52.520 --> 00:03:55.189 to be a way to do this using technology, to put it on the 46 00:03:55.229 --> 00:04:02.389 Internet somehow, what the Hell? So slowly put up like a yammer group 47 00:04:02.909 --> 00:04:06.909 was like I wanted to get off of facebook and twitter in that I just 48 00:04:08.069 --> 00:04:11.740 I just want to like a private kind of online forum that didn't really have 49 00:04:12.020 --> 00:04:17.139 the constrictive rules of a true national organization run by professionals that were paid and 50 00:04:17.259 --> 00:04:19.740 things like that. I'm just not that kind of person. I'm kind of 51 00:04:19.819 --> 00:04:26.209 like an anarchist. I just not into rules and other people's groups and whatever. 52 00:04:26.250 --> 00:04:29.129 I wanted to start my own group and mostly for the folks here in 53 00:04:29.370 --> 00:04:35.410 San Francisco, so that was cool. started mood swinger and everyone kind of 54 00:04:35.490 --> 00:04:40.199 did there and it was gold. Did you know? It worked for exactly 55 00:04:40.279 --> 00:04:46.560 what I thought it intended it to do. Right. So, HMM Oh, 56 00:04:46.800 --> 00:04:49.439 except they didn't work for me. I moved away from San Francisco and 57 00:04:50.920 --> 00:04:54.670 then I realized, wait, okay, that well, part of it was 58 00:04:54.790 --> 00:04:58.990 that the technology, like Yammer, was not the best thing for that, 59 00:04:59.350 --> 00:05:03.430 especially after Microsoft bought it kind of wrecked it a little bit. Anyway, 60 00:05:03.430 --> 00:05:05.990 I don't want to go on a rant there. So anyway, just the 61 00:05:06.029 --> 00:05:10.180 technology was not quiet what I was looking for. I tried Google, hang 62 00:05:10.259 --> 00:05:15.420 out to tried just different stuff. Anyway, the next thing I was like, 63 00:05:15.500 --> 00:05:18.420 well, I still what I really missed kind of was hearing other people's 64 00:05:18.860 --> 00:05:24.410 stories. So I didn't it wasn't the typing. I didn't need another exercise 65 00:05:24.529 --> 00:05:29.170 for my fingers. It wasn't staring at another piece of plastic with lights behind 66 00:05:29.209 --> 00:05:30.329 it. I'm like, I don't need to stay and it's not that. 67 00:05:30.850 --> 00:05:35.959 What I liked was hearing other people's stories, getting the emotion in their voice, 68 00:05:36.480 --> 00:05:42.079 that sort of thing. And so, obviously, you know, it's 69 00:05:42.279 --> 00:05:46.759 twenty seventeen or eighteen, twenty seventeen back then, and I'm like, well, 70 00:05:46.759 --> 00:05:48.920 Shit, a podcast, how about that? But we do a podcast 71 00:05:49.870 --> 00:05:54.870 and my idea was like just put in my in the middle of this DBSA 72 00:05:55.029 --> 00:06:00.149 meeting. Of course you can't just go do that, because that's that's their 73 00:06:00.230 --> 00:06:02.189 group, that's their meeting, that's that how they do their thing. No, 74 00:06:02.430 --> 00:06:06.259 no, I fuck. How do I do this? Like, okay, 75 00:06:06.660 --> 00:06:10.699 let's go back to that old online group thing and find people that want 76 00:06:10.699 --> 00:06:15.939 to do it. So I go online and now the technology is slack. 77 00:06:15.180 --> 00:06:17.970 Do you guys use slack? When I was in Los Angeles at a Tech 78 00:06:18.050 --> 00:06:26.730 Company, everybody was using slack. So now we use slack. Excuse me. 79 00:06:30.250 --> 00:06:31.810 Yes, slack is just it was super easy. You could put it 80 00:06:31.810 --> 00:06:34.959 in your pocket, you put it on your phone and once you get an 81 00:06:35.079 --> 00:06:41.040 invite link, you can just go forward your domain name to the invite link. 82 00:06:42.519 --> 00:06:47.709 Hold on one second, join the party. Add bipolar PARTYCOM. Don't 83 00:06:47.790 --> 00:06:54.550 forget to join the party at bipolar PARTYCOM and that. Oh that's pretty good 84 00:06:54.589 --> 00:07:00.069 timing actually, because that is the domain name I bought and pointed it to 85 00:07:00.149 --> 00:07:02.420 my slack name, to my slack invite link. I mean so if you 86 00:07:02.459 --> 00:07:08.220 go to bipolar PARTYCOM, it simply goes to the IT public invite link for 87 00:07:08.379 --> 00:07:13.019 slack and the people are there. We trust each other, we share, 88 00:07:13.139 --> 00:07:15.970 we chat, we talked, we we might have disagreements down then, but 89 00:07:16.209 --> 00:07:19.970 generally I think most of the people that go there have heard about the link 90 00:07:20.050 --> 00:07:25.449 for im either this show or Becky's show, that B word, which talks 91 00:07:25.490 --> 00:07:30.000 about bipolar and borderline personality disorder. So I think because of the nature of 92 00:07:30.040 --> 00:07:34.120 our shows, most of the people that come there are already fairly politically correct 93 00:07:34.480 --> 00:07:40.120 and kind. So we've haven't had to kick anybody out for being rude or 94 00:07:40.160 --> 00:07:44.910 being creepers or anything like that. So that's that's pretty cool. But the 95 00:07:45.029 --> 00:07:47.389 problem is I still didn't have a podcast. I'm like, well, I 96 00:07:47.509 --> 00:07:53.550 still didn't have my ideal of having the circle of people sharing their stories in 97 00:07:53.750 --> 00:07:57.189 audio format for the world to hear, because I think that's one of the 98 00:07:57.269 --> 00:08:01.459 best ways to break down stigma, is to let people share their stories in 99 00:08:01.579 --> 00:08:07.019 their own voices without any real rules. That way the listening public will start 100 00:08:07.019 --> 00:08:09.740 to understand, oh, these are just fucking regular people that happen to be 101 00:08:09.779 --> 00:08:13.769 going through troubling emotions right now. Let's help them instead of shun them with 102 00:08:13.970 --> 00:08:30.839 labels. You feel me? Don't let me forget to tell you about the 103 00:08:30.959 --> 00:08:37.559 cat. Okay, anyway, even with the online group now, bipolar party, 104 00:08:37.960 --> 00:08:41.149 you can't just put a microphone in front of people and say hey, 105 00:08:41.230 --> 00:08:45.149 now, tell me your story. It took a while, so we had 106 00:08:45.190 --> 00:08:48.149 to build trust with each other and just learn how we were and just kind 107 00:08:48.190 --> 00:08:54.190 of check where each other's head was with regards to, you know, what 108 00:08:54.309 --> 00:08:58.940 they wanted to do with life or with their mental health activism or advocacy or 109 00:08:58.259 --> 00:09:01.100 whatever. I mean. Some people just want to listen and chat and have 110 00:09:01.340 --> 00:09:05.539 no, they don't want to fucking be on a podcast. That's some people 111 00:09:05.539 --> 00:09:07.620 are like, that's stupid. Why would I want to do that? But 112 00:09:09.139 --> 00:09:15.570 there are several people now at bipolar Partycom that are into this idea of podcasting 113 00:09:15.649 --> 00:09:20.450 as a group, which I think is fantastic because I'm that much closer now 114 00:09:20.129 --> 00:09:26.159 to having the bipolar style show be a group of four, five, six 115 00:09:26.200 --> 00:09:33.840 people with a moderator sharing maybe each week their stories there, their successes, 116 00:09:33.679 --> 00:09:39.669 their troubles, but really just getting it off of their shoulders and letting the 117 00:09:39.470 --> 00:09:45.309 listening public know. You know, the kinds of things we go through and 118 00:09:45.509 --> 00:09:50.230 to the extent that the external world affects our feelings. I guess that's a 119 00:09:50.269 --> 00:10:01.220 good way to put it. The cat anyway, I should tell you about 120 00:10:01.220 --> 00:10:03.899 the cat real quick before I move on. So if you've listened to the 121 00:10:03.980 --> 00:10:09.049 other podcasts, Oh, here's one thing about starting to podcast. If you 122 00:10:09.090 --> 00:10:13.690 want to get into the mental health advocacy game, the podcasting things sounds easy, 123 00:10:15.009 --> 00:10:18.730 but man it's hard. If you're like a a perfectionist or a betterist, 124 00:10:18.769 --> 00:10:22.519 I'm like, I call myself a betterist. I don't think there's such 125 00:10:22.600 --> 00:10:26.240 thing really has perfection, but man, you could always make things a little 126 00:10:26.279 --> 00:10:30.759 bit fucking better right like, especially with podcasts, the main thing is the 127 00:10:30.879 --> 00:10:35.080 sound of the audio. If the audio sucks, then your podcasts sucks. 128 00:10:35.710 --> 00:10:39.350 So sorry about that tangent, but I'm like, well, so I can 129 00:10:39.389 --> 00:10:43.549 just go deep in like the the toys. Basically spend too much money on 130 00:10:43.629 --> 00:10:48.710 toys, the microphone, the fucking preamp, the chords, the whole thing, 131 00:10:48.830 --> 00:10:54.700 the software, you can go off and get lost in that. But 132 00:10:54.860 --> 00:11:00.700 when it comes to the mental health part, it's hard to actually pick up 133 00:11:00.980 --> 00:11:07.009 a brand like because I had to start to realize like doing a podcast feels 134 00:11:07.049 --> 00:11:11.009 like putting on your clothes. So each time I was doing a podcast, 135 00:11:11.009 --> 00:11:15.529 I'm going, I'm wearing the same fucking clothes again, and I wanted to 136 00:11:15.610 --> 00:11:18.679 change my clothes. I wanted to do a podcast about this and then about 137 00:11:18.720 --> 00:11:22.440 that and about this. So you have to be careful with with the hosts 138 00:11:22.720 --> 00:11:26.919 that you choose, because the first host I was with, there's nothing wrong 139 00:11:26.960 --> 00:11:31.440 with them, it's just that hold on one second, because I see all 140 00:11:31.519 --> 00:11:33.710 this background stuff about to come up. I'm going to move it over, 141 00:11:35.149 --> 00:11:39.429 trying to record everything live fed over there. Well, I've been talking twelve 142 00:11:39.470 --> 00:11:43.549 minutes. Shit, man, we better get on it, because you got 143 00:11:43.590 --> 00:11:48.820 work to do and I got okay, anyway, change podcast host because the 144 00:11:48.899 --> 00:11:54.419 other one wanted to charge for each additional RSS feed, which is basically each 145 00:11:54.500 --> 00:11:58.059 show you they wanted to charge for a whole new account and I'm like no, 146 00:11:58.179 --> 00:12:01.250 dude, I'm just not. I'm hardly using any storage any bandwidth. 147 00:12:01.289 --> 00:12:07.490 I just want to try different logos and brands and names and ideas for shows 148 00:12:07.649 --> 00:12:09.769 and help other people start. There's even if we only do one or two 149 00:12:09.809 --> 00:12:13.690 episodes. I just wanted to have that freedom to change up a bit. 150 00:12:13.769 --> 00:12:20.960 So if that's your thinking, be careful which host you choose, because that's 151 00:12:20.960 --> 00:12:24.080 the thing. You know some are better for other things. There's like four 152 00:12:24.080 --> 00:12:28.240 or five great podcast hosts and just do your research, as lots of places 153 00:12:28.279 --> 00:12:33.309 you can find out about them anyway. So that was one of the issues. 154 00:12:33.350 --> 00:12:41.909 I had to end up changing RSS Feeds for this particular show, sirens. 155 00:12:45.500 --> 00:12:48.299 So we got that straightened out and I think I probably mentioned it several 156 00:12:48.379 --> 00:12:52.940 times when I was doing the logo. When you do the artwork for a 157 00:12:54.019 --> 00:12:58.929 podcast, it should be readable at super, super tiny size, like thumbnail 158 00:13:00.049 --> 00:13:03.730 size on a telephone, because sometimes it's you know, people are scrolling through 159 00:13:03.850 --> 00:13:09.049 either your twitter account or the artwork on Itunes, fucking podcast or whatever. 160 00:13:09.889 --> 00:13:13.120 So if your artwork has lots of detail and says words and Shit in it 161 00:13:13.320 --> 00:13:16.559 and you're not going to read it. It's going to be a big BLOB 162 00:13:16.039 --> 00:13:22.559 at a super tiny size. Also, Oh, here's the thing. Right 163 00:13:22.679 --> 00:13:26.230 before I put out a logo, I read article that said depressed people like 164 00:13:26.470 --> 00:13:31.590 logos with faces in them. Like, I'm like what you like Colonel Sanders 165 00:13:31.629 --> 00:13:33.870 and things like that. I'm like, God, whatever, okay, so 166 00:13:35.509 --> 00:13:39.710 I whipped out a logo that was a face just for that and that turned 167 00:13:39.750 --> 00:13:41.779 out cool. But you know, even though it's a cool logo and I've 168 00:13:41.779 --> 00:13:45.940 got a stored that sells shirts and I don't have to fulfill that on my 169 00:13:45.980 --> 00:13:48.820 own. It's kind of all automated. Yeah, I don't make any money 170 00:13:48.860 --> 00:13:52.100 selling shirts them, not even enough to cover hosting for a month. So 171 00:13:52.139 --> 00:13:56.409 if you're getting into podcasting thinking you'd going to make a bunch of money with 172 00:13:56.570 --> 00:14:03.850 merchandise or tshirt sales or anything like that, man, that's a bad idea. 173 00:14:03.970 --> 00:14:07.090 Don't do that. Just have just but make sure your art school, 174 00:14:07.169 --> 00:14:09.490 you know what I mean. Make sure it stands out and it's easy to 175 00:14:09.529 --> 00:14:13.360 understand and and it means something to you if you happen to be a designer, 176 00:14:13.360 --> 00:14:15.279 and then, fuck yeah, do it yourself, because then it means 177 00:14:15.279 --> 00:14:26.230 it's that much more right and definitely build an an audience somewhere off of the 178 00:14:26.309 --> 00:14:31.590 social media, like email lists. I have my own website. I've always 179 00:14:31.590 --> 00:14:37.309 had a website of some sort at whatever, whatevercom. You can go to 180 00:14:37.350 --> 00:14:41.179 buipolar stylecom. I think that currently points directly to the itunes feed, the 181 00:14:41.299 --> 00:14:48.019 new feed, hopefully the one you're now subscribe to, but that's only temporary. 182 00:14:48.220 --> 00:14:50.340 Eventually I'll point that back to its full website, like if you go 183 00:14:50.419 --> 00:14:54.809 to Johnnymotionscom, that's kind of a typical website. If you're going to put 184 00:14:54.850 --> 00:15:01.049 together something in the podcasting blog realm, you want to be able to capture 185 00:15:01.090 --> 00:15:05.289 people's email addresses, not to spam them. Like how many times have I 186 00:15:05.450 --> 00:15:09.919 emailed you? Like some of you, lots of you, actually have signed 187 00:15:09.960 --> 00:15:13.960 up to my email list and you know that I've never spammed you. I've 188 00:15:13.960 --> 00:15:16.799 never even sent you an email. I should probably do that. I should 189 00:15:16.799 --> 00:15:20.750 probably email all the old subscribers on the old feed and the people at the 190 00:15:20.789 --> 00:15:24.590 original bipolar party that I kind of left behind. Sorry about that, folks, 191 00:15:26.190 --> 00:15:28.110 kind of like an Irish goodbye. pull the SHAMROCK. I started a 192 00:15:28.230 --> 00:15:33.110 party and kind of backed out the door said bye anyway, but I do 193 00:15:33.230 --> 00:15:37.419 have those email addresses, so I can email them and now invite them to 194 00:15:37.580 --> 00:15:41.940 the new bipolar party, to website as I change and and all that good 195 00:15:41.980 --> 00:15:48.419 stuff. So, anyway, highly recommend having your own website couch just for 196 00:15:48.539 --> 00:15:52.490 that, just for collecting email addresses, so that you can keep your fans, 197 00:15:52.610 --> 00:15:56.250 regardless what the social media of the week is. Now you know what 198 00:15:56.289 --> 00:16:15.840 I mean. Oh here, here's the this thing drove me crazy at first. 199 00:16:15.879 --> 00:16:18.909 I thought, yeah, I want to hear everyone's voice, because remember 200 00:16:18.990 --> 00:16:22.070 what, I liked the group idea and that was hard to build a group. 201 00:16:22.389 --> 00:16:23.830 So I thought, well, let me interview one at a time. 202 00:16:25.549 --> 00:16:33.899 Okay, that's difficult because the people you're trying to interview are I don't know 203 00:16:33.019 --> 00:16:37.340 what fucking world they're from. Honestly, there's a handful that are professional. 204 00:16:37.820 --> 00:16:41.580 They know how to use CAD calidly, you know, like a link on 205 00:16:41.620 --> 00:16:45.740 the Internet that points you to an Internet calendar that comes to my email. 206 00:16:45.820 --> 00:16:48.529 But you know they're with the program they fucking get it and they show up 207 00:16:49.570 --> 00:16:52.490 here. They are here, they are on skype right on time and I 208 00:16:52.570 --> 00:16:57.730 could interview them and they come prepared with answers to questions and a lot of 209 00:16:57.809 --> 00:17:03.080 times I ask questions that are not on script at all, which is fun. 210 00:17:03.159 --> 00:17:04.920 It makes for a great interview, but there are a lot of people 211 00:17:06.000 --> 00:17:11.720 that don't show up. They flake the excuses or whatever. That's difficult to 212 00:17:11.839 --> 00:17:15.109 deal with, especially because I'm the sick one. I'm fucking I'm sick to 213 00:17:15.269 --> 00:17:21.230 right so I don't have time to chase people around doing one on one interviews, 214 00:17:21.230 --> 00:17:23.829 especially if I'm going to like interview your for for your fucking thing. 215 00:17:23.910 --> 00:17:30.059 If it's your thing already, it's an obligation to me to showcase you and 216 00:17:30.220 --> 00:17:33.140 focus on your thing as well as I can. But then if you're not 217 00:17:33.180 --> 00:17:37.460 even to show up for your own thing, forget it right. That's dumb. 218 00:17:37.579 --> 00:17:40.259 That reminds me of when I was in the music business and somebody would 219 00:17:40.299 --> 00:17:42.460 give me there like demo, as if it were a gift, and I'm 220 00:17:42.500 --> 00:17:45.529 like, Dude, motherfucker, that's an obligation. That is not a gift. 221 00:17:47.049 --> 00:17:51.009 Giving me your shit to play or to listen to or to do whatever 222 00:17:51.529 --> 00:17:55.210 is always been an obligation. People that are creative, when you're in a 223 00:17:55.250 --> 00:17:57.839 band and whatnot, you think it's a gift. Because your ego says, 224 00:17:57.920 --> 00:18:03.079 oh my shit, so great here, but now, if you're trying to 225 00:18:03.359 --> 00:18:07.079 put together a show, you hear a lot of stuff and a lot of 226 00:18:07.160 --> 00:18:18.109 people stuff is not that great, worse, but yeah, wouldn't even been 227 00:18:18.150 --> 00:18:21.950 a problem if people just show up anyway. Just became an issue of like 228 00:18:22.069 --> 00:18:25.509 will fuck it, I'm going to do my own show. I'm just going 229 00:18:25.549 --> 00:18:27.500 to talk. Why not? I can talk a long time. Just keep 230 00:18:27.660 --> 00:18:33.819 on fucking talking. But again that led to the problem I ran into most 231 00:18:33.900 --> 00:18:38.380 recently. In the past several months, I started to realize that the more 232 00:18:38.500 --> 00:18:44.849 I focused on the fucking bipolar thing, the more bipolar I felt, which 233 00:18:44.970 --> 00:18:48.490 seems pretty obvious if you think about it. If you keep running around saying 234 00:18:48.529 --> 00:18:52.569 you're bad at math, then obviously the world around you is going to support 235 00:18:52.690 --> 00:18:56.799 that. You suck at and math. Same type of thing. I looked 236 00:18:56.839 --> 00:19:00.839 into labeling theory. have been into that for a while. What you become 237 00:19:00.960 --> 00:19:06.200 what you get labeled, and since bipolar disorder is so vague, it's very 238 00:19:06.240 --> 00:19:08.559 squishy. You know, you can't quite get at it, I'm a lot 239 00:19:08.559 --> 00:19:12.150 more hesitant to just embrace that label because it's not going to be the same 240 00:19:12.230 --> 00:19:17.029 label twenty years from now, it's not going to be the same label two 241 00:19:17.069 --> 00:19:19.390 hundred years from now. You know what I mean. So I've become a 242 00:19:19.430 --> 00:19:23.700 lot less happy to say, yeah, I'm bipolar, like, who cares? 243 00:19:23.740 --> 00:19:29.059 WHO gives a fuck? Honestly, I don't care what you are. 244 00:19:29.460 --> 00:19:33.740 I care what you do and how you feel like. How do you feel 245 00:19:33.380 --> 00:19:37.819 on your day to day existence and what do you do? Like? Let's 246 00:19:37.819 --> 00:19:41.049 talk about those things. I don't Fuck Your label. I don't really care 247 00:19:41.450 --> 00:19:44.329 that you're bipolar. Here's why I don't care, because I have like eight 248 00:19:44.410 --> 00:19:48.410 of these things and they keep losing track of how many Goddamn disorders I've been 249 00:19:48.450 --> 00:19:53.200 labeled with. So, I mean, some people think that that might be 250 00:19:53.359 --> 00:19:59.240 controversial or provocative, and frankly it's to me. It's so not controversial or 251 00:19:59.279 --> 00:20:03.200 provocative. I could give a fuck about that argument at all. Like everything 252 00:20:03.279 --> 00:20:08.230 we've thought turns out to be wrong. It always does. Science evolves, 253 00:20:08.750 --> 00:20:14.670 religion evolves, everything changed. So for anybody to stop right now in two 254 00:20:14.670 --> 00:20:17.430 thousand and eighteen and say, nope, this is what it is and this 255 00:20:17.470 --> 00:20:19.430 is all it's going to be in the so fucking arrogance. No, it's 256 00:20:19.509 --> 00:20:23.180 not things will change. Don't get all wrapped up in your label. We 257 00:20:23.339 --> 00:20:27.099 are not our labels, so be careful of the ones you embrace there. 258 00:20:27.339 --> 00:20:33.019 They're great for categorizing things and for moving conversations forward, but they're also used 259 00:20:33.059 --> 00:20:38.089 to protect your ego go they're also used to thwart progress and they're also used 260 00:20:38.130 --> 00:20:48.809 to just diminish secondary people. What the Fuck is secondary people? Hmm, 261 00:20:49.400 --> 00:20:53.559 Oh, the cat. Yeah, so it's hard to find a real cat, 262 00:20:53.880 --> 00:20:57.599 apparently. I look on craigslist and there's lots of people putting fake ads, 263 00:20:57.720 --> 00:21:03.920 trying to collect your information and then ultimately telling you, okay, by 264 00:21:03.960 --> 00:21:07.349 the way, I live threezero miles away and I'm going to send you the 265 00:21:07.470 --> 00:21:11.869 cat in a box on an airplane after you paypal me four hundred dollars, 266 00:21:11.710 --> 00:21:15.990 like what? Now? That's a common scheme on craigslist, apparently. Anyway, 267 00:21:18.109 --> 00:21:22.259 I was work in the front desk at a hotel. I run give 268 00:21:22.299 --> 00:21:25.700 my employees the time off to go do the fourth of July party, and 269 00:21:26.299 --> 00:21:29.099 some dude came up and said, Hey, I heard y'all was looking for 270 00:21:29.220 --> 00:21:33.089 a kitten and I'm like, what do you mean, like personally? He's 271 00:21:33.089 --> 00:21:34.369 all, yeah, yeah, I heard she was looking for a cat and 272 00:21:34.650 --> 00:21:37.849 like Oh what, because I didn't want a cop to it because I picky 273 00:21:37.849 --> 00:21:41.529 about what it looks like, and I was a phrase, it's going to 274 00:21:41.569 --> 00:21:45.170 show me some ugly ass cat that I didn't really want. So I'm all 275 00:21:45.289 --> 00:21:48.519 yeah, let me see. So he had a picture on his phone. 276 00:21:48.519 --> 00:21:52.480 He showed me and the cat was hello, cute. So, long story 277 00:21:52.519 --> 00:21:55.759 short, ended up get the cat. I've got a cute cat. He 278 00:21:55.920 --> 00:22:00.599 siding out in that room over there because he's a maniac after dark and I 279 00:22:00.720 --> 00:22:04.910 can't podcast with him in here. But he's awesome them and take lots of 280 00:22:04.910 --> 00:22:11.230 pictures of them put them on instagram. His name's Zeke and at nighttime he 281 00:22:11.349 --> 00:22:17.660 becomes Ming, the merciless. Yeah, okay. So here's what we're going 282 00:22:17.700 --> 00:22:23.940 to do. I need you to prepare yourself, because I'm not. If 283 00:22:23.980 --> 00:22:29.539 you want to like listen to me ramble, go subscribe to Johnny Emotions. 284 00:22:32.529 --> 00:22:36.369 Got It. Like these kind of shows, the bipolar style show that's in 285 00:22:36.529 --> 00:22:41.490 this RSS feed. Starting in season three, probably two or three more episodes 286 00:22:42.130 --> 00:22:48.359 will be that ultimate idea I had of like a group of people sharing their 287 00:22:48.400 --> 00:22:52.559 stories each week. Cool. Now what we need is more people to share 288 00:22:52.599 --> 00:22:56.720 their stories, because right now we got a solid core of people that could 289 00:22:56.720 --> 00:23:00.029 support the show moving forward. But if we keep doing that with the same 290 00:23:00.230 --> 00:23:04.069 people, it's going to sound like a cast. You know, I don't 291 00:23:04.069 --> 00:23:07.789 want to sound like a the same cast on the show every time, like 292 00:23:07.910 --> 00:23:11.950 Chopo traphouse or something. I wanted to actually rotate with new people each time. 293 00:23:11.390 --> 00:23:18.420 So please go to bipolar PARTYCOM and join us. Learn to trust us. 294 00:23:18.700 --> 00:23:22.779 will learn to trust you. And get your gear together. Typically, 295 00:23:22.220 --> 00:23:27.009 if you have a wired headset that goes into your computer and Ethernet cable into 296 00:23:27.009 --> 00:23:33.210 the back of your computer, that's plenty. Some people try Wi fi and 297 00:23:33.329 --> 00:23:37.529 Bluetooth, but then it sucks because the audio sucks. And how would you 298 00:23:37.690 --> 00:23:44.240 like the audio in your ears right now to suck? You wouldn't? You 299 00:23:44.400 --> 00:23:47.920 want it to sound great. So please do that. If you want to 300 00:23:47.960 --> 00:23:52.960 join us on the upcoming episodes of bipolar style, get a headset, Mike 301 00:23:52.279 --> 00:23:56.670 with a cable to your computer and a chord for your Internet. Got It. 302 00:24:00.029 --> 00:24:02.349 That's funny. I'm like, here's how you do it. You have 303 00:24:02.470 --> 00:24:04.269 to do it this way. Well, I'm just fucking I'm tired of hearing 304 00:24:04.349 --> 00:24:08.950 Shitty Quality Audio, I won't listen to podcasts in general because I'm tired of 305 00:24:08.990 --> 00:24:14.180 routing through the ones that have crappy audio. I go to podcast meet up 306 00:24:14.220 --> 00:24:18.579 groups here in San Francisco and Oakland and we talked about that a lot. 307 00:24:18.059 --> 00:24:21.740 A lot of the new people coming on that are starting to make their own 308 00:24:21.779 --> 00:24:26.009 shows one of their biggest complaints is poor audio. So there is a right 309 00:24:26.009 --> 00:24:30.769 way to do good audio. However, if you're getting into the mental health 310 00:24:30.849 --> 00:24:38.559 advocacy thing, there are actually no right ways or wrong ways to advocate. 311 00:24:38.720 --> 00:24:44.440 There's only your way. So don't let people try to hijack your language. 312 00:24:44.519 --> 00:24:48.480 Clearly it's best if you're sharing facts, but a lot of times sharing facts 313 00:24:48.599 --> 00:24:55.990 in different lights provokes people and that's okay. But you got to keep the 314 00:24:56.069 --> 00:25:00.670 conversation open. Don't be scared to engage. People have different styles, people 315 00:25:00.670 --> 00:25:06.789 have different personalities, but generally speaking, you know, go out there and 316 00:25:07.069 --> 00:25:11.140 be yourself. Just be open. Don't try to shut people down. You 317 00:25:11.180 --> 00:25:15.059 don't get to control the language. Nobody controls the language. The moment somebody 318 00:25:15.099 --> 00:25:19.099 thinks that they're in charge of the language is the moment we've stopped progress. 319 00:25:19.140 --> 00:25:26.049 And then the thing about stigma and mental health. That's trippy. When I 320 00:25:26.089 --> 00:25:30.690 talk with mark the other week. So apparently the best way to get around 321 00:25:30.730 --> 00:25:33.650 stigma or destroy stigma. Excuse me, or who, however you wanted to 322 00:25:33.730 --> 00:25:42.160 talk about disintegrating stigma, is to do better. So we have to highlight 323 00:25:42.599 --> 00:25:51.750 our successes. Nobody cares about when we're depressed. Come on, remember the 324 00:25:51.829 --> 00:25:56.349 old cliche. Smile and the whole world smiles with you cry and you cry 325 00:25:56.390 --> 00:26:00.589 alone. That's so true. I mean, if you just need the Internet 326 00:26:00.789 --> 00:26:04.740 because you want likes and that clicks on your Sarah telling and your dopamine in 327 00:26:04.819 --> 00:26:08.420 your brain and that actually makes you feel better, there's some science to that, 328 00:26:08.859 --> 00:26:14.940 sure, but I mean really that you've just on the Internet to get 329 00:26:14.940 --> 00:26:17.660 clicks and likes. Permission to do that. Back, I never prove much 330 00:26:17.740 --> 00:26:19.970 crap. God Damn it, you're fire. Pack up the Shit. I'm 331 00:26:19.970 --> 00:26:26.170 not kiddyway yet the fuck up. Fly like plate. It gets me at 332 00:26:26.210 --> 00:26:30.210 the BOTTS for name. If you come around, Hey, we working all 333 00:26:30.250 --> 00:26:33.319 day. Your Life gonna Passy in the second. If you wait, I 334 00:26:33.559 --> 00:26:37.160 fly like people get highlight plane. If you get me at the border, 335 00:26:37.200 --> 00:26:40.920 I don't want to my name. If you come around. Hey, we 336 00:26:41.200 --> 00:26:44.680 working all day. Your Life Gone Bessy in the second if you wait. 337 00:26:44.920 --> 00:26:48.470 Just like just a change. When I'm sitting on trains. Ever since we're 338 00:26:48.470 --> 00:26:52.789 getting see with clocking that game. Got For dinner. The world does inflame 339 00:26:52.029 --> 00:26:56.430 bona fire hustles making that change. Just like just a change when I'm sitting 340 00:26:56.509 --> 00:27:00.309 on trains. EVERST that we're getting to we' clock in that game. Don't 341 00:27:00.349 --> 00:27:04.980 for dinner. The world's in flame for a fire hustle loves making that change. 342 00:27:06.019 --> 00:27:11.579 That all I want to do. And up and taking money. All 343 00:27:11.660 --> 00:27:17.650 I wanna do it, and and taking whatever. All they wanna do it, 344 00:27:18.009 --> 00:27:26.250 and and taking money. All they wanna do it. And and taking 345 00:27:29.809 --> 00:27:36.279 six is down and bullets in browns running when we hit a lit took poison 346 00:27:36.519 --> 00:27:47.349 for the system. Subscribe to bile is all on eye cheese, a squatify. 347 00:27:47.990 --> 00:27:52.230 Following on on twitter joyless excuses me as bi