Jealousy feels like / Privileged justice gone bad / High difficulty

WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.200 --> 00:00:03.839 Oh, hey you, welcome back to the EMO Dojo. I'm John. 2 00:00:04.320 --> 00:00:13.550 This is my podcast. How are you? Who Are you? Have you 3 00:00:13.750 --> 00:00:18.670 been? Hope you're taking care of yourself out there. So g shock and 4 00:00:18.789 --> 00:00:22.579 I found a third person, a guy named Mike, and we're going to 5 00:00:22.699 --> 00:00:28.940 split off and finally make our own little podcast, which means now this channel 6 00:00:29.019 --> 00:00:32.619 needs a show. So it just going to be me talking again, like 7 00:00:32.979 --> 00:00:39.049 it's been off and on for years. Hey, cool. So we'll see 8 00:00:39.049 --> 00:00:42.729 what becomes of the other one. We are working on like logos and names 9 00:00:42.770 --> 00:00:46.689 and things like that, and basically we just wanted to be like a three 10 00:00:46.770 --> 00:00:51.799 way partnership instead of just the one guy with the couple other guys helping him 11 00:00:51.960 --> 00:00:54.799 type of thing. I don't want that. I don't need help. I'd 12 00:00:54.799 --> 00:00:59.520 rather either do it this way completely by myself, or like more like a 13 00:00:59.600 --> 00:01:03.310 team work where everybody has different shores and things like that. So, anyway, 14 00:01:03.709 --> 00:01:06.909 wish US luck on that one. I'll tell you more about that as 15 00:01:06.950 --> 00:01:12.150 it progresses. Since we are all drummers, the general theme is probably going 16 00:01:12.189 --> 00:01:17.950 to be something about drummers, like a drummer's perspective on life and themes around 17 00:01:18.030 --> 00:01:23.299 momentum tempo timing, it said. Oh, should be pretty cool. Yeah, 18 00:01:23.819 --> 00:01:29.739 more importantly, whether or not that second podcast succeeds is based purely on 19 00:01:30.459 --> 00:01:34.450 the three of our ability to make it work. That leaves me free to 20 00:01:34.489 --> 00:01:40.129 let this podcast here focus just on what I'm doing right now, kind of 21 00:01:40.129 --> 00:01:45.489 like a hobby podcast adjacent to the work I'm trying to get finished when this 22 00:01:45.609 --> 00:01:49.920 case gets started. After talking to a couple of different vocal coaches, it 23 00:01:51.120 --> 00:01:53.840 turns out the one nearest me that happens to also be in my town. 24 00:01:55.359 --> 00:02:00.709 He's also like world renowned for this skill and we got along really well and 25 00:02:00.829 --> 00:02:06.030 I think that's all going to be killer. So I locked down with that 26 00:02:06.269 --> 00:02:09.270 guy, Shawn Pratt, and we're going to be working with each other for 27 00:02:09.389 --> 00:02:16.340 like a year to I'm going to work with him towards reading nonfiction books on 28 00:02:16.699 --> 00:02:23.139 audible. Might seem kind of boring, but it also seems very, MMM, 29 00:02:23.539 --> 00:02:25.340 I don't know, working class or something. It seems like a good 30 00:02:25.460 --> 00:02:31.449 shore fire way to get into the business if you can do the work. 31 00:02:32.490 --> 00:02:36.129 You know you're not trying to be like a big shot trying to do movie 32 00:02:36.210 --> 00:02:42.090 trailers or car commercials of things like that. Work like games or cartoons or 33 00:02:42.090 --> 00:02:45.120 things like that. That seems like next the level. I think mostly rock 34 00:02:45.280 --> 00:02:49.599 star voice actors kind of do that work. Nonetheless, I listen to a 35 00:02:49.639 --> 00:02:53.759 lot of audio books and I hear a need for voice actors all the time, 36 00:02:54.560 --> 00:02:59.389 which is to say some of the audiobooks listen to have horrible readers. 37 00:03:00.189 --> 00:03:04.229 So hang around on that journey with me. I also started to think I 38 00:03:04.349 --> 00:03:08.789 want to start interviewing people just like from my twitter feed or old friends from 39 00:03:08.789 --> 00:03:13.620 facebook. Just check in with them and talk about it on a podcast, 40 00:03:13.699 --> 00:03:16.659 because then my other friends from the old days would probably want to listen to 41 00:03:16.780 --> 00:03:22.740 those conversations and Chim in right and one of my longtime goals had always been 42 00:03:22.780 --> 00:03:27.210 like how did you just make an audio version of your twitter feed? So 43 00:03:27.530 --> 00:03:30.849 most of that entails having a solid twitter feed of just active users, like 44 00:03:31.009 --> 00:03:37.650 real people, no bots, and then finding ones you like can engage with 45 00:03:37.810 --> 00:03:39.569 on a regular basis that they start to establish some trust, and then at 46 00:03:39.650 --> 00:03:45.599 some point invite them onto the show ask them about a specific post or a 47 00:03:45.719 --> 00:03:49.560 comment they made on another post or something they shared. That seems fun, 48 00:03:49.639 --> 00:03:53.879 so I think I'm going to try to do something like that anyway. No 49 00:03:53.039 --> 00:03:58.389 pressure. Basically the I'm not putting really a lot of pressure on the artistic 50 00:03:58.469 --> 00:04:02.550 part of creating stuff for a podcast as much as just getting on the mic 51 00:04:03.110 --> 00:04:08.110 and creating a podcast. Like a couple of years ago I did this thing 52 00:04:08.150 --> 00:04:13.580 called the dog days of August, were was basically a podcast challenge where we 53 00:04:13.659 --> 00:04:18.220 made a podcast every day for the entire month of August, and I did 54 00:04:18.259 --> 00:04:21.100 it. I liked it, I like the outcome. It just kind of 55 00:04:21.259 --> 00:04:26.209 build your podcasting muscles. So I'm going to do that, lucky you. 56 00:04:27.170 --> 00:04:32.009 Here's how life was currently piecing together the well, I've talked to my superiors 57 00:04:32.050 --> 00:04:36.610 at work and what I do. Basically, I signed up as a salesperson 58 00:04:36.649 --> 00:04:41.519 and I've hit my marks as far as number of customers and things like that, 59 00:04:42.920 --> 00:04:46.439 which is great, because I set pretty liberal mark, like I set 60 00:04:46.439 --> 00:04:49.519 hire marks that I thought I could get and I hit them. That was 61 00:04:49.600 --> 00:04:57.910 good. The issue for me personally is the forecast that they had made were 62 00:04:57.990 --> 00:05:02.029 based on last year's numbers in the industry. Well, this year, despite 63 00:05:02.069 --> 00:05:08.779 me hitting all the right numbers with regards to new customers, the average purchase 64 00:05:08.939 --> 00:05:12.339 per customer, where last year it might have been two thousand dollars is now 65 00:05:12.620 --> 00:05:18.339 five hundred dollars, and the average price of, say, the commodity we're 66 00:05:18.339 --> 00:05:24.209 selling has dropped in half. So there's a lot of forces at play that 67 00:05:24.449 --> 00:05:27.290 end up with me making way less money than I thought was going to make. 68 00:05:28.410 --> 00:05:30.649 That said, the people at work with the really cool, really nice, 69 00:05:30.769 --> 00:05:35.759 and they are supportive of me doing the voice acting thing on the side 70 00:05:35.800 --> 00:05:40.040 as well. So if I need to run and go do some voice acting 71 00:05:40.120 --> 00:05:43.439 work, so long as I get my appointments met and things like that, 72 00:05:44.120 --> 00:05:47.240 they're cool, which you can't get that at every job, and the fact 73 00:05:47.279 --> 00:05:50.949 that I would have two jobs that kind of compliment each other is great because 74 00:05:50.949 --> 00:05:56.149 then I get the variety and get a little incentive to stay at one and 75 00:05:57.189 --> 00:06:00.870 some more incentive to grow the new venture. So I think it's all going 76 00:06:00.910 --> 00:06:03.029 to work out. Okay, stressful there for a minute, though. So, 77 00:06:03.149 --> 00:06:05.660 so stressful. As a matter of fact, I got the shingles. 78 00:06:06.220 --> 00:06:10.459 That's fucked up. If you're in a position to get a shingles vaccine, 79 00:06:10.660 --> 00:06:14.220 you might want to consider that. It got in my back and my shoulder 80 00:06:14.220 --> 00:06:17.259 blades and right now it's in my rotator cuff. And what the shingles is 81 00:06:17.300 --> 00:06:20.449 basically at attacks your nerve endings. So, long and short of it, 82 00:06:20.610 --> 00:06:25.050 I now have nerve damage in my rotator cuff and I can't lift my arm 83 00:06:25.089 --> 00:06:30.089 up all the way, so I'm kind of gimpy and that sucks. The 84 00:06:30.490 --> 00:06:33.759 rash is horrible and painful. Fortunately that went away and you know, you 85 00:06:33.839 --> 00:06:40.639 take the medicine and makes the virus go away, but the residual nerve damage 86 00:06:40.680 --> 00:06:44.399 takes a long time to heal and cure and fix itself and all the while 87 00:06:44.959 --> 00:06:48.470 it's tingling. So it's painful. That part sucks and it's really hard to 88 00:06:48.509 --> 00:06:53.709 get any sleep because you just the pain wakes you up. You can't take 89 00:06:54.589 --> 00:06:58.790 Ibuprofen or anything like that, because what are you trying to do reduce inflammation? 90 00:06:58.870 --> 00:07:01.220 There is no inflammation, it's nerve damage. And of course the lack 91 00:07:01.259 --> 00:07:05.660 of sleep makes me crazy and angry and a little twisted out of shape. 92 00:07:05.779 --> 00:07:11.980 But that said, every day it feels a little bit better and my first 93 00:07:12.060 --> 00:07:15.810 voice lesson with the with Shawn is not for another month, so I think 94 00:07:15.850 --> 00:07:18.209 everything's going to be fine. I just need to take it easy and let 95 00:07:18.290 --> 00:07:25.610 myself heal and get something done about my shoulder. On the COVID front. 96 00:07:25.689 --> 00:07:31.680 I am starting to stay inside a lot more. Again, thanks whoever COVID 97 00:07:31.800 --> 00:07:38.759 GERMS. Thanks COVID GERMS. Now Anyway. Yeah, I'm going to do 98 00:07:38.879 --> 00:07:42.199 a lot more of my sales from the telephone right now and just go out 99 00:07:43.120 --> 00:07:46.269 and make deliveries when I need to, and otherwise I kind of I can 100 00:07:46.310 --> 00:07:50.029 stay at home. Plus Air Condition. It's been hot as fuck outside, 101 00:07:50.149 --> 00:07:55.670 boy, like hot and humid, so it might as well stay inside. 102 00:07:56.910 --> 00:08:00.220 Yeah, try to stay safe. I go to the supermarket either really late 103 00:08:00.259 --> 00:08:03.019 at night or early in the morning when there's fewer crowds. Wear a mask. 104 00:08:03.500 --> 00:08:05.699 Who wouldn't wear a mask? That's the part I get. Well, 105 00:08:05.899 --> 00:08:09.899 who cares whether you got a vaccine or not? I'm like, okay, 106 00:08:09.980 --> 00:08:13.490 so still wear a mask. What's the big fucking deal? I mean, 107 00:08:13.569 --> 00:08:18.170 I think I've said this before, but why? Like, if you why? 108 00:08:18.290 --> 00:08:22.329 You don't have a problem wearing pants, so why do you have a 109 00:08:22.449 --> 00:08:28.839 problem wearing a mask? At least the mask is preventing germ transmission, if 110 00:08:30.560 --> 00:08:35.960 pants isn't preventing anything except a senior little Dick. So how about that? 111 00:08:35.440 --> 00:08:39.519 How about let's switch? You start wearing a mask and you can go pants 112 00:08:39.519 --> 00:08:43.710 less. That'll be the switch. You can still have your liberties, we 113 00:08:43.870 --> 00:08:48.590 just won't catch your germs and everyone will see what a little Dick you have. 114 00:08:48.669 --> 00:08:52.269 They got people going to concerts. Oh my gosh, I was just 115 00:08:52.470 --> 00:08:58.059 watching the Lallapalooza a couple minutes ago. There's just a whole bunch of people 116 00:08:58.059 --> 00:09:01.779 there. Nobody's got masks on. That's why I'm standing inside, because if 117 00:09:01.980 --> 00:09:05.460 everyone's passing it on to others, than I don't want to catch it. 118 00:09:05.500 --> 00:09:09.570 I don't want to catch it the second time. Know how first time, 119 00:09:09.610 --> 00:09:13.250 Checond time, third time, no time and the okay, so the Olympic 120 00:09:13.370 --> 00:09:18.889 thing is what was setting me off earlier in the week, not for the 121 00:09:18.009 --> 00:09:20.850 reasons you might think. I don't know. I don't even know what you 122 00:09:20.970 --> 00:09:24.919 think about my opinion about stuff like that. So Simone bials right when she 123 00:09:26.000 --> 00:09:31.080 pulled out because she couldn't nail or tricks. My instant thought was, I 124 00:09:31.200 --> 00:09:33.399 you can't quit, there's no quick team. Right, of course, because 125 00:09:33.399 --> 00:09:37.720 that's that's just how we were raised. That's how I was programmed as a 126 00:09:37.720 --> 00:09:43.549 kid. But at being a longtime mental health advocate, I'm like, Oh 127 00:09:43.549 --> 00:09:46.870 yeah, yeah, she's entitled to Dude, honestly, whatever you want. 128 00:09:46.909 --> 00:09:50.149 Let's it's not her job, it's since nobody's responsibility. You could just stop 129 00:09:50.190 --> 00:09:56.019 anytime. She doesn't know US anything. And then I didn't realize until the 130 00:09:56.019 --> 00:10:00.100 other day that she was involved in that whole Larry Nazar Rape Academy thing. 131 00:10:00.620 --> 00:10:05.340 So that's that trauma growing up as a black woman. Trauma, so much 132 00:10:05.340 --> 00:10:09.610 trauma they're already but what really gets me is that she was trying to do 133 00:10:09.809 --> 00:10:15.330 like a death define trick effectively. Have you ever tried to do a death 134 00:10:15.370 --> 00:10:18.049 define trick like ever? Have you ever hung from a rope, like from 135 00:10:18.049 --> 00:10:22.200 the outside of a skyscraper? Totally safe, you know, but scary? 136 00:10:22.960 --> 00:10:28.039 If you ever climbed over a candle lever bridge, climbed super high in a 137 00:10:28.080 --> 00:10:31.000 tree or up a tower? How about a high dive? Just climbs up 138 00:10:31.039 --> 00:10:33.360 to the top of the highest high dive e Your High School? If you 139 00:10:33.399 --> 00:10:39.909 ever done that? Okay, well, now imagine like twisting and turning and 140 00:10:39.029 --> 00:10:43.669 flipping your body and hoping you land the right way and not landing on your 141 00:10:43.789 --> 00:10:48.470 neck and dying. So that, and I do draw a distinction between that 142 00:10:48.669 --> 00:10:52.620 and the tennis player, because the tennis player seems to be able to do 143 00:10:52.779 --> 00:11:00.860 all the press conference is just fine. In playing tennis is not performing death 144 00:11:00.980 --> 00:11:05.009 define flips in the air. So I have a difference of opinion. Gymnastics 145 00:11:05.049 --> 00:11:09.409 is not tennis, but that I had this weird itching in my brain and 146 00:11:09.490 --> 00:11:13.129 I was trying to untangle it and figure out why I was bothering me. 147 00:11:13.889 --> 00:11:18.639 So I think this is why it bothers me. Whoever, it really does 148 00:11:18.759 --> 00:11:24.080 matter whoever is giving the message, you know what I mean? So apparently, 149 00:11:24.840 --> 00:11:30.759 grown white men, we are not the proper messengers for sympathy. Like, 150 00:11:30.879 --> 00:11:33.029 no matter what happens to us, we don't get sympathy. It's not 151 00:11:33.149 --> 00:11:35.230 for us, you know. It's just we're not the right people, no 152 00:11:35.269 --> 00:11:39.429 matter what. The like, oh, suck it up, suck it up. 153 00:11:39.470 --> 00:11:41.549 So it feels often like we're not allowed to have our own feelings. 154 00:11:41.789 --> 00:11:46.590 Was Pretty fucked up, obviously. And so in the case of Simone, 155 00:11:46.139 --> 00:11:48.379 and like, guess, of course she gets the bail out. You know 156 00:11:48.620 --> 00:11:52.460 who. Everyone would love to say, Hey, I just can't make it 157 00:11:52.539 --> 00:11:54.460 to work today. A lot of us don't have that privilege, and a 158 00:11:54.500 --> 00:11:58.620 lot of us have also been speaking up about mental health advocacy for years. 159 00:11:58.740 --> 00:12:01.169 So in my mind I was like getting kind of jealous. I'm like, 160 00:12:01.250 --> 00:12:07.730 wait, she calls in sick once, but because she's famous and on TV 161 00:12:07.889 --> 00:12:11.289 and in the media, everyone runs to her support. Was it because she 162 00:12:11.409 --> 00:12:16.720 was famous and in the media? Was it because she was an oppressed class 163 00:12:16.759 --> 00:12:20.799 US or previous victim of crime? I'm not sure. Right, how would 164 00:12:20.799 --> 00:12:24.720 I know why? The masses do with what they do regardless. It makes 165 00:12:24.840 --> 00:12:28.840 me, it's just as a regular person, feel like, well, how 166 00:12:28.960 --> 00:12:31.909 do we get any sympathy? How does a regular person get simpathy? Do 167 00:12:31.950 --> 00:12:37.389 we have to become famous and do world class death defying tricks in order for 168 00:12:37.429 --> 00:12:41.389 us to take a day off and people notice like Oh, this person needs 169 00:12:41.429 --> 00:12:45.419 help. So I slept on it, digested it a bit. It's fine, 170 00:12:45.860 --> 00:12:50.179 but also got me wondering, like where is the line between Justice and 171 00:12:50.259 --> 00:12:56.860 Jealousy? I simply want justice for people that don't have the notoriety. Do 172 00:12:56.940 --> 00:13:00.049 you feel a me? Do you feel at me, and do you follow 173 00:13:00.090 --> 00:13:05.370 me? Are you feeling me? So that's my whole life is. I've 174 00:13:05.409 --> 00:13:07.929 always felt like things that were not fair should be made fair if it all 175 00:13:07.970 --> 00:13:13.840 possible, and so when I see that normal people, working class people, 176 00:13:13.840 --> 00:13:20.200 can't get a word in edgewise when they have a mental health day. I 177 00:13:20.360 --> 00:13:24.320 want justice for everybody in that sense, not just the famous people say, 178 00:13:24.679 --> 00:13:28.309 Oh, I'm opening up about my mental health. Great, fucking great. 179 00:13:28.429 --> 00:13:33.470 Like it, like get in line with everybody else. So in that sense 180 00:13:33.509 --> 00:13:37.909 I start thinking it. What is where? What Point Does Justice and Jealousy 181 00:13:37.990 --> 00:13:41.980 Start Inter are mingling, and is everybody that demands justice or they just jealous 182 00:13:43.179 --> 00:13:46.580 of what the other people have? That's the real question right there to me. 183 00:13:46.179 --> 00:13:50.740 Are People who demand justice, like myself, really just jealous of what 184 00:13:50.899 --> 00:13:54.139 other people have? Let me know what you think. If you want to 185 00:13:54.419 --> 00:13:56.769 come on the show, let me know and I will send you a link 186 00:13:56.889 --> 00:14:01.610 and a time to show up with a microphone. You don't have to be 187 00:14:01.769 --> 00:14:03.970 on camera, obviously, this is an audio show. I'd love to hear 188 00:14:05.090 --> 00:14:09.250 your take on some of the topics we go through here and it look forward 189 00:14:09.289 --> 00:14:11.440 here in from you one way or another. Have Great Day, Talk to 190 00:14:11.519 --> 00:14:18.480 you tomorrow. I'm not looking for. I'm looking for. I'm not looking 191 00:14:18.559 --> 00:15:00.169 for. And now back to the wall.