NYE 2020 Bipolar Style

WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.799 --> 00:00:10.550 It's only head and now it's online bottle, this stylecom yes, Johnny motions 2 00:00:10.830 --> 00:00:17.670 with bottle that style. All right, all right, what's up? Happy 3 00:00:17.710 --> 00:00:23.140 New Year. It's last hours here of two thousand and nineteen. Was Getting 4 00:00:23.219 --> 00:00:27.219 Ready to do a podcast on one of my other podcasts, kind of waiting 5 00:00:27.260 --> 00:00:30.699 around pushing the KNOBS and flicking the buttons, and realize, Hey, I 6 00:00:30.780 --> 00:00:34.500 could do a bipolar style podcast to while I'm sitting here, so I'm going 7 00:00:34.539 --> 00:00:40.890 to do that. This will be kind of unconventional bipolar style episode, if 8 00:00:40.929 --> 00:00:44.570 you will, but that's cool because it's new year and things are going to 9 00:00:44.609 --> 00:00:48.609 change anyhow. So this episode will be the first part. We'll talk about 10 00:00:49.250 --> 00:00:53.159 two thousand and nineteen, you know, the ups and the downs and how 11 00:00:53.240 --> 00:00:57.479 we ended up here. Then I'm going to think a bunch of people from 12 00:00:57.600 --> 00:01:02.119 twitter. I'm going to call them out by name and I really appreciate the 13 00:01:02.200 --> 00:01:04.790 people that help promote the show. So that'll be fun. And then in 14 00:01:04.909 --> 00:01:10.030 the third part we'll talk about changes that we're going to do to this podcast 15 00:01:10.230 --> 00:01:15.709 moving forward and how can how you can participate in all of that. Cool, 16 00:01:15.230 --> 00:01:21.180 cool, so, you know, kind of in the sake of New 17 00:01:21.260 --> 00:01:25.459 Year's, for example. But we're leaving a whole decade. A lot happened 18 00:01:25.459 --> 00:01:27.939 in the past decade. So I just wanted to kind of honor the decade 19 00:01:29.500 --> 00:01:33.010 with a little music to remind us, like, where we've been. And 20 00:01:33.129 --> 00:01:36.810 I started to pull up some music from the early part of the two thousand 21 00:01:36.810 --> 00:01:40.530 and ten and, Oh my God, there's some wild stuff. We used 22 00:01:40.530 --> 00:01:49.519 to listen to you back in the day with this. So two thousand and 23 00:01:49.519 --> 00:02:01.909 ten, it's fun right, just listen to it for a minute. Yeah, 24 00:02:08.550 --> 00:02:43.610 let's go sake that. Yeah, that's the party like right there. 25 00:02:49.360 --> 00:03:04.270 Oh Yeah, are you dancing? Good, get up shot. That's good 26 00:03:04.310 --> 00:03:08.349 stuff. I like music that makes weird noises. It reminds me of like 27 00:03:08.509 --> 00:03:14.180 a audio cartoon or something. People like, oh, that's that's stupid music, 28 00:03:14.219 --> 00:03:16.500 or this whatever, whatever music. I mean whatever term they label music 29 00:03:16.580 --> 00:03:21.979 they don't like, lame. Some people stay gay, but that could be 30 00:03:22.020 --> 00:03:25.300 a compliment some music. Anyway. I like some weird dance music and tecto 31 00:03:25.379 --> 00:03:30.129 music. It just because it sounds like a cartoon and it's interesting. So 32 00:03:30.330 --> 00:03:34.289 Yeah, party rockers, first part of two thousand and ten. Now leaving 33 00:03:34.330 --> 00:03:36.810 two thousand and ten. Man, there's a lot happening in the whole decade, 34 00:03:38.009 --> 00:03:40.759 just kind of up and downs, like happy and sad. Like there 35 00:03:40.960 --> 00:03:52.120 was this song happy. It might seem crazy, that's a great so how 36 00:03:52.159 --> 00:04:01.830 can you not like us? And then there was also the opposite of happy, 37 00:04:02.189 --> 00:05:00.069 the breakup songs. Remember this Celo? That's some shit and we you 38 00:05:01.870 --> 00:05:05.990 know I'd love singing background lyrics to songs, the background parts, except for 39 00:05:06.069 --> 00:05:11.300 that one, because I'm super liberal, so will not sing the background lyrics 40 00:05:11.339 --> 00:05:15.300 to that out loud. One of my favorite bands from the two thousand and 41 00:05:15.300 --> 00:05:21.970 ten really was twenty one pilots and Oh my God, like they had such 42 00:05:21.970 --> 00:05:28.889 a huge hit with stressed out, and if you haven't heard it, you 43 00:05:28.970 --> 00:05:30.370 should. Oh wait, let me, let me preface this. If you 44 00:05:30.730 --> 00:05:38.079 hear explosions, it's okay. where I live, gunpowder is about as prevalent 45 00:05:38.160 --> 00:05:43.279 as Cajun Spice or salt pepper, so it's legal. Fireworks are legal all 46 00:05:43.319 --> 00:05:46.639 year round. There's a permanent fireworkshops in town. Lots of people have guns. 47 00:05:47.160 --> 00:05:49.509 So if you hear any pop, pop, pop up, it's like 48 00:05:49.990 --> 00:05:54.230 it's kind of out of my control. Sorry, but hey, it's new 49 00:05:54.230 --> 00:05:58.990 year's Eve. Two Thousand and nineteen. So that's said. I love these 50 00:05:59.029 --> 00:06:01.029 guys. Twenty one pilots doing stressed out. Remember the song from two thousand 51 00:06:01.029 --> 00:06:16.259 and ten. I wish I found some better sounds no one's ever heard. 52 00:06:16.540 --> 00:06:19.810 I wish I had to better voices saying some better words. I wish I 53 00:06:19.889 --> 00:06:24.129 found some cords in an order that is new. I wish I didn't have 54 00:06:24.290 --> 00:06:27.529 to rhyme every time I saying. I was told when I get older, 55 00:06:27.610 --> 00:06:30.730 all my feels of drink. But now woman secure and I care what people 56 00:06:30.810 --> 00:06:39.720 think names. Care what you think my name's face, and care what you 57 00:06:39.920 --> 00:06:49.350 think. WHO's rinking back time to the good no days when the Mama was 58 00:06:49.509 --> 00:06:59.910 saying. But love those guys like seventy five percent of that album is awesome. 59 00:06:59.949 --> 00:07:04.500 I bought two CDs just road trips and man, think wre that thing 60 00:07:04.579 --> 00:07:09.699 out. Definitely lost one and needed to get it again. So some truck 61 00:07:09.779 --> 00:07:15.730 stop we picked up another blurry face. So dig it, dig it, 62 00:07:15.889 --> 00:07:17.889 dig it. All right. So what happened in two thousand and nineteen with 63 00:07:18.050 --> 00:07:25.329 me? We Geez. So it was San Francisco, California. I was 64 00:07:25.490 --> 00:07:30.560 managing and Directing Hotel, the column hotels out there. It's a SRO hotel 65 00:07:30.399 --> 00:07:35.199 for formerly homeless folks. So we had a hundred and sixty rooms. Is 66 00:07:35.279 --> 00:07:42.959 Big, massive building and you know, it stressful and you know and needed 67 00:07:43.000 --> 00:07:46.629 a change. So I said, I need to go somewhere else. I'm 68 00:07:46.709 --> 00:07:51.310 like, you know, when like people, what was the metaphor I thought 69 00:07:51.350 --> 00:07:57.389 of the other day? It's like you could watch somebody go on a roller 70 00:07:57.430 --> 00:07:59.819 coast. You could stand at the edge of a roller coaster and watch people 71 00:07:59.819 --> 00:08:03.180 go on it all day long, all day long, but it's never going 72 00:08:03.220 --> 00:08:07.060 to be the same as if you were to actually get on the roller coaster. 73 00:08:07.500 --> 00:08:09.740 That's kind of a crude example, but you know what I mean. 74 00:08:09.779 --> 00:08:13.569 So you have to go experience things to have an opinion about them that resonates 75 00:08:15.129 --> 00:08:18.050 with the truth. And given like the two thousand and ten S, I 76 00:08:18.250 --> 00:08:26.649 inadvertently and unintentionally helped get donald trump elected. Kind of set me off on 77 00:08:26.689 --> 00:08:31.600 a whole different adventure path. After that, man, after all that happened, 78 00:08:31.639 --> 00:08:35.279 I went back to San Francisco Start to do the nonprofit thing again and 79 00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:39.600 I still didn't feel like, yeah, it wasn't working. There's just so 80 00:08:39.720 --> 00:08:43.110 much to do and so few resources to get the things done. That we 81 00:08:43.190 --> 00:08:48.070 needed to do so cause too much stress and when you have bipolar disorder, 82 00:08:48.669 --> 00:08:52.629 Adhd, PTSD or whatever. I mean, that environment gave me ped at, 83 00:08:52.669 --> 00:08:58.700 PTSD, fresh each day, dead bodies, violence, the whole thing 84 00:09:00.220 --> 00:09:01.419 not got on a daily basis. So I had to get the fuck out, 85 00:09:01.779 --> 00:09:07.019 and I did so. Anyway, I'm thinking, well, where to 86 00:09:07.059 --> 00:09:09.809 go? Like I had this issue with the trump thing, because I'm like, 87 00:09:11.850 --> 00:09:15.970 fucking he'll billies, who elected this idiot? And but then I'm like, 88 00:09:16.049 --> 00:09:18.009 Oh, I don't actually know anybody like that. I've never been to 89 00:09:18.090 --> 00:09:22.129 a place like that. I've only lived in California. I've traveled other places, 90 00:09:22.889 --> 00:09:26.320 but never stayed there longer than a few days, maybe a week most. 91 00:09:28.039 --> 00:09:31.279 That's not enough. From living in San Francisco and living in downsound Los 92 00:09:31.320 --> 00:09:35.600 Angeles, living in Hollywood and places like that. Okay, I get it. 93 00:09:35.720 --> 00:09:39.710 I know the liberal ideal. I know. HMM, yeah, just 94 00:09:39.830 --> 00:09:46.389 I'm really progressive and carrying kind bleeding art kind of person, but I don't 95 00:09:46.429 --> 00:09:50.830 think like people are stupid. So I'm like, let's go see somewhere else. 96 00:09:50.870 --> 00:09:54.460 I didn't really have an idea of where, and then, when the 97 00:09:54.539 --> 00:09:56.899 opportunity came up, a friend of mine was in Louisiana. So at the 98 00:09:56.980 --> 00:10:01.899 end, like basically a year ago from now, I took a train from 99 00:10:01.940 --> 00:10:07.210 San Francisco down to Los Angeles and across over to Louisiana. So I've been 100 00:10:07.250 --> 00:10:13.289 in the deep south now for the full year and it's been fascinating. So 101 00:10:13.570 --> 00:10:18.169 it's kind of allowed me to develop a couple more theories, if you will, 102 00:10:18.929 --> 00:10:22.720 on top of the research I do on brand science and things like that. 103 00:10:22.480 --> 00:10:26.000 So coming up in the it kind of the next season I'm going to 104 00:10:26.039 --> 00:10:31.720 cover things like neophilia and things like a tunaments and a whole bunch of different 105 00:10:31.720 --> 00:10:35.909 stuff like that, see how we can make us feel better. You know, 106 00:10:37.029 --> 00:10:41.509 he'll help us think differently about ourselves and how we fit in and which 107 00:10:41.590 --> 00:10:45.190 tools are more useful than others and that sort of thing. But I wouldn't 108 00:10:45.190 --> 00:10:48.070 have been able to do that had I not kind of gotten on the roller 109 00:10:48.110 --> 00:10:50.220 coaster and went to see how other people live. Well, now that I 110 00:10:50.259 --> 00:10:56.419 see how people in the deep South are not just visiting and you know they're 111 00:10:56.620 --> 00:11:01.100 just like everybody else. They just been programmed differently, and so we're all 112 00:11:01.139 --> 00:11:07.370 kind of victims of are programming really so that's part of the start. How 113 00:11:07.409 --> 00:11:11.889 do we program each other in a kind kind of prosperous way moving forward? 114 00:11:13.409 --> 00:11:15.850 Those are going to be some big themes. We talked about in two thousand 115 00:11:15.850 --> 00:11:18.639 and twenty on this particular podcast, which kind of cool. I think you'll 116 00:11:18.639 --> 00:11:24.879 enjoy that part. So I was stressed out and man, I got like 117 00:11:24.519 --> 00:11:30.440 kind of a HYPOCHONDRIAC. Anyway in my butt was hurting. My but kept 118 00:11:30.440 --> 00:11:33.070 hurt and I'm like, Oh shit, I got butt cancer. I had 119 00:11:33.149 --> 00:11:37.350 anal cancer something. What, what the fuck is this? And I'm like, 120 00:11:37.429 --> 00:11:39.350 Oh, maybe it's just Hamrohid or something whatever. But it didn't go 121 00:11:39.470 --> 00:11:43.789 wet and didn't go away and long short of it, I ended up having 122 00:11:43.830 --> 00:11:46.460 them call an Oscar he last year or this year, two thousand and nineteen, 123 00:11:46.500 --> 00:11:52.340 and it was Hamorroid and they just had it removed and Yay. Those 124 00:11:52.580 --> 00:11:54.460 exciting but like a lot of stress when you think like, Oh my God, 125 00:11:54.460 --> 00:11:58.659 I could have a deadly disease. That's weird and it's it's bad enough 126 00:11:58.740 --> 00:12:03.730 we have brain issues and disorders in her head that won't go away, but 127 00:12:03.210 --> 00:12:07.570 to have a physical aiment that could grow and kill you like much quicker. 128 00:12:07.649 --> 00:12:13.330 That was scary. Anyway, work that out. It wouldn't have otherwise. 129 00:12:13.169 --> 00:12:16.240 But now that I have I can tell everybody, hey, middle aged men, 130 00:12:16.639 --> 00:12:20.360 go get a Colin Oscarpy, to which most of my friends be like 131 00:12:20.519 --> 00:12:24.600 fuck that, but you know what, if you don't, you really could 132 00:12:24.639 --> 00:12:28.279 die. So take care of your business if you can. And, like 133 00:12:28.360 --> 00:12:31.509 I said, I did. It was stressful, stressed out, took care 134 00:12:31.509 --> 00:12:33.629 of it. DRS did come back in ten years and like fuck yeah, 135 00:12:33.710 --> 00:12:39.950 that's awesome. So that was stress was alleviated. Then we had kittens. 136 00:12:41.350 --> 00:12:46.500 When we moved to a different place here in Louisiana, twenty six off the 137 00:12:46.580 --> 00:12:50.059 side of the highway, we had a box of kittens when we first got 138 00:12:50.179 --> 00:12:54.580 here. They weren't ours, little seven little kitties and they were super cute, 139 00:12:54.220 --> 00:12:58.649 but we could not keep them all. So we raise them from kitties 140 00:13:00.370 --> 00:13:05.809 to big enough to be foster out to full time homes. That's true, 141 00:13:05.889 --> 00:13:09.730 the right way to say that, but anyway, find them permanent owners, 142 00:13:09.730 --> 00:13:16.559 I guess. So that was cool. In the interim we had another big 143 00:13:16.639 --> 00:13:22.320 fluffy cat that we were fostering and she was cool, but she was kind 144 00:13:22.320 --> 00:13:24.279 of cranky. But it didn't matter because we kept all the tiny kitties in 145 00:13:24.320 --> 00:13:28.950 the one of the bathroom anyway, so they're separate. We didn't realize that, 146 00:13:30.590 --> 00:13:35.070 once we got rid of the KITTIES, that the the big fluffy foster 147 00:13:35.230 --> 00:13:37.629 cat, was still angry at every all the other normal cats we kept. 148 00:13:39.750 --> 00:13:43.139 So those kind of interesting. And then one day after we'd gotten rid of 149 00:13:43.179 --> 00:13:45.620 the KITTIES, not gotten rid of them, you know, found them homes, 150 00:13:45.659 --> 00:13:50.500 took them to the cat rescue place we kept here in this me me 151 00:13:50.820 --> 00:13:54.809 me like a crazy cat without it was a pregnant Mama cat stuck under the 152 00:13:54.850 --> 00:14:01.210 house. So we eliminated all possibility of that. And Man when the one 153 00:14:01.210 --> 00:14:05.129 day we just fucking ran out to the farm and got the raccoon trap, 154 00:14:05.690 --> 00:14:11.279 brought it back over here, set that little fucking within about not even five 155 00:14:11.360 --> 00:14:15.080 minutes, we caught the little fucker. It was a tiny little kitty again, 156 00:14:15.360 --> 00:14:18.039 not one of the original seven, because they're much bigger now and they're 157 00:14:18.120 --> 00:14:20.919 moved on to homes. This is a new kitty and one like how the 158 00:14:20.960 --> 00:14:24.309 fuck did this get here? Because it had been like record breaking cold, 159 00:14:24.350 --> 00:14:30.549 like below zero freezing temperatures the past few nights and here this little fuckers just 160 00:14:30.789 --> 00:14:33.149 mew and me, you, me and me. Yeah, crazy. So 161 00:14:33.350 --> 00:14:37.740 we got that that Kitty Out, took it to the vet and it turned 162 00:14:37.779 --> 00:14:46.700 out had kitty HIV, or five feline immunovirus, which sucks but it's not 163 00:14:46.980 --> 00:14:50.179 horrible. So some some kind of I guess, soul searching, if you 164 00:14:50.259 --> 00:14:56.610 will, and prioritizing and big fluffy foster cat who's angry we felt was the 165 00:14:56.690 --> 00:15:01.649 biggest risk at starting crazy brawls, like fight fights, because a cat with 166 00:15:01.889 --> 00:15:05.850 Fiv won't give it to humans. It's not A it's not human virus. 167 00:15:05.889 --> 00:15:09.159 You can't catch it. You can give it to other cats, but it 168 00:15:09.240 --> 00:15:13.360 requires like a deep bite and a kitty can't really bite a cat like that 169 00:15:13.399 --> 00:15:18.720 that deep. So anyway, long and short of it, we found a 170 00:15:18.759 --> 00:15:22.629 big fluff feed cat we'd been fostering a new home. We kept the tiny 171 00:15:22.710 --> 00:15:26.429 little black cats and now we're back down to three and I've got a little 172 00:15:26.429 --> 00:15:31.149 black Kittie probably you might actually hear because she is playtime right now and she's 173 00:15:31.149 --> 00:15:35.429 been jumping through the Christmas decorations and things. So if you hear a little 174 00:15:35.470 --> 00:15:41.139 bell ringing or that kind of thing, that's not your imagination. She's sleeping 175 00:15:41.179 --> 00:15:45.500 in the chair right by my feet. That's maxine waters. That's her name. 176 00:15:46.220 --> 00:15:50.809 Lady at the vet said, what's the CAT's name? Said maxine waters, 177 00:15:52.090 --> 00:15:56.330 because that's her name. Yes, it's her name. Just yeah, 178 00:15:56.490 --> 00:16:02.610 I think it's funny because she's a she's, you know, strong, independent 179 00:16:02.809 --> 00:16:07.320 black woman, were black female, in this case a cat. So I 180 00:16:07.399 --> 00:16:10.519 think maxie waters is a cool name. And no, it's not Max it's 181 00:16:10.559 --> 00:16:15.240 not maxine, it's maximum waters, or representative, whichever you want to call 182 00:16:15.279 --> 00:16:21.750 her. So that's the cat story and yeah, I'm sticking to it. 183 00:16:21.950 --> 00:16:26.909 What the fuck is this? This? I have an actual console, like 184 00:16:26.990 --> 00:16:30.629 a radio console, so I have sounds. So if I ever feel like 185 00:16:30.710 --> 00:16:33.740 poking fun of myself, you know something might come out of the blue. 186 00:16:34.220 --> 00:16:37.500 What the heck you talking about? And those are my favorites right there. 187 00:16:37.940 --> 00:16:44.139 These from Goddamn, that was from Fargo. What the heck you talking about, 188 00:16:44.179 --> 00:16:48.850 Bill Macy? Look that. And this was from a fairly brothers movie. 189 00:16:48.850 --> 00:16:52.570 I'm not sure which one. What the fuck is this? Maybe Jeff 190 00:16:52.610 --> 00:16:56.970 Bridges? I don't know, just playing around. It was wild. Remember 191 00:16:56.049 --> 00:17:00.250 in the beginning of two thousand and nineteen when I tried to have a cohost. 192 00:17:00.289 --> 00:17:03.519 Oh, that's right, you don't, because I deleted those episodes. 193 00:17:04.039 --> 00:17:08.240 But that was a shit show. If you're running a podcasts, don't try 194 00:17:08.279 --> 00:17:14.920 to help everybody and then off of them a cohosting spot. Just word to 195 00:17:14.960 --> 00:17:18.390 the wise, like vet these people first, because this person was like a, 196 00:17:19.269 --> 00:17:22.309 I don't know, kind of like a crystals and candles kind of person 197 00:17:22.349 --> 00:17:26.950 after all. And then pull the fast one. And you know, like 198 00:17:26.069 --> 00:17:29.990 how Donald Trump, when he's accused of doing the wrong thing, instead of 199 00:17:30.019 --> 00:17:33.059 just coppying to it, he'll double down and do double wrong. He'll like 200 00:17:33.220 --> 00:17:36.460 actually go do more of that, and I'm like that's what that person did. 201 00:17:36.660 --> 00:17:40.380 Like fuck. So that was kind of a low point. That was 202 00:17:40.420 --> 00:17:44.769 all happening around the same time as the Goddamn hamroid thing, so life was 203 00:17:44.890 --> 00:17:49.049 fucking miserable. I in March. It's obviously much better now because I've gotten 204 00:17:49.049 --> 00:17:53.890 rid of the HAMROID and the Co host Nice Huh. Anyway. So part 205 00:17:53.930 --> 00:17:57.960 of what I think about nineteen, two thousand and nineteen represents the whole decade 206 00:17:59.720 --> 00:18:03.240 where you just kind of got it. Let it go, so let's put 207 00:18:03.240 --> 00:20:18.230 another music song. Storm inside. Don't control. I love that version. 208 00:20:18.349 --> 00:20:21.109 You guys listen to that much. That's that. Dude's name is Leo, 209 00:20:21.430 --> 00:20:25.180 like the Lion. He's got a youtube channel and all he does is metal 210 00:20:25.259 --> 00:20:29.779 covers of pop songs. That particular one is kind of awesome, though. 211 00:20:29.819 --> 00:20:33.819 I like it. It doesn't. It doesn't sound so sticky. It sounds 212 00:20:33.339 --> 00:20:37.210 like a serious song. Pretty Badass, though, because it's familiar. People 213 00:20:37.250 --> 00:20:41.529 know what it sounds like and they know the words. A man so many 214 00:20:41.890 --> 00:20:45.809 sequels. Frozen, frozen two is out. You go see those. I 215 00:20:45.930 --> 00:20:51.480 go see like the Pixar ones, but not the whatever whoever makes frozen dream 216 00:20:51.480 --> 00:20:56.400 works or something. I don't don't a boycott that Shit. Pigs are or 217 00:20:56.640 --> 00:21:00.119 nothing, because I'm an adult. So I look weird in kids movies by 218 00:21:00.160 --> 00:21:04.390 myself. It's articulous. But Pixar daytime, when the Kids Week Day? 219 00:21:04.470 --> 00:21:10.029 Let's cool boy. Okay, I'm going to switch over here and see if 220 00:21:10.069 --> 00:21:12.029 you guys can help me with this. So I'd like to do the podcast 221 00:21:12.910 --> 00:21:17.710 a way, less structured, as if, as if it has structure now, 222 00:21:18.579 --> 00:21:22.660 but much shorter, like fifteen to twenty minutes, like Monday, Wednesday, 223 00:21:22.660 --> 00:21:23.819 Friday, like almost every day. I kind of wish there was a 224 00:21:25.140 --> 00:21:30.259 mental health radio show, like on serious exam or something, where the whole 225 00:21:30.380 --> 00:21:36.650 channel's mental health stuff and you could just tune into Dja's or talkers or presenters, 226 00:21:36.690 --> 00:21:38.890 whatever the fuck you want to call them. Not influencers, just you 227 00:21:38.970 --> 00:21:44.009 know, people talking rate Dj kind of people all day long. So I 228 00:21:44.089 --> 00:21:45.569 think you would be neat to have like you in a big city. They 229 00:21:45.569 --> 00:21:49.279 got like the morning zoo crew or Chopo traphouse. I think it would be 230 00:21:49.359 --> 00:21:55.440 fucking cool to have a mental health version of that where all of the hosts 231 00:21:55.960 --> 00:22:00.359 kind of have that that vibe and also, you know, are suffering from 232 00:22:00.359 --> 00:22:04.029 some kind of disorder and but they're also performers, like behind the mic and 233 00:22:04.150 --> 00:22:08.309 can kind of control a show and make it entertaining. So at some point 234 00:22:08.349 --> 00:22:11.269 I'd like to do that with more people, but in the meantime I'm me 235 00:22:11.430 --> 00:22:15.779 and I have the energy most of the time to put a show together. 236 00:22:15.779 --> 00:22:19.579 It's not really the energy that I lack, it's the SELFCOMP FIDENCE to turn 237 00:22:19.660 --> 00:22:22.460 on the MIC and just start talking because you feel like a Weirdo. It's 238 00:22:22.500 --> 00:22:27.140 almost like sitting in a confessional booth and talking to a priest on the other 239 00:22:27.180 --> 00:22:30.089 side of the wall. But there's no brain, there's no priest, there's 240 00:22:30.130 --> 00:22:33.849 just a dude in a bood box. It's just you in a box. 241 00:22:33.410 --> 00:22:37.809 It's kind of what it feels like. That said, it's pretty easy just 242 00:22:37.930 --> 00:22:42.529 to get an idea to talk about, tons of ideas to talk about. 243 00:22:42.849 --> 00:22:48.599 That's just a matter of overcoming my lack of confidence and like, does anybody 244 00:22:48.599 --> 00:22:51.839 can give a fuck? Do I even give a fuck? I do, 245 00:22:51.960 --> 00:22:53.839 or I wouldn't think about them. And I guess it really doesn't matter if 246 00:22:53.880 --> 00:22:59.430 you care because you're listening and I appreciate that. So let's move on. 247 00:23:00.309 --> 00:23:03.430 There are some guests I'd like to have on the show and if you're on 248 00:23:03.549 --> 00:23:10.150 twitter like I am and you know any of these people, maybe you can 249 00:23:10.589 --> 00:23:12.819 hit them up for me, because I'm kind of, I don't know, 250 00:23:14.059 --> 00:23:18.059 socially awkward in these situations. I don't want to contact people like I'm full 251 00:23:18.099 --> 00:23:22.339 of myself, but I don't want to not contact them either. So if 252 00:23:22.380 --> 00:23:27.130 we can get like a warm handoff, here we go. Show list thirty 253 00:23:27.210 --> 00:23:32.250 members. If you're on twitter, you can follow this list to go to 254 00:23:32.490 --> 00:23:37.650 bipolar style. It's my twitter handle and there's a list called show guests. 255 00:23:38.210 --> 00:23:44.000 Wish List Two thousand and twenty, and here are the people just going to 256 00:23:44.039 --> 00:23:52.000 read off their twitter handles. Are Need my glasses, all right, black 257 00:23:52.079 --> 00:24:00.869 mental matt one, Johnny underscored, Gfm Aubrey. Let's a MG. Well, 258 00:24:02.109 --> 00:24:04.430 I won't even finish that one. Basically, the Gal who runs the 259 00:24:04.750 --> 00:24:10.220 bipolar, International Bipolar Foundation, Account Aubrey. I want to interview you. 260 00:24:10.380 --> 00:24:18.339 Yes, Dark Rise Project, ie strangers, which is these fucking awesome documentary. 261 00:24:18.539 --> 00:24:23.259 Three identical strangers. amnxiety. I like to interview Marie. So, 262 00:24:23.369 --> 00:24:26.690 if anybody knows anxiety directly, well, I'm connected with her. I guess 263 00:24:26.690 --> 00:24:30.930 I should just like get over my lack of confidence and just ask her. 264 00:24:33.250 --> 00:24:37.640 Moonbeam life, neuro rebel. Those are autistic folks. I like to interview 265 00:24:37.680 --> 00:24:47.119 somebody that represents the autistic community. Yeah, unpacked sparkle, the sparkle king. 266 00:24:47.799 --> 00:24:48.839 Love that guy. I've been wanting to have him on the show for 267 00:24:48.880 --> 00:24:56.869 a while. Dr Jessica Seventeen. Blk Mental Health is black mental health? 268 00:24:57.549 --> 00:25:07.069 Don A K Linky, official Mac of fee. Yeah, that's it. 269 00:25:07.180 --> 00:25:12.700 I'm want to interview John McAfee. Dudes, fascinating. David M Weissman. 270 00:25:14.819 --> 00:25:18.140 That dude is a converted used to be into trump and then he's now he's 271 00:25:18.180 --> 00:25:22.930 into liberals or something like that, but he's getting tons of shit forward on 272 00:25:22.009 --> 00:25:26.569 twitter. So I just want to talk to me about tribalism. Isaiah Woods, 273 00:25:26.569 --> 00:25:36.200 underscore, sixteen, Dr Aaron Kate, s Aaron Kate, s Seth 274 00:25:36.359 --> 00:25:40.759 and one two, the Muslim Hippie Sakana. I would love to talk to 275 00:25:40.880 --> 00:25:45.160 her and get her position on mental health as it pertains to the Muslim community 276 00:25:45.200 --> 00:25:48.799 and what it's like to be, quote unquote, x Muslim, if I'm 277 00:25:48.799 --> 00:25:51.630 framling that right. If I'm not, apologize. I think that's right. 278 00:25:52.789 --> 00:25:55.589 PUSS. So many cool people on this list. Well, was thirty. 279 00:25:55.630 --> 00:26:00.269 Yeah, Roger Blazek. Love to have him on the show. He's a 280 00:26:00.349 --> 00:26:03.500 good supporter. I'm glad I found him on twitter. WHAT'S UP, Roger? 281 00:26:03.859 --> 00:26:12.180 The soul anarchist, underscore, soul anarchist, Daniel Harper, Dr Lea 282 00:26:12.220 --> 00:26:17.859 Lagos, Gabe Howard, twenty nine. Oh Hey, that's one too. 283 00:26:18.140 --> 00:26:23.170 So Gabe Howard runs psych central and he sent me a nice email said he 284 00:26:23.250 --> 00:26:26.450 heard good things about my podcast from health central. Of course I have a 285 00:26:26.569 --> 00:26:30.769 touch of borderline, so I don't accept compliments well, and I think he's 286 00:26:30.809 --> 00:26:36.240 probably just blowing hot air up my ass. But that said, gave has 287 00:26:36.279 --> 00:26:41.119 a bunch of cool podcasts on Psych Centralcom so co check out gay powered stuff, 288 00:26:41.319 --> 00:26:45.319 but also want to track him down and interview him on this show. 289 00:26:47.150 --> 00:26:51.069 NISSA SUNA are, I think we've spoken, so I believe, Nissa, 290 00:26:51.269 --> 00:26:56.589 we're going to talk about peer support groups and how people that have specific disorders 291 00:26:56.670 --> 00:27:00.869 can help others with the same disorders. That's important, especially given the lack 292 00:27:00.950 --> 00:27:04.180 of trained therapist and professionals in the field. We can help each other. 293 00:27:04.339 --> 00:27:08.099 I think Nissa's going to be a great asset for that, so we're going 294 00:27:08.140 --> 00:27:15.460 to talk to her soon. Ryan Lewie, he's a doctor out in San 295 00:27:15.539 --> 00:27:22.650 Francisco, the amazing Jonathan, if you haven't seen that documentary, man really 296 00:27:22.730 --> 00:27:30.480 got to talk to that guy, the amazing Jonathan, true acceptance and boots, 297 00:27:30.480 --> 00:27:37.480 Riley, rusty rockets, and the lady named Harriet a Washington, who 298 00:27:37.519 --> 00:27:44.240 wrote a great book about how mental illnesses are contagious. It's kind of metaphorical, 299 00:27:44.349 --> 00:27:47.750 but I think the book is actually called contagious and I'd like to talk 300 00:27:47.789 --> 00:27:51.349 to her. So that's kind of a big old list of thirty people if 301 00:27:51.390 --> 00:27:56.390 you know or have contact with, then hit me up, DM me on 302 00:27:56.470 --> 00:28:00.299 twitter or go to bipolar stylecom and just drop me a quick email and we'll 303 00:28:00.339 --> 00:28:04.539 connect. Also, you, you right now listening. If you want to 304 00:28:04.740 --> 00:28:08.460 be on a podcast, it's not magic, it's not special. Just hit 305 00:28:08.539 --> 00:28:11.819 me up and you can come on and we can talk, you can share 306 00:28:11.859 --> 00:28:15.009 your story if you're working on a project you want to promote. All that 307 00:28:15.210 --> 00:28:22.289 all right, and you call I inadvertently and unintentionally helped get trump elected. 308 00:28:22.490 --> 00:28:26.130 Well, that was through software technology. I also happen to use that technology. 309 00:28:26.200 --> 00:28:30.119 So I know who some of the biggest supporters, like the people liking 310 00:28:30.160 --> 00:28:36.880 and sharing and tweeting and whatnot, are on twitter. So quickly, let 311 00:28:36.920 --> 00:28:41.670 me thank Sophie Becca at that B word. She's always been a big supporter 312 00:28:41.670 --> 00:28:56.019 Roger Vincent's antichrist, Coulter Sa Sam. Who Knew Borderline Counselor Christopher Clark Karita. 313 00:28:56.339 --> 00:29:03.619 CAn'tus Aubrey Nora, George Carlin's ghost, Jordan Simon, hell's Bell's bipolar 314 00:29:03.740 --> 00:29:08.779 disorder? Yeah, there's actually an account at bipolar disorder. Todd Hancock, 315 00:29:10.250 --> 00:29:17.529 Kendra, Jim Steele, brain world magazine, Katie and of course aims. 316 00:29:17.650 --> 00:29:19.130 She's not on this list right here, but I know Ames is always listening 317 00:29:19.170 --> 00:29:22.809 and she's always she shows up out of the blue. Whenever I feel down, 318 00:29:22.930 --> 00:29:26.880 she's like says higher, how you doing or whatever. So I think 319 00:29:26.880 --> 00:29:30.119 that's awesome. Like how can you fail when you have fans that are like 320 00:29:30.279 --> 00:29:33.240 cool like that? I want you to say fans. I'll just say listener 321 00:29:33.440 --> 00:29:37.869 night the fans. Sounds presumptuous and a bit ob noxious. So anyway, 322 00:29:38.069 --> 00:29:42.829 thanks ames, and thanks to the rest of you for not just listening to 323 00:29:42.910 --> 00:29:47.789 the podcast but sharing on twitter. So when you have a podcast, it's 324 00:29:47.789 --> 00:29:52.230 kind of weird because you're you right. I mean I assume. I assume 325 00:29:52.309 --> 00:29:55.539 the way I assume it put it. What I didn't think to understand was 326 00:29:55.660 --> 00:30:03.740 that twitter users are not necessarily podcast listeners and podcast listeners are not necessarily twitter 327 00:30:03.779 --> 00:30:08.210 users. So we're those two big circles of communities overlap right there in the 328 00:30:08.210 --> 00:30:11.569 middle. There's probably only, I don't know, a few dozen people that 329 00:30:11.849 --> 00:30:17.529 do both listen to the show and use twitter. So I see them pretty 330 00:30:17.529 --> 00:30:21.960 frequently and I think that contributes to the algorithms and then twitter just kind of 331 00:30:22.000 --> 00:30:25.759 reinforces that. So it's got. Sometimes it's hard to change. Anyway, 332 00:30:25.799 --> 00:30:27.480 I found this new thing called, well, it's not new, it's new 333 00:30:27.559 --> 00:30:33.400 to me because I finally was ready for it. I guess it's called tweet 334 00:30:33.920 --> 00:30:37.630 delete. So I'm going to just start deleting all my tweets. They will 335 00:30:37.670 --> 00:30:42.509 be ephemeral the last a few days and then they'll just go away, I 336 00:30:42.670 --> 00:30:48.269 think in I was talking to somebody about what twitter is like for me and 337 00:30:48.349 --> 00:30:52.259 I think it's like a parking lot where I put the flyers for my band's 338 00:30:52.299 --> 00:30:56.660 Gig. In this case I mean the metaphor, obviously, is this podcast 339 00:30:56.779 --> 00:30:59.099 is my band and you gotta have to promote it, so you got to 340 00:30:59.099 --> 00:31:02.500 go put flyers on people's windshields. Right. Well, in that sense I'm 341 00:31:02.539 --> 00:31:04.569 in a parking lot and putting flyers on people's windshields. I'm also talking to 342 00:31:04.650 --> 00:31:07.809 people and Drinking Beers and doing that whole thing while I'm on twitter whatever. 343 00:31:08.690 --> 00:31:12.089 But I don't want to leave the flyers laying around all the time after I'm 344 00:31:12.130 --> 00:31:15.650 done, so I'm going to just start deleting all the tweets. If you 345 00:31:15.690 --> 00:31:18.319 go to my twitter account, that's probably only to be maybe ten tweets. 346 00:31:18.319 --> 00:31:23.839 At any given time unless I'm getting angry at a politician and railing against authority, 347 00:31:23.960 --> 00:31:26.319 and there might be a bunch, but probably every week. I'm just 348 00:31:26.359 --> 00:31:30.839 going to flush all the old tweets out. Kind of. By that same 349 00:31:30.000 --> 00:31:37.390 token, I may also delete or hide all the older podcast episodes, just 350 00:31:37.750 --> 00:31:41.630 to keep things focused on the moment. Back to the whole. You know, 351 00:31:41.670 --> 00:31:45.069 radio show idea. You can't go back to listen to old radio shows. 352 00:31:45.069 --> 00:31:48.339 You either listen to the one that's Today's or or not. I don't 353 00:31:48.380 --> 00:31:52.940 know, plan with some different ideas moving forward, but I definitely want to 354 00:31:52.980 --> 00:31:57.779 do more frequently. Each thing will be pretty structured. So check this out. 355 00:31:59.619 --> 00:32:04.210 I've been collecting stories and I call them high Jinks, for lack of 356 00:32:04.289 --> 00:32:06.569 a better word. Honestly, I was just making a logo and I'm like 357 00:32:06.609 --> 00:32:12.250 what word described these things? A lot of things the trouble and just stuff, 358 00:32:12.329 --> 00:32:15.569 stories from growing up. kind of like yeah, hi jinks is good. 359 00:32:15.519 --> 00:32:22.480 So so I think I'm going to insert one of these. Oh, 360 00:32:22.559 --> 00:32:24.640 and then I got into high cou a little bit. So my idea is, 361 00:32:25.240 --> 00:32:30.430 I think I got to lay out here somewhere we're going to do Dudo 362 00:32:30.509 --> 00:32:34.789 Doo Doo Doo, Doo Dooo. Start off with the intro and then I'll 363 00:32:34.789 --> 00:32:38.309 do maybe a song that kind of represents that episode. I'll read from a 364 00:32:38.390 --> 00:32:43.869 high jinks to a high coup and then to do a song out and based 365 00:32:43.910 --> 00:32:47.059 on that and my traditional digressions in the other things, I think we'll have 366 00:32:47.059 --> 00:32:51.980 a nice twenty minute podcast. Yes, see some of these hijinks. If 367 00:32:52.019 --> 00:32:53.819 any of these ring a bell with you or kind of resonate with you and 368 00:32:53.900 --> 00:32:59.410 you want me to do those first, let me know. So we got 369 00:32:59.490 --> 00:33:02.250 other stuff here like Hyjenk s number two, war zone, the nuclear bomb 370 00:33:02.289 --> 00:33:07.289 and helicopter incident. That's a good one. Number seven car rolls into a 371 00:33:07.410 --> 00:33:15.400 ditch on the way to the mine shaft. That was exciting. Crash the 372 00:33:15.480 --> 00:33:23.240 getly entourage and San Francisco. That was fun. Plane crashers into a shopping 373 00:33:23.279 --> 00:33:28.670 mall. That was interesting. So he soon, I mean, and these 374 00:33:28.710 --> 00:33:30.349 are the things that I think of when I'm like, I hope I don't 375 00:33:30.349 --> 00:33:35.710 start repeating these stories over and over to my kids like it drives me crazy 376 00:33:35.829 --> 00:33:38.269 when my parents, especially my dad, repeats the same story about people I 377 00:33:38.349 --> 00:33:42.980 don't know and the same story I've heard over so I just don't want to 378 00:33:42.980 --> 00:33:46.500 be that guy. So I've figured if I just pull all these stories out 379 00:33:46.539 --> 00:33:52.019 of my head record them on to a podcasts, there you go. You'll 380 00:33:52.019 --> 00:33:53.299 be entertained, I'll get the stories out of my head, I won't have 381 00:33:53.339 --> 00:33:57.809 to repeat them over and over again, and then will there'll be some kind 382 00:33:57.849 --> 00:34:00.529 of record that I existed on the planet. But then I started thinking about 383 00:34:00.569 --> 00:34:05.769 the future and what happens if I get like Alzheimer's, a dementia. I 384 00:34:05.849 --> 00:34:09.800 could go back and listen to myself tell my own old stories. So I 385 00:34:09.880 --> 00:34:14.599 think that could be kind of fun, kind of amazing too. Maybe you 386 00:34:14.760 --> 00:34:17.719 want to do same thing, who knows, but there's some good ones in 387 00:34:17.760 --> 00:34:22.960 there, boy, I tell you Jeez. So I got to get ready 388 00:34:22.559 --> 00:34:28.949 and head over to my other podcasts shortly. It's about eight o'clock here in 389 00:34:28.989 --> 00:34:30.389 the central time. That means it's nine o'clock on the east coast. That 390 00:34:30.510 --> 00:34:37.869 means it's three hours till midnight in America. It's already the next year. 391 00:34:37.869 --> 00:34:38.900 It's already two thousand and twenty and the rest of the world, a lot 392 00:34:38.900 --> 00:34:42.699 of the world. So hang on, folks. I think it's going to 393 00:34:42.739 --> 00:34:46.179 be a exciting, but let's try not to get too crazy, Turk, 394 00:34:46.260 --> 00:34:51.380 get trying to get too angry at things, and reach out to each other, 395 00:34:51.460 --> 00:34:53.010 you know, kind of form a tighter community in two thousand and twenty 396 00:34:53.050 --> 00:34:59.570 so that when Shit does go crazy, let's inevitably things do, then at 397 00:34:59.610 --> 00:35:02.650 least we'll have each other to rely on. Right. So, with that 398 00:35:02.769 --> 00:35:07.440 said, you know, I said a move back down to southwest Louisiana and 399 00:35:08.440 --> 00:35:12.599 I kind of I've always liked country music, but this is a good song 400 00:35:12.719 --> 00:35:28.030 that kind of speaks to my mind right now. Honey, you don't know 401 00:35:28.550 --> 00:35:37.699 my mind. I'm on time. Barneluzia, drifter, that's me. You 402 00:35:37.820 --> 00:35:45.780 can drove up far from long and hard. A baby, you don't know 403 00:35:45.980 --> 00:36:19.789 my I've heard the music convert snapping every dirty jail live to short for you 404 00:36:19.909 --> 00:36:25.909 do wory me when I'm fin and I gave way. I'm a kicking out 405 00:36:27.030 --> 00:36:35.380 of it. Baby, you don't know my mind. All right, that's 406 00:36:35.380 --> 00:36:37.780 about all I've got. I hope you have a great night. Be Safe. 407 00:36:38.420 --> 00:36:43.139 You know, don't drink and drive. Obviously you don't get high and 408 00:36:43.219 --> 00:36:46.170 drive. Sit there, I mean, whatever's go meditate or something. The 409 00:36:47.250 --> 00:36:50.530 you know, nobody cares if you don't go to the party. It's fine, 410 00:36:50.610 --> 00:36:53.409 it's just fine, and I'll catch you on the next bipolar style on 411 00:36:53.610 --> 00:36:58.610 behalf of me and the cats, maxine waters. Over there, I'm johnny 412 00:36:58.610 --> 00:37:07.559 emotions and I will talk to you soon. Subscribe Cheese following on twitter. 413 00:37:09.559 --> 00:37:13.119 He's so stupid. And now back to the wall.