Isn't Bipolar a chick thing? Stop denying suicides! Welcome to the Bipolar Party!?!

WEBVTT 1 00:00:03.240 --> 00:00:07.750 Welcome back to thy polar style, the podcast for by pole it people and 2 00:00:07.990 --> 00:00:14.750 those who love them. Join US online at by polar stylecom and now here's 3 00:00:14.750 --> 00:00:21.859 your host, Johnny most and I'll right. Welcome back to bipolars style. 4 00:00:21.940 --> 00:00:27.539 I am johnny motions and I am not having a good day to day. 5 00:00:28.660 --> 00:00:34.539 If you listen to the podcasts on the regular or maybe watch the youtube live 6 00:00:34.619 --> 00:00:38.369 stream, you may have heard me talk about trying to get a new job, 7 00:00:38.890 --> 00:00:44.210 because the current job I have had wasn't they just weren't really pulling their 8 00:00:44.250 --> 00:00:49.570 weight as an employer, like you know, night providing computers, or the 9 00:00:49.649 --> 00:00:54.479 particular job was in sales and they couldn't provide estimates for me to get to 10 00:00:54.640 --> 00:01:00.359 customers and on the rare occasion I could get it estimate to a customer and 11 00:01:00.039 --> 00:01:03.909 get the customer to buy something. The company had a hard time producing these 12 00:01:04.030 --> 00:01:10.430 custom things on time. So, as a salesperson, not only affected me 13 00:01:10.549 --> 00:01:15.069 financially but affected my personal brand in the market place, because it looks pretty 14 00:01:15.109 --> 00:01:22.219 bad if you're selling things that the company can't produce. So anyway, all 15 00:01:22.260 --> 00:01:25.980 that led up to me, you know, looking for somewhere else to work, 16 00:01:26.379 --> 00:01:30.659 and I found that all is cool. The think pretty sure. Hopefully 17 00:01:30.900 --> 00:01:36.450 the job I'm leaving will have the courtesy and ethics to pay me the commissions 18 00:01:36.489 --> 00:01:40.409 they owe me and I can start fresh. So that should be me. 19 00:01:40.489 --> 00:01:46.250 I'm moving to downtown San Francisco. Have another job lined up there. Start 20 00:01:46.370 --> 00:01:49.840 next week, so that part's cool. But that's not why I'm having a 21 00:01:49.920 --> 00:01:53.840 bad day. Maybe maybe that contributed to a little bits. I put in 22 00:01:53.959 --> 00:01:59.599 my notice. Only put in a week notice because I don't know, two 23 00:01:59.599 --> 00:02:04.349 weeks seems extensive, little excessive these days. So I put in my week 24 00:02:04.430 --> 00:02:07.310 notice. We're only halfway into the week and you so so well, tomorrow 25 00:02:07.349 --> 00:02:12.669 can be your last day, which kind of offended at but I don't really 26 00:02:12.710 --> 00:02:17.379 care. I'm over it. Just slightly offended by it and yeah, whatever. 27 00:02:19.419 --> 00:02:22.219 Moving on from that. But here anyway, here's why I'm having a 28 00:02:22.259 --> 00:02:25.460 bad day. I was downstairs at the place I live, playing the drums, 29 00:02:25.740 --> 00:02:29.419 you know, listening to the headphones and rocking out to some of my 30 00:02:29.580 --> 00:02:34.409 favorite music and you know, just a wave of depression comes over and hits 31 00:02:34.490 --> 00:02:37.650 me and then I started to think about it for a minute, like why 32 00:02:37.689 --> 00:02:40.569 am I why am I depressed? And I realized like I've had a bunch 33 00:02:40.610 --> 00:02:47.120 of good news lately, pretty solid successes for an average person, let alone 34 00:02:47.159 --> 00:02:52.439 a person with bipolar disorder. So let me back off a second there and 35 00:02:52.719 --> 00:02:58.789 remind every body that does not have bipolar how fucking hard it is to find 36 00:02:58.830 --> 00:03:04.789 a job that you can work, not because of your talents or skills or 37 00:03:04.830 --> 00:03:08.189 your intelligence, but because of your emotional ups and down. Sometimes you're depressed 38 00:03:08.229 --> 00:03:12.590 for weeks or months on end and can't show up at work. How was 39 00:03:12.629 --> 00:03:15.699 an employer supposed to keep a spot open for you? And then you've got 40 00:03:15.740 --> 00:03:20.740 to catch up on all the projects that you've been missing out on and it's 41 00:03:20.780 --> 00:03:23.620 a mess. Man. I found a new job, which is cool, 42 00:03:23.900 --> 00:03:27.810 and it wasn't sure what the deal was. A lot of times my self 43 00:03:27.810 --> 00:03:30.810 esteem takes a big hit when I'm depressed and I think I'm worthless, and 44 00:03:30.969 --> 00:03:35.289 so it's really neat when you can get an interview and apparently, thanks to 45 00:03:35.449 --> 00:03:40.250 my borderline personality disorder, I come across as fairly charming and interviews, so 46 00:03:40.409 --> 00:03:44.680 people love me and interviews. You know, it's like three or four months 47 00:03:44.680 --> 00:03:50.360 into the work relationship is when they start disliking me. That said, okay, 48 00:03:50.439 --> 00:03:52.159 it's hard to find jobs. Hey, I got a new job. 49 00:03:52.240 --> 00:03:57.310 Cool, but there's nobody here to celebrate with me. There's like fucking people 50 00:03:57.349 --> 00:04:00.629 online, especially if you hear this now, you'll say, oh, tweet 51 00:04:00.669 --> 00:04:03.389 out something, congratulations and some emojis, and that's that's fine, but I 52 00:04:03.550 --> 00:04:08.469 mean there's nobody here. There's like there's nobody in my life that congratulates me 53 00:04:09.030 --> 00:04:13.500 in person, like there's no support circle, there's no no people that are 54 00:04:13.539 --> 00:04:15.100 like yeah, we're rooting for you. Dude, that's fucking awesome. I'm 55 00:04:15.100 --> 00:04:18.860 glad you got a new job doing something more that you like, or you 56 00:04:18.939 --> 00:04:21.660 know, that type of thing, and don't have a pet and all the 57 00:04:21.740 --> 00:04:26.009 why, or a girlfriend. My kids aren't here to say fucking cool, 58 00:04:26.050 --> 00:04:29.730 Dad, that's awesome, we're proud of you. Go Dad. Nothing, 59 00:04:29.850 --> 00:04:32.850 I got nothing. And then people say, oh, but yeah, I'm 60 00:04:32.850 --> 00:04:35.730 right here. No, you're fucking not right there. You're on the internet 61 00:04:35.769 --> 00:04:40.839 or on the other end of a phone or some other place in time and 62 00:04:41.000 --> 00:04:44.680 space. You are not right here. Nobody is right here. If you 63 00:04:44.759 --> 00:04:47.240 were, I would probably wouldn't be doing a podcast, I would be hanging 64 00:04:47.279 --> 00:04:51.680 out with you and talking with you. So that's the thing when, and 65 00:04:51.759 --> 00:04:56.310 I'm not blaming you listening off, obviously, I'm just being emphatic because I'm 66 00:04:56.310 --> 00:05:00.509 upset. But once you've pushed away all the people in your life because of 67 00:05:00.670 --> 00:05:04.230 the disorder that you have, because you don't realize that you have it, 68 00:05:04.269 --> 00:05:08.579 disorder maybe, or you can't quite control it, or the MED's don't work 69 00:05:08.579 --> 00:05:11.980 or the therapy isn't working, for whatever reason, you burn out all your 70 00:05:12.019 --> 00:05:15.819 relationships and then when good shit actually happens, there's nobody there to celebrate it 71 00:05:15.899 --> 00:05:20.529 with, which makes life infinitely less enjoyable, makes it that much less fun 72 00:05:20.610 --> 00:05:26.050 to live overall, as if being depressed wasn't bad enough, the times when 73 00:05:26.050 --> 00:05:30.290 you're not depressed and good things happen, there's nobody to support you and celebrate 74 00:05:30.329 --> 00:05:36.399 with. This it's sad. And this all comes on the heels of the 75 00:05:36.519 --> 00:05:43.000 news. Yesterday we learned about the death of Dolora so reardon from the cranberries, 76 00:05:43.560 --> 00:05:46.959 who died by suicide. But nobody fucking says it. How are we 77 00:05:47.040 --> 00:05:51.589 were going to, you know, address the stigma of suicide if the people 78 00:05:51.750 --> 00:05:58.550 closest to those who die from it don't even say the word, just say 79 00:05:58.629 --> 00:06:01.589 the fucking word when someone dies of suicide. Say it. Suicide is like 80 00:06:01.629 --> 00:06:06.139 a disease. You catch it. It's catchy. If someone dies by suicide 81 00:06:06.180 --> 00:06:10.939 and if you don't address it, somebody else that witnessed that or hears about 82 00:06:10.980 --> 00:06:15.220 it could catch it. It's like a contagious virus. So you've got to 83 00:06:15.300 --> 00:06:18.129 address it by name and you got to go straight to the source find out 84 00:06:18.170 --> 00:06:25.569 why people catch suicide. Unfortunately, by polar folks, folks with bipolar disorder, 85 00:06:25.810 --> 00:06:30.930 however you want to describe yourself. We get killed by suicide at a 86 00:06:30.009 --> 00:06:34.920 much higher rate that the average person. Upwards of twenty percent of US die 87 00:06:35.000 --> 00:06:40.240 by suicide. So suicide is a disease unto itself. We're never going to 88 00:06:40.279 --> 00:06:44.839 be able to fight it unless the people who lose loved ones to suicide start 89 00:06:44.879 --> 00:06:48.350 calling that shit out immediately. Play Coy with the media. We know what 90 00:06:48.430 --> 00:06:53.509 that means. died suddenly, you know, respect the privacy, blah, 91 00:06:53.509 --> 00:06:57.069 blah, blah. Just fucking say it. Okay, if you guys won't 92 00:06:57.110 --> 00:07:00.459 say a person died by suicide, who will? What just we're just going 93 00:07:00.500 --> 00:07:04.740 to blow it off. She mysteriously turned to a fairy dust and went off 94 00:07:04.819 --> 00:07:08.620 into heaven. Okay, that makes you feel better, but it's not going 95 00:07:08.620 --> 00:07:12.980 to stop the problem with suicide. And while I was talking to somebody about 96 00:07:13.060 --> 00:07:17.769 this particular situation, the the they said, well, like bipolar is, 97 00:07:17.810 --> 00:07:21.529 that's like a chick disease. Anyways, I'm like, Holy Shit, here 98 00:07:21.610 --> 00:07:26.089 we go again. This is like somebody saying that to me is like having 99 00:07:26.209 --> 00:07:30.160 trump is president. It's like just pushing us so far backwards, a hundred 100 00:07:30.199 --> 00:07:38.439 years back in evolution of mankind. So check it out. Yeah, bipolar 101 00:07:38.519 --> 00:07:43.399 disorder is not a chick disease, because apparently whoever thinks that is only focusing 102 00:07:43.439 --> 00:07:47.589 on the chick emotions, let's call them. Not even want to go there. 103 00:07:47.949 --> 00:07:51.509 But there are other emotions we like. Right now I'm fucking agitated. 104 00:07:51.709 --> 00:07:57.629 I'm angry on the grand spectrum of emotions. I would rather be angry than 105 00:07:57.750 --> 00:08:01.379 in despair. At least I have some energy, I have some hope and 106 00:08:01.420 --> 00:08:03.620 I'm just I'm just fucking pissed about way the way things are right now, 107 00:08:05.060 --> 00:08:07.699 and I'm that way frequently. Some people call me a spas. Call me 108 00:08:07.779 --> 00:08:11.980 what you will be, but these are my emotions. I'm not always sad, 109 00:08:11.930 --> 00:08:16.329 not always depressed, I'm not always lonely, not always angry or agitated 110 00:08:16.410 --> 00:08:22.410 or aggressive. Sometimes I'm all of those at once and sometimes I'm none of 111 00:08:22.449 --> 00:08:26.050 them. But emotions are part of all of us, men, women, 112 00:08:28.160 --> 00:08:31.159 probably, animals, not robots. In the future, as we all turn 113 00:08:31.279 --> 00:08:39.000 the machines, emotions will be our most valuable currency. So in brace your 114 00:08:39.039 --> 00:08:43.509 emotions. If you're feeling something that's human, men do that. Embrace that 115 00:08:43.590 --> 00:08:48.470 feeling, embrace your emotions and, you know, enjoy life the best you 116 00:08:48.509 --> 00:08:54.309 can. Try to avoid the bad emotions encourage the good ones. You know, 117 00:08:54.870 --> 00:08:58.659 healthy balance. But yeah, stupid. No, bipolar disorder. It's 118 00:08:58.700 --> 00:09:01.620 not a chick disease. It's going to make for a great headline on this 119 00:09:01.740 --> 00:09:05.139 podcast. Is Bipolar Disorder at chick disease? I can see that now, 120 00:09:05.259 --> 00:09:11.730 is the headline, in fact. Yeah, I think I'll do that anyway. 121 00:09:11.809 --> 00:09:16.370 So, yeah, bipolar is for everybody. And if someone dies by 122 00:09:16.490 --> 00:09:22.169 suicide, acknowledged, it's suicide. If it seems like suicide, it is 123 00:09:22.250 --> 00:09:28.279 suicide. Anyway. Remember last week, maybe the week before last, when 124 00:09:28.320 --> 00:09:33.240 I was talking about the five people that you are around the most and about 125 00:09:33.240 --> 00:09:37.830 the Dharma punk's podcast where they talk about surrounding yourself with just five supportive people. 126 00:09:37.870 --> 00:09:43.269 Well, put some thought into this and I'm like, well, the 127 00:09:43.429 --> 00:09:46.710 Internet kind of is good for that stuff. Twitter is not perfect for I 128 00:09:46.789 --> 00:09:52.029 use twitter a lot to save news articles of my own that I like to 129 00:09:52.110 --> 00:09:56.340 read later. I use twitter to communicate. When I'm active on twitter, 130 00:09:56.539 --> 00:10:00.259 like I'm I don't sit in front the computer and play on twitter necessarily very 131 00:10:00.299 --> 00:10:05.899 often. So it's I'm not always chattable, but I do want a place 132 00:10:05.940 --> 00:10:13.250 where folks with bipolar disorder can congregate online mine and perhaps make tight enough bonds 133 00:10:13.690 --> 00:10:18.570 to where we could meet in person and then we could start building actually true 134 00:10:18.610 --> 00:10:22.440 life support network of those five people were talking about. Going through the list 135 00:10:22.480 --> 00:10:28.559 of type of platforms I've tried over the years and that's such a pain in 136 00:10:28.600 --> 00:10:33.279 the ass. So facebook is okay, facebook groups are okay, but the 137 00:10:33.519 --> 00:10:37.190 thing with facebook by polar groups and mental health awareness groups and all those type 138 00:10:37.190 --> 00:10:43.789 of groups, as they get so huge and become poorly managed. So there's 139 00:10:43.830 --> 00:10:48.710 lots of stocking, there's lots of inappropriate behavior, a lot of just gets 140 00:10:48.750 --> 00:10:54.980 kind of creepy not very supportive. So I wanted to make platform away from 141 00:10:54.379 --> 00:10:56.940 facebook in particular. I'm not a huge fan of facebook. Oh Hey, 142 00:10:56.980 --> 00:11:01.100 that was my new year's resolution. I quit facebook. So I deactivated and 143 00:11:01.379 --> 00:11:05.730 deleted my account what you have over there in some of the groups. I 144 00:11:05.850 --> 00:11:09.570 left the keys to the back door with the good friend of mine so I 145 00:11:09.610 --> 00:11:11.929 can get in if I need to. But yeah, I'm not on facebook 146 00:11:11.929 --> 00:11:16.809 anymore. Not Not a fan. That's what led me to search out other 147 00:11:16.889 --> 00:11:20.720 platforms to do this on. So I tried something called Yammer. Why? 148 00:11:20.840 --> 00:11:26.399 AMM are used to be a great platform, really simple, really cool to 149 00:11:26.480 --> 00:11:31.360 use, and people can share ideas and congregate and it kind of like an 150 00:11:31.440 --> 00:11:35.350 online water cooler, just that sort of thing like facebook used to be before 151 00:11:35.350 --> 00:11:39.029 they had all the ads. But then, of course, Microsoft came and 152 00:11:39.110 --> 00:11:43.669 bought Gammer and fucked up the login process so that when people try to sign 153 00:11:43.710 --> 00:11:48.019 up you and try to invite new members, it's confusing and invites go off 154 00:11:48.100 --> 00:11:54.059 into space and people can't get in. So it's virtually useless. So had 155 00:11:54.100 --> 00:11:58.580 to cross that one off. I tried something else called the mighty networks, 156 00:11:58.620 --> 00:12:01.610 which is like an APP web based thing, mostly APP based, and it 157 00:12:01.690 --> 00:12:05.889 seemed cool because it was kind of geography based, location based, the problem 158 00:12:05.929 --> 00:12:11.570 with that was the APP itself was Super Clunky and slow and the interface was 159 00:12:11.889 --> 00:12:16.519 just kind of crappy, not very intuitive at all. Crossed Mighty networks off 160 00:12:16.559 --> 00:12:20.720 the list. So the last one I found was also one of the first 161 00:12:20.759 --> 00:12:28.519 ones I'd found a few years back. It's called Ning and ing Ning Ning 162 00:12:28.639 --> 00:12:33.830 Network. Ning had been around and fell out of favor. I think they 163 00:12:33.870 --> 00:12:39.269 had some financial difficulties with their old node media or mode media, whatever they 164 00:12:39.269 --> 00:12:41.710 were called before. Anyway, long story short, they seem to have new 165 00:12:41.789 --> 00:12:46.460 money and a new focus. It is a pay platform. I have to 166 00:12:46.500 --> 00:12:48.820 pay for it, so maybe I'll put up a patreon page or something so 167 00:12:50.179 --> 00:12:52.220 if it becomes a thing, maybe other people can help me pay for it. 168 00:12:52.259 --> 00:12:56.299 Anyway, not a big deal, but it's a it's a paid platform. 169 00:12:56.340 --> 00:12:58.289 So there are no ads, which is one of my key criteria. 170 00:12:58.529 --> 00:13:01.809 I can't stand adds, especially in bipolar groups. What are they going to 171 00:13:01.809 --> 00:13:05.450 do? They can to advertise. The SAMUAL's yet to us. You know 172 00:13:05.490 --> 00:13:07.009 what they can to advertise. No, I want to talk about it because 173 00:13:07.009 --> 00:13:11.649 I don't want to adds in our little area. And the next thing was 174 00:13:11.769 --> 00:13:15.879 like, okay, what do we call it? And at first I like 175 00:13:16.799 --> 00:13:22.519 I like the jungle. I like adventure. Let's call it bipolar jungle, 176 00:13:22.200 --> 00:13:26.429 two words I think are cool you put them together, like Apple Pin and 177 00:13:26.909 --> 00:13:33.309 bipolar jungle. Yeah, and it was cool enough right. It's has a 178 00:13:33.389 --> 00:13:37.789 fun ring to it, but it also has kind of that dangerous connotation to 179 00:13:37.870 --> 00:13:41.820 somebody that might be anxious or, you know, a little depressed or just 180 00:13:41.259 --> 00:13:46.019 I don't want to go to the jungle. No, that sounds like too 181 00:13:46.059 --> 00:13:52.580 much, so I backed off the bipolar jungle idea. Bipolar junglecom still goes 182 00:13:52.659 --> 00:13:56.330 to this new place, but it's not called that. Now. What's it 183 00:13:56.409 --> 00:14:00.610 called? Okay, I'll be happy to tell you. We were chatting on 184 00:14:01.649 --> 00:14:03.610 twitter. You know, a couple of folks, I think it was Becky, 185 00:14:03.730 --> 00:14:07.970 over in Chicago and I were chatting. One of us was depressed, 186 00:14:07.009 --> 00:14:09.960 I think I was and or she was. What are does really matter, 187 00:14:11.240 --> 00:14:13.879 and we were kind of cheering each other up with like hey, let's listen 188 00:14:13.919 --> 00:14:18.159 to the same songs together or the same band together at the same time. 189 00:14:18.279 --> 00:14:20.799 You do it in Chicago and I'll do it here in San Francisco. So 190 00:14:22.039 --> 00:14:24.590 I think we had like some ramones or some kind of old school punk rock 191 00:14:24.669 --> 00:14:30.309 going very cool. She's a big Morrissey Fan, so maybe we had more 192 00:14:30.389 --> 00:14:33.070 CEGO. Maybe that's why we word depressed the moment. Anyway, we're like 193 00:14:33.230 --> 00:14:37.230 Hey, let's share these songs. We shared the songs and we hashtagged it 194 00:14:37.669 --> 00:14:41.139 bipolar party, and so going back to that memory, I'm like, Oh, 195 00:14:41.179 --> 00:14:46.299 that was fun. Yeah, let's call the new bipolar group bipolar network, 196 00:14:46.659 --> 00:14:52.580 Bipolar Party. So that's the name. If you go to bipolar partycom 197 00:14:52.580 --> 00:14:56.809 right now, log in, you could sign up. Is Free. Jump 198 00:14:56.889 --> 00:15:00.129 in there, set up your profile and Bam, you'll know you're in the 199 00:15:00.169 --> 00:15:05.289 right place because you'll see the little smiley face, Yin Yang logo, emo 200 00:15:05.370 --> 00:15:07.279 Joe. You'll see him on the corner there, or her whatever it is. 201 00:15:07.600 --> 00:15:11.320 Tried to make the place look kind of fancy, you know, HMM 202 00:15:11.399 --> 00:15:15.080 Homie, like comfortable to hang out in. And know that when you sign 203 00:15:15.120 --> 00:15:20.320 up you're only giving your email address to me, to John. That's it. 204 00:15:20.480 --> 00:15:22.070 I'm not a corporation. I'm not going to sell your email address. 205 00:15:22.389 --> 00:15:26.509 I think the platform let's meet email blast you once a month if I want 206 00:15:26.549 --> 00:15:30.750 to, but I haven't yet. To the people that sign up at John 207 00:15:30.830 --> 00:15:35.299 emotionscom, I have email list there as well, and those folks can attest 208 00:15:35.620 --> 00:15:39.700 that I never email them. It's just the way to get in that. 209 00:15:39.980 --> 00:15:43.179 We're not going to use facebook log in or any of that. I don't 210 00:15:43.220 --> 00:15:48.820 want any facebook tentacles touching the bipolar party. You're here and of course it's 211 00:15:48.820 --> 00:15:52.490 private. The outside world can't get in there. They can't search for content 212 00:15:54.129 --> 00:15:58.490 in our network. And you'll also notice that those of us who are diagnosed 213 00:15:58.529 --> 00:16:03.840 with bipolar have a little star by our profile pick, like we're verified. 214 00:16:04.000 --> 00:16:07.720 We're cooler than you guys that are not bipolar, at least at the bipolar 215 00:16:07.799 --> 00:16:11.360 party. That's how it works. So come on in, sign up. 216 00:16:11.600 --> 00:16:15.519 It's free. Hang out with us, give me show ideas. You can 217 00:16:15.559 --> 00:16:18.389 come on the show to we could talk about ideas that should be talked about 218 00:16:18.389 --> 00:16:22.429 maybe on a podcast like this. I'd be happy to hear your input, 219 00:16:22.029 --> 00:16:26.309 but if you already know you want to be on the podcast, go to 220 00:16:26.470 --> 00:16:32.980 Johnny emotionscom slash guests and sign up. It'll take you to my calende link. 221 00:16:33.220 --> 00:16:36.659 That's a mouthful. Basically, it's a show calendar with all the available 222 00:16:36.700 --> 00:16:40.659 showtimes and dates that I have open, and I love to talk to you 223 00:16:40.779 --> 00:16:44.539 there. But anyway, back to the bipolar party. Yeah, share what 224 00:16:44.659 --> 00:16:47.850 you want, just if you got pictures of yourself for your kids, or 225 00:16:47.970 --> 00:16:51.210 get videos or poetry or or working on a project you need help with. 226 00:16:51.769 --> 00:16:55.730 Do it all. There's also real time chat, an area to blog for 227 00:16:55.809 --> 00:16:59.009 yourself, if you want to do that or if you already blog. I 228 00:16:59.090 --> 00:17:02.360 would like it if you copied and pasted some of that stuff or linked it 229 00:17:02.559 --> 00:17:06.480 to bipolar party so we can all see what each other are up to and 230 00:17:06.759 --> 00:17:10.440 try to be more supportive in a kind of a real time way. So, 231 00:17:10.519 --> 00:17:12.680 anyway yet right. This is how the mind of a manic person works. 232 00:17:14.079 --> 00:17:18.150 I need five supportive friends, so I'm going to build an entire world 233 00:17:18.789 --> 00:17:22.109 just to find those five friends who. Okay, well, that works for 234 00:17:22.230 --> 00:17:26.990 me. So that's that's where my skills by is starting things and seeing what 235 00:17:27.069 --> 00:17:32.740 happens. Cool, right. So, bipolar PARTYCOM. Like I said, 236 00:17:32.740 --> 00:17:36.779 if you go to bipolar junglecom, I'll go to the same place now and 237 00:17:36.900 --> 00:17:41.180 again. Go to John Emotionscom if you want to sign up to my email 238 00:17:41.220 --> 00:17:47.130 list or become a guest. There is some other stuff there too. Hey, 239 00:17:47.130 --> 00:17:48.970 if you sign up to my email list and share a bunch of stuff. 240 00:17:49.329 --> 00:17:55.089 The winner each month gets an emo Joe tshirt, so that's worth it, 241 00:17:55.170 --> 00:17:59.000 right. Yeah, sure, okay, I think I'm done. Man. 242 00:17:59.160 --> 00:18:00.319 I just want to get that off my chest that a lot of times 243 00:18:00.759 --> 00:18:03.079 I don't. I'm not like one of those persons who likes to talk. 244 00:18:03.680 --> 00:18:07.359 I'm a person who likes to have said something. I like. The reason 245 00:18:07.480 --> 00:18:11.599 I do talk is so I can get things off my chest and get on 246 00:18:11.720 --> 00:18:15.109 with life. So I appreciate you being here and listening to me rant and 247 00:18:15.109 --> 00:18:19.509 rave about different things. I really feel like I'm getting more settled. Tomorrow 248 00:18:19.589 --> 00:18:23.309 is going to be the last day at my old job. Get a day 249 00:18:23.309 --> 00:18:30.339 or two off to clear my head and boy. Yeah, so anyway, 250 00:18:30.660 --> 00:18:33.940 get hold of me on twitter at John Emotions. Also for the podcast at 251 00:18:34.019 --> 00:18:38.579 bipolar style. You can listen to the podcast directly on the web at bipolar 252 00:18:38.619 --> 00:18:45.410 stylecom. We are on Itunes, apple podcasts. We're also on spotify. 253 00:18:45.569 --> 00:18:51.329 Now trip that. If you listen to spotify. Just searched bipolar Bam right 254 00:18:51.369 --> 00:18:56.440 there, bipolar style. Listen to us there and also visit the facebook channel. 255 00:18:56.960 --> 00:19:00.279 No, facebook channel. Fuck facebook, still stuck in my brain. 256 00:19:00.640 --> 00:19:03.720 visit the Youtube Channel. Go over to youtube and look for Johnny mootions. 257 00:19:03.759 --> 00:19:07.920 We'll see the johnny emotions presents. When I get to my new place I'm 258 00:19:07.920 --> 00:19:14.150 going to be doing a check this out, but to stream live jazz concerts. 259 00:19:15.710 --> 00:19:18.910 What? It's not that weird. You'll like it. It's in the 260 00:19:18.990 --> 00:19:22.950 heart of downtown San Francisco and super crazy tough neighborhood. You'll love it. 261 00:19:23.029 --> 00:19:26.500 I'll put the camera out the window. We can watch drug deals. I'll 262 00:19:26.500 --> 00:19:30.500 put the camera inside, we can watch the jazz bands play. It'll be 263 00:19:30.539 --> 00:19:34.980 a hoot, so stick around. Subscribe to this podcasts. If you want 264 00:19:36.019 --> 00:19:40.569 to see the videos, go over to youtube and track down johnnymotions show. 265 00:19:41.009 --> 00:19:44.809 Cool. All right, let's get back to life. I'm glad you made 266 00:19:44.849 --> 00:19:48.049 it really appreciate if you listen to this show. IMP there is anything I 267 00:19:48.049 --> 00:19:52.410 could do for you, let me know. Have a great day. Talk 268 00:19:52.490 --> 00:19:56.160 to you soon. By. If you liked what you heard, subscribe on 269 00:19:56.200 --> 00:20:02.359 Apple Podcast by Itunes and join us at by polar stylecom. Thanks for listening. 270 -->