Intros are too long / Should I stay or should I go / Did Gen X get lost

WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.720 --> 00:00:06.759 And just like that we're back. I listened to a lot of podcasts lately 2 00:00:07.309 --> 00:00:12.390 and some of my favorite podcast have started to drive me crazy because I listened 3 00:00:12.390 --> 00:00:14.990 to them. You know, I beene listen to them, I guess is 4 00:00:15.029 --> 00:00:20.550 the phrase, but they're Intros or like ten or twenty or even thirty seconds 5 00:00:20.710 --> 00:00:24.019 long, and I have to listen to the all that bullshit every time. 6 00:00:24.179 --> 00:00:29.579 And some of them artificially will cut like an hour long interview into thirty minutes, 7 00:00:30.460 --> 00:00:34.299 so I have to listen half now and then half a week or two 8 00:00:34.340 --> 00:00:37.289 from now. I don't understand. If you have the whole interview in the 9 00:00:37.450 --> 00:00:43.289 can just play it, otherwise you're just manipulating your audience. Cheez, come 10 00:00:43.409 --> 00:00:47.289 on. So that's a that's what we're going to go with, you know, 11 00:00:47.689 --> 00:00:50.439 because I'm going to do one of these, like I said, an 12 00:00:50.520 --> 00:00:55.079 episode a day throughout August and maybe beyond, who knows? I'm just kind 13 00:00:55.119 --> 00:01:00.640 of giving myself a challenge. Anyway, it's Monday, August second and this 14 00:01:00.840 --> 00:01:03.439 is a day two of my challenge. So, like I said, I'm 15 00:01:03.479 --> 00:01:07.549 just going to drop in the little super friends sound every time we change episodes, 16 00:01:07.629 --> 00:01:11.549 because otherwise it's just going to get tedious to because my episodes aren't that 17 00:01:11.670 --> 00:01:15.189 long at all. Could you imagine, like having a minute long intro for 18 00:01:15.310 --> 00:01:19.939 a ten minute podcast? That would be dumb. So did you dig that 19 00:01:19.060 --> 00:01:22.739 band just now? Oh, I don't know what order you're listening to. 20 00:01:22.819 --> 00:01:25.900 I think I've said this before, but since I'm going to be making a 21 00:01:26.219 --> 00:01:29.659 new episode every day for the month of August, you probably might want to 22 00:01:29.700 --> 00:01:36.049 listen to it newest first. If there's a sort mechanism on your ipod or 23 00:01:36.209 --> 00:01:40.609 your little playlist whatever, do newest first and you'll just hear today's right, 24 00:01:40.810 --> 00:01:47.359 it's today anyway. That song you just heard from yesterday's episode, called security, 25 00:01:47.760 --> 00:01:52.120 was by a band called Amil and the sniffers. They're out of Australia. 26 00:01:52.239 --> 00:01:55.000 They've been around for about, I don't know, several years, probably 27 00:01:55.040 --> 00:01:57.599 more than five years, but not much more, and I think they started 28 00:01:57.640 --> 00:02:00.510 when they were really young, so they're still young, like in the early 29 00:02:00.909 --> 00:02:05.030 S. I think they started as teenagers. Very cool. I love that 30 00:02:05.109 --> 00:02:07.430 sound. It kind of reminds me of the buzz cocks meets Blondie, I 31 00:02:07.509 --> 00:02:10.030 guess. And for those of you who don't know, back in the s 32 00:02:10.990 --> 00:02:14.830 they used to sell this stuff in what we call the head shops, where 33 00:02:14.830 --> 00:02:17.860 they sold bombs and pipes, but no cannabis. They also sell this jar 34 00:02:17.979 --> 00:02:23.780 of some stuff called rush, and rush basically you unscrew the jar and sniff 35 00:02:23.819 --> 00:02:25.819 it and it gives you a head rush. Kind of Corny, but you 36 00:02:25.939 --> 00:02:30.689 know, we take what we can get back in the days anyway. Amil, 37 00:02:30.009 --> 00:02:35.449 that's stuff in that jar called rush, is amial nitrate. So Amil 38 00:02:35.610 --> 00:02:38.610 and the sniffers get it. Amil on the sniffers. That songs called security. 39 00:02:39.490 --> 00:02:43.650 It's coming out in a couple of weeks, so keep your eyes out 40 00:02:43.729 --> 00:02:46.280 and ears open for that. I listen to a lot of music when I'm 41 00:02:46.319 --> 00:02:50.599 driving, so I try to save the good ones. There's a lot of 42 00:02:51.039 --> 00:02:53.280 music out there, and not all of its to my liking. When I 43 00:02:53.319 --> 00:02:58.120 find things that I think are pretty cool, I will for sure share them 44 00:02:58.159 --> 00:03:02.069 with you. Here's a dilemma I've been thinking about a lot lately. It's 45 00:03:02.110 --> 00:03:06.189 probably part of the thing that stressed me out and gave me the shingles. 46 00:03:06.669 --> 00:03:12.669 So I have my like linkedin profile up there and my resume is a normal 47 00:03:12.710 --> 00:03:20.099 resume place whatever indeed, and I get people asking me to see if I 48 00:03:20.180 --> 00:03:22.740 could, if they could have my resume, like, will you submit your 49 00:03:22.740 --> 00:03:27.060 resume to this job? Basically, so, basically one click away from applying 50 00:03:27.099 --> 00:03:30.569 at a new job. So none of these are jobs that are in my 51 00:03:30.729 --> 00:03:34.729 current industry, which I don't think I would go do because it's not loyal. 52 00:03:35.409 --> 00:03:38.490 But Man, I get so many job potential, job offers, let's 53 00:03:38.490 --> 00:03:43.759 call them, that I think I might be missing out on something and I'm 54 00:03:43.759 --> 00:03:46.439 wondering if I should just like click the yes button, go, yes, 55 00:03:46.560 --> 00:03:50.840 go ahead and submit my resume on file to that job that you've asked me 56 00:03:50.919 --> 00:03:53.360 for. What do you think seems reasonable? I mean a lot of people 57 00:03:53.360 --> 00:03:58.069 are changing jobs and everything and, like I've said, this job their forecast 58 00:03:58.270 --> 00:04:00.830 for what the sales and the pay would be our way off to what the 59 00:04:00.949 --> 00:04:05.030 reality is. But that doesn't mean I should suffer, right, and I 60 00:04:05.150 --> 00:04:10.060 am loyal. So I'm thinking loyalty should mean don't go work for a similar 61 00:04:10.139 --> 00:04:14.300 company in the similar trade, but if I go back to doing something else, 62 00:04:14.379 --> 00:04:18.339 like design work, that's not a conflict at all. And I don't 63 00:04:18.339 --> 00:04:21.100 know, got to take care of me too. Since then, you know, 64 00:04:21.420 --> 00:04:24.889 they don't look out for me. As far as the pay goes, 65 00:04:25.290 --> 00:04:27.730 so I have to look out for my own pay. So, anyway, 66 00:04:27.769 --> 00:04:30.449 what would you do? You know, I'm most most of people I know 67 00:04:30.529 --> 00:04:31.529 are like yeah, fuck, of course, go apply for the job, 68 00:04:31.569 --> 00:04:34.930 get a different job, you dumb ass. Anyway, I think a little 69 00:04:34.930 --> 00:04:39.639 bit differently. I'm always trying to like stick it out and hang in there 70 00:04:39.720 --> 00:04:44.240 a little longer. But anyway, something one I just a job came up 71 00:04:44.240 --> 00:04:46.000 today that look kind of up my alley. I'm like yeah, yeah, 72 00:04:46.040 --> 00:04:48.839 actually, that one looks kind of cool. How much effort should I put 73 00:04:48.920 --> 00:04:53.430 into this or how much thoughts should I even give it? We'll see. 74 00:04:55.550 --> 00:04:59.550 And you know, this whole thing is got me thinking also, like what 75 00:04:59.790 --> 00:05:03.509 doesn't get me thinking right? But I know a lot of people my age 76 00:05:04.470 --> 00:05:11.540 that don't work now and have barely worked most of their lives, like jen 77 00:05:11.579 --> 00:05:16.100 x people, and I know a handful that have jobs, but they don't 78 00:05:16.100 --> 00:05:19.339 seem to be jobs that they like very much. Me, it wasn't something 79 00:05:19.379 --> 00:05:24.730 they talked about doing back in the old days when we were friends as kids. 80 00:05:25.610 --> 00:05:29.529 Nobody's doing any of those things and most of the new people I know 81 00:05:29.610 --> 00:05:33.170 now don't work at all. Someone what the fuck? I like why am 82 00:05:33.209 --> 00:05:36.000 I still working? I've been working since I was like, I don't feel, 83 00:05:36.000 --> 00:05:41.279 like, like three years old or something. I used to climb trees 84 00:05:41.319 --> 00:05:46.079 and grab mistletoe and bundle it up with red ribbon and go down to the 85 00:05:46.240 --> 00:05:49.709 local kmart and sell it at Christmas time, and that's when it started and 86 00:05:49.750 --> 00:05:54.230 I literally did the lemonade stand in all this, always trying to get some 87 00:05:54.350 --> 00:05:59.069 independence. You don't get some income, but when you've got mental health issues 88 00:05:59.509 --> 00:06:02.509 sometimes it gets difficult to stay at a place that sucks, for example. 89 00:06:02.550 --> 00:06:08.899 You don't have the intention. There's just no reason to stick around if something 90 00:06:09.060 --> 00:06:12.899 is miserable because, well, it's just the way some some of our minds 91 00:06:12.980 --> 00:06:18.490 work, you know. But the people I'm thinking of are generally I would 92 00:06:18.569 --> 00:06:21.889 I don't know. They've never mentioned mental health problem. So either they're hiding 93 00:06:21.930 --> 00:06:26.689 them or don't want to talk about them, or whatever, however you want 94 00:06:26.689 --> 00:06:30.810 to frame that, or they just have never looked into it and maybe that's 95 00:06:30.930 --> 00:06:33.560 the source of their their misery. And I say misery because a lot of 96 00:06:33.680 --> 00:06:38.680 the people I know that don't work now, that are my age, seem 97 00:06:38.759 --> 00:06:42.560 miserable. They focus on the bad. They pretty much just look at the 98 00:06:42.639 --> 00:06:46.079 screen, obviously because we're in a pandemic and you can't really do a lot 99 00:06:46.240 --> 00:06:50.310 outside, but I really start to worry about them, especially I do have 100 00:06:50.430 --> 00:06:57.069 handfuls of friends that are successful and those are the ones. This is really 101 00:06:57.110 --> 00:07:02.860 interesting thing about reading this book called want wanting. I guess it's about mimetic 102 00:07:02.939 --> 00:07:08.420 desire and mimissas, copying others, and one of the interesting ideas is that 103 00:07:08.579 --> 00:07:13.620 when somebody has actually been in your presence, you've broken through. Now you're 104 00:07:13.620 --> 00:07:17.009 in the same world. So I think being in Los Angeles and San Francisco, 105 00:07:17.050 --> 00:07:21.930 but particularly Los Angeles, when you're around and your meeting and you're talking 106 00:07:21.970 --> 00:07:27.290 to and hanging out with famous people who are super successful, in your mind 107 00:07:28.449 --> 00:07:30.920 you know that that's a that's attainable, that's a real thing. You've seen 108 00:07:30.959 --> 00:07:36.040 it, you've been there, you've you know all the stuff. So in 109 00:07:36.160 --> 00:07:40.600 the in the concept of Mameisis now that I know these things are real, 110 00:07:41.279 --> 00:07:44.790 somehow I want to copy that. Like I think that's that's a realistic goal, 111 00:07:44.949 --> 00:07:47.629 is to do something and be great at it, and I wonder how 112 00:07:47.670 --> 00:07:55.990 many of my friends either think about that a lot or just kind of stuff 113 00:07:56.029 --> 00:07:59.019 it. Think about it but don't mention it. Or if there's other people 114 00:07:59.060 --> 00:08:01.420 that do talk about it and I just don't, you know, I don't 115 00:08:01.459 --> 00:08:03.699 hear from them in particular. And there's, I'm talking about you, a 116 00:08:03.740 --> 00:08:09.939 couple dozen different people I've known since, you know, great school. So 117 00:08:11.060 --> 00:08:13.529 if you're out there and you're one of those potential in that pool of people, 118 00:08:15.129 --> 00:08:18.649 I would like to hear from you. Tell me, like where, 119 00:08:18.290 --> 00:08:22.850 what happened? Like how did we get off track? I know I got 120 00:08:22.370 --> 00:08:26.610 mentally ill and then got off track, but was I off track and that's 121 00:08:26.649 --> 00:08:28.959 what led to the mental illness? You know, is it? Is it 122 00:08:30.040 --> 00:08:31.679 cause or effect? which way does it go? Is it just see, 123 00:08:31.759 --> 00:08:39.559 seems like there's so many generation next people and like I've lived a normal life 124 00:08:39.600 --> 00:08:43.870 in normal places, I guess you'd call them middle class suburbs type of places, 125 00:08:45.190 --> 00:08:48.309 as a kid and then as I grew up, I explored cities and 126 00:08:48.629 --> 00:08:56.019 the Wilderness and other places. But everywhere I go I see these people, 127 00:08:56.100 --> 00:09:01.179 I see people like me that just don't seem to have, I don't know, 128 00:09:01.059 --> 00:09:03.899 a solid grasp of what they want to do. They got like five 129 00:09:05.019 --> 00:09:09.409 different ideas of things they could do and like speak of myself as well, 130 00:09:11.370 --> 00:09:13.409 because I don't like I don't have the try, don't trust myself to put 131 00:09:13.450 --> 00:09:16.490 it all the you know, all the bet on one of those things, 132 00:09:16.529 --> 00:09:20.809 because I just don't have that kind of support system to take that kind of 133 00:09:20.850 --> 00:09:24.519 risk, I guess, and maybe they're the same way, but I guess 134 00:09:24.639 --> 00:09:26.159 what I'm getting at is it would be need if we all got together and 135 00:09:26.360 --> 00:09:31.159 provided each other that kind of support, became our own support system. And 136 00:09:31.360 --> 00:09:35.639 I don't even know where to start. I mean, fuck apparently I fuck 137 00:09:35.679 --> 00:09:37.950 up all the time, right, or people lead me to believe that, 138 00:09:39.190 --> 00:09:41.870 and no matter how much I apologize, I can't get back in the good 139 00:09:41.909 --> 00:09:46.029 graces of people I'd like to be with. So I end up missing half 140 00:09:46.149 --> 00:09:48.830 my life because I'm like, Oh, well, I missed that person or 141 00:09:48.909 --> 00:09:54.419 those people, and in there's other people I missed that well, they're like 142 00:09:54.580 --> 00:09:56.500 fire. You know, I appreciate it, but I'm not going to go 143 00:09:56.620 --> 00:10:01.299 touch it. I'm to get in it. Not gotta be affected or get 144 00:10:01.340 --> 00:10:05.139 burned. Could deal with that from a distance, you know. I could 145 00:10:05.139 --> 00:10:09.809 enjoy some things from a distance and other things I wish I had close by. 146 00:10:09.970 --> 00:10:15.169 But one thing that would be great would be a social support network of 147 00:10:15.450 --> 00:10:18.809 people that all knew each other from back in the day. And do you 148 00:10:20.049 --> 00:10:22.759 have that? Do you have that social network? Did you have it organically, 149 00:10:24.480 --> 00:10:28.120 did you have to make it as an adult? I'm curious. You 150 00:10:28.159 --> 00:10:30.919 know, I'm in my own head. I assume everyone has a similar life 151 00:10:30.960 --> 00:10:35.789 to me and then I see people living similar lives to me, which reinforces 152 00:10:35.830 --> 00:10:39.110 my thoughts. But there may be people like maybe you. Do you have 153 00:10:39.190 --> 00:10:43.190 a support network of people that are truly uplifting? Like, instead of getting 154 00:10:45.429 --> 00:10:50.820 support when I got shingles, I got basically I needed like three or four 155 00:10:50.820 --> 00:10:54.379 things and they all speak to eliminating the stress that caused the singles in the 156 00:10:54.419 --> 00:11:01.019 first place. Right instead, I got like a forgiveness. My Mom forgive 157 00:11:01.139 --> 00:11:07.690 me for not taking the shingles vaccination whenever, a year ago, she doesn't 158 00:11:07.730 --> 00:11:11.970 know of like been out of money, not having any medical insurance or a 159 00:11:13.009 --> 00:11:16.129 way to get to a doctor for a fucking shingles vaccination. But when I 160 00:11:16.210 --> 00:11:20.720 got the singles most recently, my mom sent me Neil says she forgives me, 161 00:11:22.240 --> 00:11:24.320 she forgives me, and that special. I wonder if she get forgave 162 00:11:24.399 --> 00:11:30.360 my sister for dying of cancer too? Who knows? Parents are fucked up, 163 00:11:30.679 --> 00:11:33.110 and apparent I'm a parent, so apparently I'm fucked up. I just 164 00:11:33.190 --> 00:11:35.629 don't know how. I don't know in which way. Like I know I 165 00:11:35.710 --> 00:11:39.269 don't know how to tune for it or make amends. There's no path to 166 00:11:39.389 --> 00:11:43.110 redemption for me. So I'm just kind of stuck here in space, talking 167 00:11:43.149 --> 00:11:46.220 on a mic in the middle of nowhere. Weird. So let me go 168 00:11:46.419 --> 00:11:52.700 contemplate this. Job Requests. Man, always something new to think about. 169 00:11:52.700 --> 00:11:58.500 Anyway, I'll go check it out. That's it for today. I'll start 170 00:11:58.580 --> 00:12:03.169 scraping together more ideas after I you know, I'm really still racked up with 171 00:12:03.250 --> 00:12:05.490 painted everything and I'm a sleeping maybe four hours and night, which just makes 172 00:12:05.570 --> 00:12:09.289 me miserable. So if you detect an angry tone in my voices, because 173 00:12:09.289 --> 00:12:13.690 I'm not fucking sleeping. That said, you know I got some I'm not 174 00:12:13.730 --> 00:12:16.399 sleeping. I got plenty of time to do a podcast each day and stay 175 00:12:16.440 --> 00:12:22.679 in practice, but I'll try to get some guests on the weekends come up 176 00:12:22.679 --> 00:12:26.399 with a list of topics that make more sense than me just rambling. That 177 00:12:26.519 --> 00:12:28.519 said, I hope you enjoyed the rest of your day or night, wherever 178 00:12:28.600 --> 00:12:31.870 it is. However, it is wherever you are and I will see you 179 00:12:33.389 --> 00:12:48.860 tomorrow, August third, and now back to the wall.