New Year's Resolution Suggestions for Families of the Mentally Ill

WEBVTT 1 00:00:05.240 --> 00:00:10.750 Welcome back to bipolar style, the podcast for bipolar people and those who love 2 00:00:10.869 --> 00:00:17.469 them. Join US online at bipolar stylecom and now here's your host, Johnny 3 00:00:17.550 --> 00:00:26.660 Motion, Whoa Welcome. It's Johnny motions with the bipolar style. You made 4 00:00:26.699 --> 00:00:38.289 it man. This is the end of the year. Two thousand and seventeen. 5 00:00:38.490 --> 00:00:43.530 was quite a ride and the year this podcast started, so it's pretty 6 00:00:44.369 --> 00:00:49.009 important to me. I loved it, I hated it, typical bipolar fashion. 7 00:00:49.049 --> 00:00:52.640 Yeah, it was a thing, man. Two thousand and seventeen is 8 00:00:52.719 --> 00:00:57.600 almost over and I'm glad you're here. I'm glad I'm here and a stick 9 00:00:57.679 --> 00:01:00.920 around. Tomorrow will be a New Year, you know, in a metaphorical 10 00:01:00.960 --> 00:01:03.549 way, to start a new life, if you will, you know, 11 00:01:03.709 --> 00:01:08.670 just kind of a milestone to move forward in your recovery or your progress, 12 00:01:10.150 --> 00:01:15.670 whatever you consider forward movement and getting better. So thanks for tuning in the 13 00:01:15.709 --> 00:01:19.900 bipolar style. I have some not important, but I have some business to 14 00:01:19.980 --> 00:01:23.299 do here real quick. I'm going to turn on the twitter live stream camera 15 00:01:23.859 --> 00:01:29.620 and then we'll get started with the bulk of the PODCAST, which isn't very 16 00:01:29.659 --> 00:01:33.010 long. It's about thirty minutes, and at the end I'll tell you a 17 00:01:33.090 --> 00:01:38.170 way that you can get a free emo Joe t shirt. It's like little 18 00:01:38.209 --> 00:01:42.010 Yin Yang with the Smiley face guy, a designed for kind of the brand 19 00:01:42.129 --> 00:01:45.569 for the bipolar style but, you know, doesn't say bipolar anything on it. 20 00:01:45.769 --> 00:01:48.239 People like them. So if you want to know how to get an 21 00:01:48.239 --> 00:01:51.680 emo Joe Shirt, hang tight. I'm not going to tell the people on 22 00:01:51.760 --> 00:01:57.159 the twitter live stream about it. It's only for podcast listeners. So listen 23 00:01:57.200 --> 00:02:00.430 up at the end you'll be able to go, you know, do the 24 00:02:00.510 --> 00:02:05.510 thing that is required to get a t shirt. Hey, all right then, 25 00:02:05.549 --> 00:02:07.390 cool. Hold on a second, let me go push the button and 26 00:02:07.430 --> 00:02:13.069 get the twitter live stream going. All right, welcome twitter live stream people. 27 00:02:14.270 --> 00:02:16.979 I'm johnny emotions, as you can see from my fancy new lower thirds. 28 00:02:17.020 --> 00:02:23.300 There, John Emotions. Follow me on twitter and you can check out 29 00:02:23.300 --> 00:02:27.979 a lot of the past episodes, this past season of bipolar style. It's 30 00:02:28.060 --> 00:02:31.650 my podcast. I started back in August. This will be episode thirteen or 31 00:02:31.729 --> 00:02:37.889 fourteen, the end of the first season affectionately known as bipolar style. So 32 00:02:38.330 --> 00:02:43.090 welcome. Thank you folks out there. I told the people on the PODCAST 33 00:02:43.370 --> 00:02:46.639 who've been here before you guys got here. How do stick around? Learn 34 00:02:46.680 --> 00:02:52.039 how to get your free emo Joe Tshirt. Yeah, I'll say I like 35 00:02:52.199 --> 00:02:54.400 this, like that guy. That's emo Joe. It's a little logo I 36 00:02:54.479 --> 00:03:00.430 made for the bipolar style podcasts and it's it doesn't say bipolar anything on it 37 00:03:00.469 --> 00:03:02.789 and people like it. So if you want to find out how to get 38 00:03:02.830 --> 00:03:08.469 a free one, stick around. Stick around. Wow, what a year, 39 00:03:08.509 --> 00:03:12.509 man. I'm glad we made it. Of course, I typically only 40 00:03:12.550 --> 00:03:15.300 record podcast and video when I'm feeling up to it. So you never see 41 00:03:15.340 --> 00:03:20.099 me when I'm at my lowest and modestly, nobody really sees me at what 42 00:03:20.219 --> 00:03:24.259 I'm at my lowest. So that's said, I'm glad to be here. 43 00:03:25.460 --> 00:03:28.449 Two Thousand and eighteen, I mean two thousand and seventeen, was a trip 44 00:03:28.849 --> 00:03:35.009 I listened to. I had did done a kind of pilot episode of bipolar 45 00:03:35.090 --> 00:03:38.129 style back in right about now, like I think tonight, if he was 46 00:03:38.210 --> 00:03:43.639 either Christmas Eve or New Year's Eve of two thousand and sixteen into seventeen, 47 00:03:44.520 --> 00:03:47.280 where I had just I was in Los Angeles, living down there and I 48 00:03:47.360 --> 00:03:50.800 had nobody to hang out with and nothing to do, so I walked out 49 00:03:50.800 --> 00:03:54.949 on the street with my Handy Zoom Mike this thing here, which actually is 50 00:03:55.030 --> 00:03:59.830 recording the podcast right now, but it's portable. So took the mic out 51 00:03:59.870 --> 00:04:04.590 with another mic that plugs into it, and found a guy named Jay from 52 00:04:04.710 --> 00:04:10.020 Chicago, and he was like a street person, drunk, kind of looking 53 00:04:10.060 --> 00:04:14.500 for some more alcohol, and he shared his story about how he also had 54 00:04:14.620 --> 00:04:18.379 bipolar disorder, which I thought was that that's that's a that's a great kind 55 00:04:18.420 --> 00:04:21.819 of cautionary tale and it's a good way to start a podcast and it also 56 00:04:23.339 --> 00:04:27.810 was kind of D podcast that I wanted to have. Anyway, just excuse 57 00:04:27.850 --> 00:04:30.209 me, just like a man on the street kind of deal. Anyway, 58 00:04:31.529 --> 00:04:35.410 that I called that bipolar show. You can go see bipolar showcom goes to 59 00:04:35.490 --> 00:04:42.040 the old soundcloud files and take a listen if you like. Anyway, the 60 00:04:42.040 --> 00:04:46.000 audio wasn't that great, but there was a me interviewing Jay from Chicago in 61 00:04:46.079 --> 00:04:51.240 a dark alley late at night on a night just like tonight, so it's 62 00:04:51.279 --> 00:04:56.750 pretty interesting. But anyway, I kind of went off the rails, as 63 00:04:57.110 --> 00:05:00.870 bipolar people tend to. Ended up moving away from Los Angeles, moved to 64 00:05:00.990 --> 00:05:05.949 Louisiana for a while, move back to the San Francisco Bay area and when 65 00:05:05.949 --> 00:05:09.420 I got back to the bay area. I thought, man, I still 66 00:05:09.459 --> 00:05:12.740 like that idea of doing the podcast, but bipolar show is a little too 67 00:05:13.420 --> 00:05:17.180 heavy handed. Was Not, I don't know, it's not specifically the idea. 68 00:05:17.300 --> 00:05:21.410 Was it specifically about bipolar or to inform people about pipe polar it was 69 00:05:21.490 --> 00:05:25.730 just place for me to get my voice heard, to get it out, 70 00:05:25.730 --> 00:05:32.410 because when you're sick over years and years, you tend to not have continuity 71 00:05:32.449 --> 00:05:36.519 of health care or mental health care or anything like that. So I don't 72 00:05:36.519 --> 00:05:41.720 have a steady therapist, never have. The ones I have had have said 73 00:05:41.759 --> 00:05:44.639 yeah, get go ahead and have a podcast or do I fucking live stream 74 00:05:44.639 --> 00:05:46.480 or whatever. If it's good for you, if you're able to communicate your 75 00:05:46.560 --> 00:05:51.149 feelings and get them out, then that's sometimes as good as having the therapist. 76 00:05:51.230 --> 00:05:55.910 Now, obviously your your picks ells on a screen and you can't give 77 00:05:55.990 --> 00:05:58.389 me a hug or anything like that, so it's not quite the same, 78 00:05:58.509 --> 00:06:02.189 but it's helpful to have this voice, to get to get this yet out. 79 00:06:02.629 --> 00:06:06.939 Yeah, so that's part of why the whole thing started. It just 80 00:06:06.980 --> 00:06:11.660 kind of seems to end. It ended up being like my turn to share 81 00:06:12.139 --> 00:06:16.459 at a dbs a meeting. If you are new to depression or bipolar what 82 00:06:16.660 --> 00:06:23.889 you do is go to dbs alliance Dot Org. That's the DBSA I'm referring 83 00:06:23.930 --> 00:06:29.769 to. Anyway, they have DBSA meetings and you can go to hang out 84 00:06:29.769 --> 00:06:32.560 with other bipolar people, I guess, people with bipolar disorder. However, 85 00:06:32.600 --> 00:06:39.360 you like to explain that and it feels grid good to see others hear their 86 00:06:39.360 --> 00:06:43.439 stories in person. You don't really you still don't get a hug, but 87 00:06:44.800 --> 00:06:48.230 it's nice to go and share that. So, anyway, I can't get 88 00:06:48.230 --> 00:06:53.230 out all the time to the DBSA meetings, but this is very similar. 89 00:06:53.430 --> 00:06:57.750 So in a dbs a meeting you tell them your name and how you were, 90 00:06:57.750 --> 00:07:00.550 your week was, and then when it comes around to your turn again, 91 00:07:00.829 --> 00:07:03.740 you just share whatever the fuck you feel like sharing, which is a 92 00:07:03.740 --> 00:07:06.899 lot of times all we need. Most of us don't have a place to 93 00:07:06.939 --> 00:07:11.459 do that in our normal lives, so it's nice to have a small audience 94 00:07:11.740 --> 00:07:15.050 of people in a circle to share your problems or your thoughts or your concerns 95 00:07:15.089 --> 00:07:18.649 about anything really. So that's kind of what this podcast turned out to be, 96 00:07:19.009 --> 00:07:24.370 just my share out to the world. Makes Sense. It's kind of 97 00:07:24.410 --> 00:07:29.730 weird the people now on the live stream get to see me walk around and 98 00:07:29.810 --> 00:07:34.199 fuck up. That's all edited out from the PODCAST. Edddddd it out from 99 00:07:34.240 --> 00:07:40.920 the PODCAST, and the podcast people get new music. Live stream people won't 100 00:07:40.959 --> 00:07:44.829 get that for a while until I get two people, myself and somebody else, 101 00:07:44.910 --> 00:07:47.550 to run this obs software. As you can see, like I said, 102 00:07:47.550 --> 00:07:51.629 I've got lower thirds happening down here now. That's cool. I like 103 00:07:51.790 --> 00:07:56.269 that. If I was over at the computer I can push the buttons and 104 00:07:56.310 --> 00:07:59.779 make other shit fly around the screen and make it like a really live stream 105 00:07:59.860 --> 00:08:03.579 thing. But I really wanted to concentrate still on podcasting. It's really just 106 00:08:03.819 --> 00:08:07.819 this is just an adjunct to the PODCASTS. So, yeah, I have 107 00:08:07.980 --> 00:08:09.980 to get used to that. I have to get used to that too. 108 00:08:11.420 --> 00:08:16.930 Let's get onto some topics. Took some notes through the week to talk about 109 00:08:16.250 --> 00:08:20.009 on the podcast. I think I should go to toast masters. That's not 110 00:08:20.129 --> 00:08:22.529 one of my notes, but man, I bet they would teach you how 111 00:08:22.529 --> 00:08:26.769 to breathe while you're speaking and standing. I do the podcast while I'm standing 112 00:08:26.769 --> 00:08:28.560 because I don't want it to drone on and on and on forever and ever. 113 00:08:30.839 --> 00:08:33.360 So I fear if I do it standing. It's more like a like 114 00:08:33.480 --> 00:08:37.720 a stand up routine. Right, okay, I'm going to just digress lightly. 115 00:08:39.559 --> 00:08:43.990 But if this worst stand up routine, my new bit would be. 116 00:08:43.070 --> 00:08:48.389 Have you seen the new apple commercial? New Apple Os, ten or ISS, 117 00:08:48.870 --> 00:08:52.070 ten fucking apple, ten apple phones and the big latest phone with the 118 00:08:52.110 --> 00:08:56.100 big notch in the top of the camera goes. Anyway, the new ad 119 00:08:56.539 --> 00:09:03.460 campaign. It's really hyping the facial recognition and one of the big phrases that 120 00:09:03.659 --> 00:09:09.210 comes across the screen when they're, you know, dancing and the big white 121 00:09:09.289 --> 00:09:16.210 background in the phone flashing around, it says pay with your face, pay 122 00:09:16.330 --> 00:09:20.210 with your face. That seems so absurd to me. I started thinking what 123 00:09:20.330 --> 00:09:22.850 else can I pay for? What can I pay for? Can I just 124 00:09:22.970 --> 00:09:26.759 like throw my dick out on that little scanner at CBS? Pay With my 125 00:09:26.840 --> 00:09:31.039 Dick, or even better, I just bend over and pay with my buttle? 126 00:09:31.440 --> 00:09:33.720 It's like there you go, okay, paid your turn. WHO's up 127 00:09:33.799 --> 00:09:37.080 next? Anyway, I'm not stand up now. You can see why. 128 00:09:39.750 --> 00:09:43.070 To get onto the topics, man, oh, in some housekeeping before we 129 00:09:43.149 --> 00:09:48.029 get onto the topics. On the year end stuff, man. So the 130 00:09:48.149 --> 00:09:52.019 host I use. Hold on, I'm excited let me catch my breath. 131 00:09:54.139 --> 00:09:58.740 A manic. What time is it? Anyway? It's thirty in California. 132 00:09:58.779 --> 00:10:05.620 Now that means who it's getting close to fucking like New Year's Day. It's 133 00:10:05.620 --> 00:10:09.970 almost two thousand and eighteen in the UK. About two more hours. Yeah, 134 00:10:11.129 --> 00:10:15.529 roughly two and a half hours. That's neat. I bring this up 135 00:10:15.970 --> 00:10:20.049 because I looked at the map of all the statistics at Lipson LIBS and my 136 00:10:20.129 --> 00:10:26.960 host, l Ib Syn, liberated syndication libs in so good plug for them. 137 00:10:26.120 --> 00:10:30.519 Hey, go to lips and if you want to do a podcasts anyway, 138 00:10:31.080 --> 00:10:35.240 on lips and they have new statistics that show all your different downloads and 139 00:10:35.480 --> 00:10:39.230 for one man, there are way more downloads than I thought there would be, 140 00:10:39.070 --> 00:10:43.870 which is good and also somewhat scary, because I now I feel somewhat 141 00:10:43.909 --> 00:10:48.629 obligated to actually produce a podcast. Like right now, instead of sitting in 142 00:10:48.669 --> 00:10:52.379 my ass downstairs drinking, I'm up here making up podcast, which I guess 143 00:10:52.419 --> 00:10:56.980 it's good. You know, gives me structure. But Anyway, lots of 144 00:10:56.019 --> 00:11:01.340 people in the UK, in Australia and New Zealand, Thailand, HMM, 145 00:11:01.700 --> 00:11:07.450 tons of America, India, Bangladesh. It's like tons of places. Wait, 146 00:11:07.529 --> 00:11:11.610 maybe not India. I think it's blocked there. Anyway, explicit content 147 00:11:11.970 --> 00:11:16.049 whatever. Lots of people in lots of places I didn't know about are hearing 148 00:11:16.090 --> 00:11:18.759 the show and even, like people from my group, my own dbs a 149 00:11:18.879 --> 00:11:22.919 group, a guy said, yeah, thisten's your podcast. I'm like, 150 00:11:22.080 --> 00:11:26.840 no way, he did not, and he did. He explained which wanted 151 00:11:26.840 --> 00:11:31.240 to listen to. So man, I really appreciate you guys listening and sometimes 152 00:11:31.279 --> 00:11:35.230 I just ramble on, but I encourage you to ramble on, use your 153 00:11:35.230 --> 00:11:37.950 voice, find a place to be heard. You're always welcome to come on 154 00:11:37.669 --> 00:11:41.190 this show and share your bipolar experiences. I would love to hear them, 155 00:11:41.590 --> 00:11:46.350 and I think other people like to hear other voice besides mine. So let's 156 00:11:46.470 --> 00:11:50.059 let's try that soon. And there's so lots of places around the world, 157 00:11:50.419 --> 00:11:54.259 lots of downloads for the year, HMM, and lots of help like, 158 00:11:54.379 --> 00:12:01.690 especially on twitter. Diane, Super Helpful. I should list all these people, 159 00:12:01.809 --> 00:12:05.210 like actually list them on a twitter post or pin them to the post. 160 00:12:05.690 --> 00:12:11.009 So Jason Becky at that B word podcast, who we're trying to like 161 00:12:11.090 --> 00:12:13.889 do a host cohost thing, but now I'm flaking on it because I was 162 00:12:13.970 --> 00:12:16.600 going to start a third brand and like, I don't need a third brand 163 00:12:16.679 --> 00:12:20.519 now. What the FUCK DO I do? So maybe we can connect and 164 00:12:20.600 --> 00:12:26.240 do Mashup smashup podcasts more frequently, something like that. We're switching over from 165 00:12:26.279 --> 00:12:31.350 facebook video to yea, yeah, right here, Youtube live stream, mostly 166 00:12:31.470 --> 00:12:37.029 because these, once they're recorded, you can share youtube videos everywhere, including 167 00:12:37.149 --> 00:12:41.470 facebook. On the flip side, only facebook videos. You know, facebook 168 00:12:41.509 --> 00:12:45.860 videos are stuck on facebook. You can't share them on youtube or twitter or 169 00:12:45.899 --> 00:12:48.700 places like that. So that's why we're going to youtube live stream. Alo 170 00:12:48.740 --> 00:12:56.620 One SECON'M gonna grab drink. DRINK, yeah, not that kind of drink. 171 00:12:56.659 --> 00:13:01.450 Rock star Fruit Punch, my favorite. I get down. I don't 172 00:13:01.450 --> 00:13:07.929 drink coffee. Little Caffeine helps, though. Pool okay, anyway, yeah, 173 00:13:09.129 --> 00:13:13.759 digressions that may get cut from the podcast. To update from last week. 174 00:13:13.799 --> 00:13:20.080 Well, let's see, it's New Year's now and I think I want 175 00:13:20.080 --> 00:13:24.120 to just complain, to talk about my problems. You know what I mean, 176 00:13:24.440 --> 00:13:26.960 because by the time I get through all of this and get ready to 177 00:13:26.389 --> 00:13:31.309 make a video, I kind of process them. I'm like God, that's 178 00:13:31.389 --> 00:13:35.429 okay, it'll be fine whatever. So I ended up not going to my 179 00:13:35.470 --> 00:13:39.470 dad's because, well, I didn't like the way I didn't like the tone 180 00:13:39.470 --> 00:13:43.620 of his voice when he hung up the phone the last time I had called 181 00:13:43.659 --> 00:13:46.139 him, when I told him, Hey, dude, something fucked up happened 182 00:13:46.179 --> 00:13:50.379 to me. Instead of saying like Oh shit, that is fucked up, 183 00:13:50.379 --> 00:13:52.500 how can I come help, or how can I help at all, or 184 00:13:52.539 --> 00:13:58.049 whatever, he I heard him hang up the phone. There's a person in 185 00:13:58.169 --> 00:14:01.289 the room with them, and I hear him saying up see what I tell 186 00:14:01.330 --> 00:14:03.730 you. You know, as I'm like a fuck and so, instead of 187 00:14:03.850 --> 00:14:09.809 offering any kind of assistance or or anything, any kind of like oh sorry, 188 00:14:09.809 --> 00:14:11.120 how can I help? kind of situation, instead of any of that, 189 00:14:13.000 --> 00:14:16.120 later in the week I get a Oh hey, I need you to 190 00:14:16.200 --> 00:14:20.480 bring me something when you come up for for New Year's. So I'm like, 191 00:14:20.320 --> 00:14:24.950 that's it, really, you just you just need me for something. 192 00:14:24.149 --> 00:14:28.429 You don't want to you just going to Hash over that whole thing that happened 193 00:14:28.470 --> 00:14:33.230 the few days prior. Okay, whatever. So, anyway, fuck that. 194 00:14:33.269 --> 00:14:35.190 I'm not going up there. I'm not going to spend a hundred dollars 195 00:14:35.269 --> 00:14:41.340 of more in gas that don't have and then come back down. I was 196 00:14:41.379 --> 00:14:45.299 too much stressed and I'll be traveling back down with all the other Goddamn pee 197 00:14:45.419 --> 00:14:48.340 fool and it may have to go up there anyhow in a few weeks. 198 00:14:48.019 --> 00:14:54.809 So whatever, stay at home, stay in this place, call it home 199 00:14:54.929 --> 00:15:01.049 now. Anyway, I'm staying safe, stay in warm and not going anywhere 200 00:15:01.049 --> 00:15:05.330 for New Year's so that's the update for that. It turns out my mom 201 00:15:05.450 --> 00:15:11.759 went on a trip. Apparently she's on a cruise in the UK doing whatever 202 00:15:11.840 --> 00:15:16.320 for the holidays, so good for her. And I saw my middle son. 203 00:15:16.440 --> 00:15:20.320 That was great. Went saw movie last week. Went inside Jumanji, 204 00:15:20.120 --> 00:15:24.909 which was surprisingly better than I thought it would be. I like all the 205 00:15:24.950 --> 00:15:26.789 actors in it, but you know, I'm like, great, do we 206 00:15:26.870 --> 00:15:33.269 need another Jumanji really? And and besides, it's a copy of a Robin 207 00:15:33.309 --> 00:15:35.620 Williams movie and I think a lot of bipolar people have a special place in 208 00:15:35.659 --> 00:15:39.580 their heart for by, for Robin Williams, because it was potential for having 209 00:15:39.620 --> 00:15:46.539 had bipolar disorder. Anyway, seeing Jumanji, back to the point, was 210 00:15:46.740 --> 00:15:50.970 fun because I got to see it with my Middle Son Jack and I love 211 00:15:50.049 --> 00:15:52.809 them a lot and I miss them, so that's great. The other two 212 00:15:52.929 --> 00:15:56.049 didn't want to come or didn't reply or whatever. made it kind of hard 213 00:15:56.090 --> 00:15:58.730 for the holidays. But what can you do, man, just go on, 214 00:15:58.889 --> 00:16:03.720 just keep going. It's I'm do. So back to now, two 215 00:16:03.759 --> 00:16:07.320 thousand and eighteen. Let me see what we're talking about today. HMM. 216 00:16:11.360 --> 00:16:15.279 Oh Yeah, okay, here's the thing, so I may, I'm trying 217 00:16:15.320 --> 00:16:22.470 to create this opportunity. Like the job I have now, they haven't provided 218 00:16:22.509 --> 00:16:26.389 a computer, like I've been there like six months. Still no computer. 219 00:16:26.269 --> 00:16:32.309 Supposed to be like in charge of a certain thing that clearly requires a computer. 220 00:16:32.830 --> 00:16:34.299 I'm having to use my own shit. It just I don't feel like 221 00:16:34.500 --> 00:16:37.539 respected at the job. So I have to be careful not to jump around 222 00:16:37.539 --> 00:16:41.940 from job to job just because I don't feel respected. But some point, 223 00:16:41.940 --> 00:16:45.500 yeah, anyway. So I'm trying to create a new thing. So what 224 00:16:45.580 --> 00:16:53.850 I'm trying to do is there's a building in San Francisco that houses a bunch 225 00:16:53.889 --> 00:17:00.490 of old people, like lots of disconnected, isolated people. I want to 226 00:17:00.529 --> 00:17:04.039 find out how to, HMM, get into position to manage a building like 227 00:17:04.119 --> 00:17:11.039 that and use it as a test case to find out how we can get 228 00:17:11.160 --> 00:17:17.230 isolated people, especially older people, living alone in small little closet size of 229 00:17:17.309 --> 00:17:22.710 rooms, to communicate more with each other, to use digital tools to get 230 00:17:22.750 --> 00:17:29.109 them out of their rooms and then to get them to interact in person based 231 00:17:29.150 --> 00:17:33.619 on their use of those digital tools. So I guess the idea I have 232 00:17:33.019 --> 00:17:37.140 is kind of I don't know how to explain it, but it's like a 233 00:17:37.339 --> 00:17:41.019 tender or a bumble for lonely people like you. Put in what you're into. 234 00:17:41.779 --> 00:17:45.930 You don't put your picture. It's like the opposite, the opposite of 235 00:17:45.089 --> 00:17:48.769 that, where you don't there's no visuals. You can put your art, 236 00:17:48.170 --> 00:17:52.970 your favorite artist, maybe your favorite music, what you're into, but you 237 00:17:52.049 --> 00:17:56.250 know, put the activities that you're possible, that you're able to do. 238 00:17:56.450 --> 00:18:00.799 I'm sorry that you're possible. Put put the activities that are possible for you 239 00:18:00.880 --> 00:18:04.039 to do. Don't put things that you like to do. Put things that 240 00:18:04.079 --> 00:18:08.319 you can do, like can go bowling or do light yoga for old people 241 00:18:08.400 --> 00:18:12.789 or something like that, and then get these old people to interact that way 242 00:18:12.829 --> 00:18:17.789 through an APP, to try to so they connect in real life, but 243 00:18:18.190 --> 00:18:25.069 on their desires and likes for recreational activities instead of love interest. Makes Sense. 244 00:18:25.549 --> 00:18:29.220 All you have to do is say it's bumble for lonely people. Wait 245 00:18:29.299 --> 00:18:36.140 a second, bumble already is for lonely people. Now I'm just kidding in 246 00:18:36.339 --> 00:18:38.779 you get the picture. We're take away the photos and make an APP for 247 00:18:38.900 --> 00:18:45.289 lonely people that is just geared toward local people getting together to do shit so 248 00:18:45.329 --> 00:18:48.609 they're just not in isolation anymore. That's my big goal for the next for 249 00:18:48.730 --> 00:18:51.650 you, for the next year, for like two thousand and eighteen. This 250 00:18:51.809 --> 00:18:56.359 one potentially, this one potential place that I have in mind. I've been 251 00:18:56.400 --> 00:19:03.119 talking to they also have a music setup and they have monthly jazz shows in 252 00:19:03.279 --> 00:19:07.880 this area. So I'm thinking somehow connecting all the people in the building through 253 00:19:07.920 --> 00:19:11.069 music, of course, because you know, I've played music, love music 254 00:19:11.430 --> 00:19:15.150 and I think it's a great tool. It's a universal language that everybody speaks. 255 00:19:17.029 --> 00:19:18.869 So I'm kind of excited about that and I will keep you posted. 256 00:19:19.630 --> 00:19:25.299 That said, that's kind of why I had this kind of conflict. Like 257 00:19:25.460 --> 00:19:27.859 to I keep calling the show bipolar style or just johnny emotion show. So 258 00:19:29.140 --> 00:19:33.859 anyway, I'll call johnny emotions the live stream here called bipolar style, the 259 00:19:33.900 --> 00:19:37.259 bipolar related podcast. But anyway, don't get them confused. It's all just 260 00:19:37.380 --> 00:19:41.609 me rambling around things I'm up to right now. Huh, my note says 261 00:19:41.690 --> 00:19:47.450 big decision. Use My real name, become a public speaker, write a 262 00:19:47.569 --> 00:19:52.490 book. I don't know about that. So I've used my real name before 263 00:19:52.079 --> 00:19:56.240 and I've kind of come out, so to speak, quote unquote, as 264 00:19:56.359 --> 00:20:00.559 a bipolar person. That didn't work out so well. So now, based 265 00:20:00.599 --> 00:20:07.430 on actual life experience, I keep that part of my life anonymous or at 266 00:20:07.430 --> 00:20:11.430 least private, you know, somewhat separated. You really have to be kind 267 00:20:11.470 --> 00:20:14.750 of an obsessive freak to find to put the two and two together, like 268 00:20:14.910 --> 00:20:18.269 the real me and the John Emotions brand. It's easy to do. Just, 269 00:20:18.430 --> 00:20:22.940 you know, go to fucking who is or something like that and find 270 00:20:22.980 --> 00:20:26.779 out. But whatever. So that's not important. What's important is that I'm 271 00:20:26.819 --> 00:20:30.339 making an attempt, for the people that are not obsessively trying to find out 272 00:20:30.339 --> 00:20:34.299 who I am, to just communicate to the rest of the world how people 273 00:20:34.339 --> 00:20:41.329 with bipolar, borderline personality disorder, PTSD and anxiety disorders and all of those 274 00:20:41.410 --> 00:20:47.809 things actually act and feel in real life. So to do that now I'm 275 00:20:47.849 --> 00:20:52.799 like, fuck, real name, HMM, stage name, real name, 276 00:20:53.599 --> 00:20:57.000 stage name. So I think stage name for this year. Why not? 277 00:20:57.559 --> 00:21:00.599 Yeah, fuck it, it's not even that important. Why am I? 278 00:21:00.759 --> 00:21:03.549 Why are we talking to you about it? I'll figure it out all right. 279 00:21:04.309 --> 00:21:08.470 Next down the lists. For those of you, this is a great 280 00:21:10.069 --> 00:21:15.589 new year's resolution for people that have family members that have mental illnesses or disorders. 281 00:21:17.109 --> 00:21:22.059 Write this down as your fucking resolution, except that you have a sick 282 00:21:22.140 --> 00:21:27.579 family member and that person can be helped. So that's your responsibility to help 283 00:21:27.619 --> 00:21:33.769 your family directly or to make sure they find help. That is your family. 284 00:21:33.170 --> 00:21:36.490 Like bill Burr says, we don't just have kids. So we have 285 00:21:36.650 --> 00:21:40.970 more humans shitting in the river. We just that's not the purpose of making 286 00:21:41.009 --> 00:21:45.289 families. The families should all help each other. If you have somebody that 287 00:21:45.369 --> 00:21:48.839 is sick in your family, you should help them. Got It makes sense, 288 00:21:49.400 --> 00:21:56.440 that simple, and so, as a family member, what it's important 289 00:21:56.440 --> 00:22:00.200 to do is to be there for them in person and listen to them. 290 00:22:00.589 --> 00:22:07.509 Don't try to solve their condition. In fact, bipolar disorder is currently incurable. 291 00:22:07.150 --> 00:22:11.430 So just listen to them, let them be them and stop trying to 292 00:22:11.470 --> 00:22:17.220 cure them and accept them as disabled. If you're not solid enough human to 293 00:22:17.500 --> 00:22:22.380 care about a disabled loved one, maybe you should reconsider your existence here on 294 00:22:22.619 --> 00:22:29.539 planet earth. The next thing you can do as a loved one, so 295 00:22:29.740 --> 00:22:33.089 called Love One, family member, of somebody with a mental disorder, is 296 00:22:33.849 --> 00:22:38.529 stop gas lighting them. Do you know what gas lighting is? Gas Lighting 297 00:22:38.690 --> 00:22:45.640 is when you deny somebody else's reality. So in the existence in my case, 298 00:22:45.720 --> 00:22:48.960 what it is is a lot of people because I only go outside or 299 00:22:48.000 --> 00:22:52.559 do podcast or talking the phone or things when I'm capable. When I'm not 300 00:22:52.640 --> 00:22:56.759 capable, I don't exist in real world. I hide. So in my 301 00:22:56.880 --> 00:23:00.990 case gas lighting is telling me, Oh, you're not sick, you're okay, 302 00:23:00.349 --> 00:23:06.470 you're just faking it. Obviously the doctors, the scientist, the guys 303 00:23:06.509 --> 00:23:10.869 who do the cat scans, the pharmacist, the the the prescription writers, 304 00:23:10.910 --> 00:23:15.859 the therapist, they all say differently. I'm not it's my prerogative not to 305 00:23:15.980 --> 00:23:18.940 have to talk about all that every time it the subject comes up, but 306 00:23:19.099 --> 00:23:25.819 just know that you, the lay person, telling somebody that they are not 307 00:23:26.019 --> 00:23:30.970 crazy when the whole medical establishment has confirmed it makes you look like an idiot. 308 00:23:33.529 --> 00:23:36.410 So I guess what I'm saying is just don't be an idiot. If 309 00:23:36.609 --> 00:23:38.930 someone's going to the hospital but you think they're faking you think someone fucking wants 310 00:23:38.970 --> 00:23:42.039 to have bipolar disorder? You think they want to have a personality disorder? 311 00:23:42.240 --> 00:23:45.759 You think somebody wants to have PTSD or anxiety? Fuck, no, fuck 312 00:23:45.839 --> 00:23:48.839 you if you think that. That's stupid, and stop gas lighting people that 313 00:23:48.920 --> 00:23:52.799 have been to the doctor and diagnosed and that take medication for it. Stop 314 00:23:52.920 --> 00:23:56.910 telling them they're not crazy, that they're faking it. That's just stupid. 315 00:23:57.029 --> 00:24:02.109 So the last thing you might want to consider if you're the loved one of 316 00:24:02.269 --> 00:24:07.670 somebody that has a mental disorder or mental illness is to give up on the 317 00:24:07.710 --> 00:24:11.059 quote unquote, tough love. That is bullshit. Tough love is bullshit. 318 00:24:11.660 --> 00:24:17.500 How about trying smart love, or even kind love? There's an idea. 319 00:24:18.420 --> 00:24:21.859 My mom tried to treat me with tough love. She tried to treat by 320 00:24:21.900 --> 00:24:25.769 polar disorder with truck tough love back when I was like fourteen, kick me 321 00:24:25.849 --> 00:24:29.930 out on the streets. It didn't work. None of it worked. It 322 00:24:30.009 --> 00:24:33.809 didn't cure my bi polar disorder. He created more disorders, made things much 323 00:24:33.809 --> 00:24:38.119 worse. And people say, well, what did you expect her to do? 324 00:24:38.240 --> 00:24:41.519 Well, I expect her to take me to fucking hospital, get me 325 00:24:41.599 --> 00:24:44.240 help from her doctor. It was fourteen, for Fuck's sake. What else 326 00:24:44.319 --> 00:24:45.279 would you do? Of course you take your kid there. You know she 327 00:24:45.359 --> 00:24:48.880 took me there once when I was younger. The doctor said, HMM, 328 00:24:51.079 --> 00:24:53.630 next time I will see your mom by herself. You don't have to come 329 00:24:55.230 --> 00:25:00.029 anyway. I got the boot at fourteen because of quote unquote, tough love. 330 00:25:00.589 --> 00:25:03.309 So obviously it doesn't work. If you love somebody, just love them, 331 00:25:03.349 --> 00:25:06.950 help them, give them a hug, tell them you'll be there for 332 00:25:07.029 --> 00:25:10.460 them, tell them you won't abandon them. There's are lots of cool things 333 00:25:10.500 --> 00:25:15.180 you can do for loved ones who have mental illnesses in two thousand and eighteen. 334 00:25:15.619 --> 00:25:18.140 So give it a shot. Make some resolutions to not be a Dick 335 00:25:18.900 --> 00:25:25.210 and help those who need help the most. Now remember, of course, 336 00:25:25.809 --> 00:25:30.569 those are resolutions for quote unquote normal people, like healthy people, not for 337 00:25:30.690 --> 00:25:33.970 those of us who are sick. I'm not saying don't be a Dick, 338 00:25:33.009 --> 00:25:36.000 but yeah, don't be a deck. Obviously, most people that have a 339 00:25:36.200 --> 00:25:40.559 disorder are not judgmental of others that have similar disorders because we know how it 340 00:25:40.599 --> 00:25:44.640 feels. We have empathy for that. But yeah, it's important to remind 341 00:25:44.680 --> 00:25:47.519 people that think they're healthy. They think they're above it. You know, 342 00:25:47.720 --> 00:25:51.029 they have sicknesses. They got the Gout, they get asthma, they got 343 00:25:51.109 --> 00:25:53.390 the diabetes, of the cancer they I mean, we just have a different 344 00:25:53.470 --> 00:25:57.470 thing. So, you know, got to remind them that we can't get 345 00:25:57.509 --> 00:26:02.349 sick. We do look normal. Our normal is different than your normal. 346 00:26:02.549 --> 00:26:06.700 So give us a break and tough love is bullshit and cut it with the 347 00:26:06.700 --> 00:26:11.140 gas lighting. No more gas lighting. So there are some awesome things coming 348 00:26:11.180 --> 00:26:15.579 up. Through a podcasting group on Facebook, I met a gentleman who introduced 349 00:26:15.660 --> 00:26:18.170 me to a friend of his who I'm going to have on this show. 350 00:26:18.250 --> 00:26:23.490 The friend because he just got his wife from the hospital with bipolar disorder and 351 00:26:23.930 --> 00:26:27.769 orderline personality disorder. So I guess they're given these out at the hospital now. 352 00:26:27.809 --> 00:26:32.089 No, I'm kidding, but so we're going to talk to him about 353 00:26:32.450 --> 00:26:36.960 what it's like to be the family member of somebody that has both bipolar and 354 00:26:37.079 --> 00:26:40.880 borderline. That's going to be neat. Also, the guy who connected this 355 00:26:41.319 --> 00:26:45.119 has a podcast called come to the table, which is a faith based podcast 356 00:26:45.160 --> 00:26:48.309 I'm going to check out. I'm going to be a guest on that. 357 00:26:48.029 --> 00:26:51.869 We're going to talk about a lot of interesting things probably I'm going to talk 358 00:26:51.910 --> 00:26:55.910 about my loss of faith and to see where we can come together and find 359 00:26:55.950 --> 00:27:00.630 a happy medium on that, because I'm agnostic at best, atheists a lot. 360 00:27:00.579 --> 00:27:03.779 So that'd be fun and that, gentlemen, and also hook me up 361 00:27:03.859 --> 00:27:10.740 with a popular radio DJ in the Ohio area, I believe, and that 362 00:27:10.819 --> 00:27:14.660 dudes got bipolar. He's been on the local media kind of like as a 363 00:27:14.740 --> 00:27:17.970 local mental health warrior kind of Guy, so I'd like to have him on. 364 00:27:18.170 --> 00:27:19.690 I think that's going to happen as well. So there's going to be 365 00:27:19.730 --> 00:27:23.329 a lot of cool stuff in the first month and a half or so and 366 00:27:23.609 --> 00:27:27.930 look forward to having you here on the twitter live stream and you guys here 367 00:27:29.210 --> 00:27:33.200 in the headphones on the podcast. I can't promise that it'll be more consistent 368 00:27:33.319 --> 00:27:37.400 on a schedule because, like I said, I don't really record or publish 369 00:27:37.400 --> 00:27:40.759 any of this shit when I'm not feeling well, so it's not like you 370 00:27:40.799 --> 00:27:44.829 can ever see it me here bawling, crying things like that. Not Right, 371 00:27:45.349 --> 00:27:49.430 not right for me anyway. But Shit, man, two thousand and 372 00:27:49.430 --> 00:27:53.029 eighteen has to be better than two thousand and seventeen. was so much crazy 373 00:27:53.230 --> 00:27:57.390 extra work in two thousand and seventeen. I just want some stability, some 374 00:27:57.579 --> 00:28:03.019 love. I want some more hugs. And two thousand and eighteen and I 375 00:28:03.059 --> 00:28:06.299 guess we'll just keep pushing this little brand thing, my little fucking twitter and 376 00:28:06.900 --> 00:28:11.140 Youtube experiment, and just I'll take that as it is. I like a 377 00:28:11.220 --> 00:28:14.250 hobby. It's good hobby to have and let me get it out right. 378 00:28:15.130 --> 00:28:18.009 All right then, happy two thousand and eighteen. We'll see you soon. 379 00:28:18.490 --> 00:28:22.490 And here's my buddy ray ray as old time friend of mine, like my 380 00:28:22.569 --> 00:28:26.009 longest friend, probably since the sixth grade, seventh grade, and used to 381 00:28:26.049 --> 00:28:32.200 play together in band and he still makes music. So the music you hear 382 00:28:32.240 --> 00:28:37.319 in the background is Ray levus. He's not big on like social media, 383 00:28:37.400 --> 00:28:38.680 so you can't find him, but I do want to thank him. I 384 00:28:40.039 --> 00:28:42.269 appreciate him and listen to this music on the way out. This is going 385 00:28:42.309 --> 00:28:48.430 to be the kind of a theme sound of the Johnny emotions bipolar sound show 386 00:28:48.789 --> 00:28:52.630 thing. Two Thousand and eighteen. All right, mostly so I can get 387 00:28:52.630 --> 00:28:56.099 on the spotify. spotify will not let me on with any of that unlicensed 388 00:28:56.140 --> 00:29:00.259 music. Dig, dig, all right, cool bit. You guys have 389 00:29:00.339 --> 00:29:03.180 a great two thousand and eighteen. Stay safe. I'm glad we made it 390 00:29:03.299 --> 00:29:06.420 this far. You've made it this far, you can make it. You 391 00:29:06.500 --> 00:29:08.779 know, few more hours. Don't go doing anything crazy tomorrow. It's not 392 00:29:08.859 --> 00:29:12.890 a special celebration day to go kill yourself or anything like that. Hold tight, 393 00:29:14.289 --> 00:29:17.329 make it to the second and then we'll talk. All right, cool. 394 00:29:19.890 --> 00:29:25.599 If you've liked what you heard, subscribe on Apple podcast via Itunes and 395 00:29:25.759 --> 00:29:29.599 join us at bipolar stylecom. Thanks for listening.