Persistence is key; Don't let the bastards get you down.

WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.160 --> 00:00:09.109 I'm John Emotions and this is daily emotions. Yeah, here's a weird thing. 2 00:00:09.349 --> 00:00:16.510 So I started uploading the show to a new podcast platform called sounder, 3 00:00:17.469 --> 00:00:22.539 Sounder Dot FM, and a why I started to do that? Just because 4 00:00:22.699 --> 00:00:29.500 sounder will transcribe your podcast. So that's a whole fine and dandy. But 5 00:00:29.579 --> 00:00:34.979 then I go into the last episode I recorded and started reading what it had 6 00:00:35.100 --> 00:00:42.570 transcribed, and now I'm super selfconscious about articulating every word so the robot can 7 00:00:42.729 --> 00:00:50.159 transcribe my voice better. Just playing anyway. Welcome back. I'm John Emotions 8 00:00:50.280 --> 00:00:53.280 and this is daily emotions. See, I told you I was going to 9 00:00:53.320 --> 00:00:57.920 do a podcast every day. Get the clock started so I don't go too 10 00:00:58.039 --> 00:01:00.479 long. One way I thought to make a short podcast is to turn the 11 00:01:00.679 --> 00:01:04.909 oven on like I'm going to bake something, and from where I sit right 12 00:01:04.989 --> 00:01:10.109 here, when the oven's hot enough, you get start to smell it like 13 00:01:10.310 --> 00:01:14.790 just you smell a heat or residual of past things cooked or I'm not sure. 14 00:01:14.909 --> 00:01:18.310 The ovens clean but still smells like an oven to me. Well, 15 00:01:18.579 --> 00:01:23.540 if it turn it on, take about twelve minutes for me to smell it 16 00:01:23.620 --> 00:01:26.500 and then I'll be done. Anyway, I'm just said a timer. So 17 00:01:27.500 --> 00:01:32.620 the emotions about out the election, those are going to continue, especially as 18 00:01:32.659 --> 00:01:37.769 you saw today, the fucking clown doesn't want to concede and just trying to 19 00:01:37.849 --> 00:01:41.209 dig in and fucking mess. I'm sorry, I don't want to get into 20 00:01:41.209 --> 00:01:47.599 politics today. So about this podcasts and you've listening to it. Thank you, 21 00:01:48.120 --> 00:01:51.200 like thanks for sticking around. You're probably wondering, like, what the 22 00:01:51.280 --> 00:01:56.159 fuck is he doing? Why does he keep changing? Well, why not? 23 00:01:56.680 --> 00:01:59.840 Honestly, it's a hobby of mine and I kind of like if he. 24 00:02:00.040 --> 00:02:05.269 I like playing with Lego, for example, and once you create the 25 00:02:05.390 --> 00:02:09.909 initial model, I tend to, well, yeah, I tend to. 26 00:02:10.310 --> 00:02:15.590 I tend to break all the legos, all the lego bricks, down into 27 00:02:15.860 --> 00:02:20.139 one big bucket then and then reconstruct them in two different things over and over 28 00:02:20.219 --> 00:02:23.180 again. I never go back and build the same model twice the original model. 29 00:02:23.699 --> 00:02:28.379 It's kind of like that with podcast, I guess. But more importantly, 30 00:02:28.659 --> 00:02:30.889 I was going to tell you what I was trying to do with this 31 00:02:30.930 --> 00:02:36.289 one and what had happened over covid so much wild stuff. But with regards 32 00:02:36.330 --> 00:02:44.560 to podcast, not long ago I was feeling really depressed and yeah, just 33 00:02:45.039 --> 00:02:47.280 depression depression. Like if you have depression, you know what I'm talking about. 34 00:02:49.240 --> 00:02:52.319 One of those times where I was like hide now in the closet, 35 00:02:53.159 --> 00:02:58.750 avoiding the world. Covid was everywhere and just barely, you know, just 36 00:02:58.830 --> 00:03:06.069 getting by, barely surviving. Around the same time, I just randomly saw 37 00:03:06.310 --> 00:03:12.590 something like on Instagram for these things called pod decks, which are decks of 38 00:03:12.750 --> 00:03:17.539 cards without, you know, interesting questions on them for podcast guests and like 39 00:03:17.699 --> 00:03:23.780 that's pretty natice to get some more podcast guests. And then I so I 40 00:03:23.860 --> 00:03:25.900 ordered up those cards and I like it a lot because I am a tactile 41 00:03:27.020 --> 00:03:32.530 person. Having something on a laptop or like a touch screen or something my 42 00:03:32.650 --> 00:03:37.330 phone. It's not tacked all enough for me. Like sliding my phone my 43 00:03:37.449 --> 00:03:40.719 finger on glass does nothing really for me. Holding a deck of cards, 44 00:03:40.759 --> 00:03:45.599 it's really cool. Anyway, have these pod decks here and around the same 45 00:03:45.639 --> 00:03:53.400 time I also won this like free account at a place that connects podcast hosts 46 00:03:53.800 --> 00:04:00.030 with podcast guests, and that site is called Pottit dotnet. So all these 47 00:04:00.110 --> 00:04:03.830 things happen at the same time and the kind of lift me out of the 48 00:04:03.909 --> 00:04:09.110 phone and they inspired me to like get going, and so I watched the 49 00:04:09.229 --> 00:04:15.099 pod decks guy, Travis is tutorials. He's got some workshops on podcasting and 50 00:04:15.860 --> 00:04:18.459 reinforced a lot of things I knew and kind of lit a fire under my 51 00:04:18.620 --> 00:04:21.620 ass a basically like well, you already know these things. Why don't you 52 00:04:23.100 --> 00:04:27.889 do it? Just didn't do it. Now in that case, they try 53 00:04:28.009 --> 00:04:30.889 to have monetized podcast and that sort of thing, which is not my thing. 54 00:04:30.930 --> 00:04:34.009 I just want to create interesting podcasts just to be heard, you know, 55 00:04:34.129 --> 00:04:38.050 like when you're lonely and you don't feel heard in your life, at 56 00:04:38.050 --> 00:04:42.600 least there is some hope of that when you put your voice into a microphone 57 00:04:42.680 --> 00:04:45.560 and send it out to the rest of the world. Right. So, 58 00:04:45.800 --> 00:04:49.879 freshly inspired from bodecks and pot it, I thought, okay, cool, 59 00:04:49.879 --> 00:04:54.149 and now what should I do? I don't want to like keep doing bipolar 60 00:04:54.269 --> 00:04:58.670 style because I don't I don't know if I have bipolar. I mean I 61 00:04:58.750 --> 00:05:02.790 definitely have those symptoms, but to what are they attributed to? Because they're 62 00:05:02.790 --> 00:05:09.620 also connected with other conditions that I have. So we whatever. When you 63 00:05:09.779 --> 00:05:15.060 start layering so many different mental conditions or disorders or whatnot on top of each 64 00:05:15.100 --> 00:05:17.180 other, it's really hard to tell which one you have. I do know 65 00:05:17.860 --> 00:05:23.129 this much. I know that I've taken all of the bipolar medications. There's 66 00:05:23.129 --> 00:05:27.410 about a dozen of them, and they don't work. I've given them all 67 00:05:27.569 --> 00:05:30.490 their, you know, fair chance and that sort of thing, sometimes more 68 00:05:30.529 --> 00:05:35.879 than once over easily ten years, and it just not working. And if 69 00:05:35.920 --> 00:05:41.000 you've listened to my podcast in the past or the other episodes, you'll know 70 00:05:41.160 --> 00:05:46.160 that I strongly believe in what you focus on grows and if I'm focusing on 71 00:05:47.000 --> 00:05:54.269 bipolar, then that's that dominates my whole existence after a while. So like 72 00:05:54.389 --> 00:05:57.189 well, fuck it. You know, I created the that brand, John 73 00:05:57.389 --> 00:06:00.670 Emotions. Just to catch you up to speed on that. It is a 74 00:06:00.670 --> 00:06:03.819 kind of a conglomeration of all the things I grew up with, like dougie 75 00:06:03.860 --> 00:06:09.819 fresh, the rapper, bunny, Carlos, the drummer for cheap trick and 76 00:06:10.100 --> 00:06:15.019 Wily Coyote, the cartoon character. They all had he as a middle initial, 77 00:06:15.100 --> 00:06:18.769 and I'm like yeah, I'M gonna I'll be John e what, HMM, 78 00:06:19.889 --> 00:06:24.449 emotions. Of like it had to have like that second word after he 79 00:06:24.569 --> 00:06:27.370 had to be a standalone word. So I'm like, Oh yeah, John 80 00:06:27.410 --> 00:06:30.649 Emotions. Cool. Anyway. That's a just like a thing like a stage 81 00:06:30.649 --> 00:06:34.079 name come up with, not a nickname. I'm not like trying to nickname 82 00:06:34.160 --> 00:06:39.279 myself because that would be a bad nickname, like I would not want somebody 83 00:06:39.319 --> 00:06:44.360 else to give that one to me. Anyway. Put The brand together, 84 00:06:44.399 --> 00:06:47.029 I'm like, well, Fuck Itt, let's let's spread this emotions brand out. 85 00:06:47.870 --> 00:06:50.870 And Travis had mentioned I think in a group or a comment or something. 86 00:06:51.870 --> 00:06:56.589 When I was asking a question, he said John Emotions, just to 87 00:06:56.670 --> 00:07:00.750 be John, you should call yourself John Emo and like well, HMM, 88 00:07:00.500 --> 00:07:03.259 there's a good ring to it, but I would have too much invested in 89 00:07:03.420 --> 00:07:06.300 emotions. And but I'm like emo has a cool ring to it. What 90 00:07:06.379 --> 00:07:11.819 could I do with that? And I was in the middle of something. 91 00:07:12.019 --> 00:07:15.180 Oh the in, you know, martial art stuff, Dojo came up and 92 00:07:15.220 --> 00:07:18.449 I'm like, Oh yeah, why not call it Emo do Joe? So 93 00:07:18.970 --> 00:07:23.970 that was going to be the name of the actual podcast. But it's still 94 00:07:24.009 --> 00:07:29.490 put too much pressure on the podcast being about out something and it's not really 95 00:07:29.490 --> 00:07:32.279 about something. My podcasts just about me talking. So I had to kind 96 00:07:32.279 --> 00:07:36.279 of accept that the podcast is about me and whatever I feel like talking about. 97 00:07:38.240 --> 00:07:41.560 So I'm going to use the name EMO Dojo, since I've got thecom 98 00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:45.750 and the DOT Org and just call that the studio. So I'm put together 99 00:07:45.910 --> 00:07:49.389 studio. Of loosely have a studio anyhow. We're myself at a bunch of 100 00:07:49.430 --> 00:07:57.269 other creators put together podcasts, and so hey, let's call that Emo Dojo. 101 00:07:57.550 --> 00:08:00.100 I'll build that. It's kind of a side project to put on the 102 00:08:00.139 --> 00:08:05.019 back burner but overall a banner unto which I can create shows like this one. 103 00:08:05.139 --> 00:08:11.139 So I'm going to call this one daily emotions, which kind of implies 104 00:08:11.180 --> 00:08:13.850 that I should be doing it every day. And in all honesty, that's 105 00:08:13.850 --> 00:08:16.810 why I called it that. I called it that so I had to fucking 106 00:08:16.930 --> 00:08:22.370 get up and do something every day. So daily emotions will be this podcast. 107 00:08:22.490 --> 00:08:28.120 Yeah, easy enough. Keep trying to get guests and I have a 108 00:08:28.240 --> 00:08:31.559 couple, but it's really hit and miss, even with pottit. Of the 109 00:08:31.759 --> 00:08:39.440 maybe dozen people have had communication with easily, I think five or six have 110 00:08:39.600 --> 00:08:45.029 flaked, just outright flaked for one reason or another. I guess if the 111 00:08:45.110 --> 00:08:50.509 reason is valid, it's not flaking, but whatever. It's hard enough to 112 00:08:50.549 --> 00:08:54.590 get guessed without people just straight up not showing up and frankly it hurts my 113 00:08:54.629 --> 00:09:00.179 feeling. Things and I take it Hella personally. So like well, fuck, 114 00:09:00.259 --> 00:09:05.659 okay, let's how about a cohost. Jesus tried that like a year 115 00:09:05.700 --> 00:09:09.659 ago and that was a nightmare. So I think it. I'll try it 116 00:09:09.700 --> 00:09:13.610 with people I know well cool enough, like like my brother Gary Shock. 117 00:09:15.289 --> 00:09:18.409 We've been doing podcast for a long time. So we have a separate show 118 00:09:18.490 --> 00:09:22.570 called shock and emotions. Cool. We just he's still back in California. 119 00:09:22.610 --> 00:09:28.240 Kind of report back and forth as I travel across America and he says some 120 00:09:28.360 --> 00:09:31.960 Pretty Wild Shit sometimes that I've just have to distance myself from. So yeah, 121 00:09:33.080 --> 00:09:37.679 shock and emotions a good name for that show. But even then we'll 122 00:09:37.720 --> 00:09:41.149 working on a podcast. The other day keeps getting echo blah, blah, 123 00:09:41.149 --> 00:09:46.350 blah blah. So it turns out the fucking guy still hasn't got a Goddamn 124 00:09:46.389 --> 00:09:50.110 Ethernet cable and the adapter for his computer, and so all of the problems 125 00:09:50.190 --> 00:09:54.740 we've been having are because he's been trying to use Wi fi when we already 126 00:09:56.179 --> 00:09:58.899 discuss the problem is the Wi Fi. So just note to self, or 127 00:09:58.980 --> 00:10:03.220 not note to others. If you're trying to run a podcast, you have 128 00:10:03.340 --> 00:10:05.940 to plug in the fucking wires into your computer. Trying to do it over 129 00:10:07.019 --> 00:10:11.769 Wi fi will give you shitty sound and like. Like. Here's the thing. 130 00:10:13.289 --> 00:10:16.250 Why are you going to buy a four hundred dollar Joe Rogan Mike if 131 00:10:16.289 --> 00:10:20.330 you're just going to broadcast through the air and diminish your sound right off the 132 00:10:20.409 --> 00:10:24.200 bat, before it even gets into the recording software? It doesn't even make 133 00:10:24.240 --> 00:10:28.039 any sense. So, anyway, back to shock. So we'll do shock 134 00:10:28.159 --> 00:10:33.759 and emotion shows frequently and we just will have guests and that audio quality just 135 00:10:33.879 --> 00:10:37.669 won't be up to par because you know, nobody else is as serious about 136 00:10:37.669 --> 00:10:41.309 it as me, which is fine, but this show I have full control 137 00:10:41.389 --> 00:10:46.669 over pretty much everything. Listen, the doorbell rings or something. So daily 138 00:10:46.710 --> 00:10:52.419 emotions will be this. Getting back to the guests, that flake. Yeah, 139 00:10:52.779 --> 00:10:58.059 I don't know what's say about that really, because it's not like we've 140 00:10:58.220 --> 00:11:03.820 always known each other's from communications, like email, communications back and forth, 141 00:11:03.899 --> 00:11:07.450 and I've worked in in business, like as a professional for a long time. 142 00:11:07.490 --> 00:11:13.850 So my emails are normal. They're short sentences, concise, polite, 143 00:11:13.730 --> 00:11:18.759 effective. They list deadlines, dates and times and phone numbers and all that 144 00:11:18.879 --> 00:11:22.320 stuff. The another words kind dry. There's nothing there for people to say 145 00:11:24.039 --> 00:11:28.759 this guy's Weirdo or anything like that. It's not like super dry so where 146 00:11:28.759 --> 00:11:31.240 they say, well, it's kind of dry. It's not like. It's 147 00:11:31.240 --> 00:11:39.429 not like that. My point being is that when people don't take problem projects 148 00:11:39.429 --> 00:11:43.549 as seriously as I do, it fucks with my head. And even like 149 00:11:43.750 --> 00:11:48.899 work, work right now, I think I take the company more seriously than 150 00:11:48.899 --> 00:11:52.580 the people at work, for because I'm like a salesperson, but they don't 151 00:11:52.580 --> 00:11:54.700 buy business cards, or you know they don't. They have no marketing. 152 00:11:54.779 --> 00:11:58.980 Nobody even knows the product that they make exists, and so I'm out there 153 00:12:00.019 --> 00:12:03.769 like making hoodies and t shirts and cool business cards and stuff, and I 154 00:12:03.809 --> 00:12:07.570 don't think they appreciate it. So that's a weird conundrum, isn't it? 155 00:12:07.009 --> 00:12:13.090 I can't find people that are as interested in my projects as I am and 156 00:12:13.570 --> 00:12:18.000 I'm more interested in other people's projects than they are. I don't know, 157 00:12:18.320 --> 00:12:24.279 some fucking conundrum. Anyway, thanks for letting me get that off my chest 158 00:12:24.519 --> 00:12:30.990 and I guess if you're going through similar things and feel similar frustrations, just, 159 00:12:31.710 --> 00:12:33.549 you know, don't let the bastards get you down, don't let the 160 00:12:33.629 --> 00:12:50.620 buses get you down, don't drop a cover when your head don't want to 161 00:12:50.700 --> 00:13:22.399 know. And now back to the wall.