I'm still alive! Time to give thanks and move on ...

WEBVTT 1 00:00:02.480 --> 00:00:12.269 It's only and now it's online and Bible this stylecom motions with Bible style. 2 00:00:15.070 --> 00:00:18.949 Hey, what's up? It's Johnny Motions Ere. Great to be back with 3 00:00:19.190 --> 00:00:24.140 you. Thanks for letting me in your head, in your ears and your 4 00:00:24.140 --> 00:00:29.100 little ear pods, your are pods and your headphones and whatnot. Man, 5 00:00:29.219 --> 00:00:33.700 it's been a while. I've been busy. I've been making other podcasts and 6 00:00:34.179 --> 00:00:38.770 have been helping other people make their own podcasts, so I've been productive. 7 00:00:39.530 --> 00:00:44.210 I'm sorry if I've let you go for so long without new podcast, but 8 00:00:44.929 --> 00:00:48.450 you know, we all go through our things and you know, what, 9 00:00:48.530 --> 00:00:52.600 do you want for nothing? It's been well. Here I'll get you up 10 00:00:52.640 --> 00:00:59.600 to speed. And this is kind of like the Monday before Thanksgiving here in 11 00:00:59.640 --> 00:01:03.670 America. Thursday, the fourth Thursday of November, is the day we've give 12 00:01:04.109 --> 00:01:10.269 thanks, the day the pilgrims came to Plymouth Rock and had dinner with the 13 00:01:10.469 --> 00:01:14.310 Indians and they got all kinds of weird myths that go with the Thanksgiving holiday, 14 00:01:14.829 --> 00:01:19.819 but generally speaking it's a time to think of things we should be grateful 15 00:01:19.859 --> 00:01:26.180 for, and practicing gratitude is one way to kind of alleviate depression. Clinical 16 00:01:26.219 --> 00:01:30.579 depression is a serious matter. Take your medicine, don't drink alcohol, avoid 17 00:01:32.060 --> 00:01:37.689 depressing things. But yeah, at the end of the day, mindset. 18 00:01:38.650 --> 00:01:44.209 Mindset is really important. It's important to have a positive attitude. kind of 19 00:01:44.250 --> 00:01:49.560 goes back to the whole evolution of the bipolar style podcasts and or my other 20 00:01:49.640 --> 00:01:53.959 podcast. So here's what's going on with that. I got tired of talking 21 00:01:55.000 --> 00:02:00.200 about myself and my own bipolar disorder, so I just want to hear other 22 00:02:00.280 --> 00:02:07.150 people's stories. If you go to bipolar stylecom now there's a link somewhere there 23 00:02:07.269 --> 00:02:12.629 on the patreon page that says like schedule yourself to be a guest, something 24 00:02:12.710 --> 00:02:19.740 like that. So I'm only going to produce bipolar style podcasts when somebody else 25 00:02:19.860 --> 00:02:24.419 wants to share. So if you want to share schedule and appointment, we'll 26 00:02:24.500 --> 00:02:28.740 talk. I'm going to let you do most of the talking. I'll prompt 27 00:02:28.780 --> 00:02:34.330 you because I don't like boring podcasts. And there are some technical requirements, 28 00:02:34.370 --> 00:02:38.889 like you should have a USB microphone to plug into your computer, not your 29 00:02:38.969 --> 00:02:45.960 cell phone, not your tablet, not Wifi or sell signal, any of 30 00:02:45.960 --> 00:02:50.800 that bullshit. One thing I want to do with podcasts is make them sound 31 00:02:50.840 --> 00:02:54.240 much better. One of the reasons I don't listen to podcast is because most 32 00:02:54.240 --> 00:02:59.870 people that produce them don't seem to care about the quality of the audio. 33 00:03:00.750 --> 00:03:04.189 I do so for bipolar style. If you'd like to be on the show, 34 00:03:05.349 --> 00:03:07.030 you need a USP mic. It's not that much that ass. It's 35 00:03:07.030 --> 00:03:09.229 like one thousand and ninety nine to target. You can probably get one for 36 00:03:09.349 --> 00:03:21.180 five dollars on black Friday, the Friday after Thanksgiving. So Uh Huh. 37 00:03:22.620 --> 00:03:27.020 One of the, you know, sacrifices you make living in a city as 38 00:03:27.060 --> 00:03:30.050 you need to let the people claim the poop off the sidewalks. And San 39 00:03:30.169 --> 00:03:35.930 Francisco I don't know what happened with the city planners, but they severely forgot 40 00:03:35.969 --> 00:03:40.680 to plan enough shit holes for the number of humans. So there's human feces 41 00:03:42.039 --> 00:03:46.960 all over the sidewalks of certain parts of San Francisco. It's disgusting. You 42 00:03:46.120 --> 00:03:49.719 think it's dog poop. It's that's not dog. I mean some of it 43 00:03:49.879 --> 00:03:53.879 is dog poop, but no, there's human poop. Talk about weird things 44 00:03:53.919 --> 00:03:59.469 and animals just randomly. No more poop. This is one of those cities 45 00:03:59.949 --> 00:04:04.110 that when you are walking around and you accidentally say to yourself, Whoa that 46 00:04:04.310 --> 00:04:09.150 is the fucking weirdest thing I'm going to see all day. If you accidentally 47 00:04:09.189 --> 00:04:14.780 say that to yourself immediately, you will see something ten times weirder and you'll 48 00:04:14.780 --> 00:04:17.220 be shocked and you'll just like Oh who, and remind myself, and never 49 00:04:17.339 --> 00:04:21.259 to say that it's always weird things to see around here. Poop on the 50 00:04:21.300 --> 00:04:26.329 sidewalk is not weird. That's a common occurrence. I saw something strange yesterday 51 00:04:26.370 --> 00:04:30.050 and was really cute and the most weird thing I've seen a long time. 52 00:04:30.089 --> 00:04:36.850 I was over at the supermarket picking up some grocery and the lady behind me 53 00:04:36.930 --> 00:04:42.319 at the other register, I can see her pain for her grocery and there's 54 00:04:42.399 --> 00:04:46.959 a you know, she pulls open the litter of her little baby carriage asked 55 00:04:46.040 --> 00:04:48.279 the clerk, Oh, do you want to want to say how Tom My 56 00:04:48.319 --> 00:04:55.189 Kitty? Not that unusual to have a cat in a Stroller, not in 57 00:04:55.230 --> 00:04:57.910 San Francisco. I mean, how else do you get a cat around? 58 00:04:58.509 --> 00:05:00.829 The cool thing was, though, this was a regular stroller. It was 59 00:05:00.910 --> 00:05:03.870 not enclosed, it didn't have any net around it. It was like a 60 00:05:03.990 --> 00:05:08.459 regular seat, like a baby seat, that you would just sit in and 61 00:05:08.620 --> 00:05:13.259 this giant fat orange and white cat was just chilling right there. No Net, 62 00:05:13.540 --> 00:05:15.819 not zipped in, not caged, and he was just chilling. It's 63 00:05:15.860 --> 00:05:19.939 kind of sitting on his fat but leaning back a little bit. Pretty Weird 64 00:05:20.019 --> 00:05:25.329 right, thinking of myself, that's the one of the weirder things I'll see 65 00:05:25.370 --> 00:05:29.490 all day. And then the lady pulls out of her pocket. Oh, 66 00:05:29.810 --> 00:05:32.569 here's his friend, and the lady pulls out a fucking little mouse, a 67 00:05:32.970 --> 00:05:36.839 living, actual mouse, and sits it onto the little cat's belly. I 68 00:05:36.920 --> 00:05:40.800 mean it's a big cat, it's big fat at right, and puts his 69 00:05:40.839 --> 00:05:45.480 little mouse on this orange cat's belly and the orange cat just sits there kind 70 00:05:45.480 --> 00:05:49.829 of hmm and the mouse just chills kicking it on the giant fat belly of 71 00:05:49.910 --> 00:05:55.949 the Kitty cat. So in the supermarket behind me there's a lady with the 72 00:05:56.029 --> 00:06:00.509 fat Orange Cat in a stroller and the cat has his own pet mouse, 73 00:06:00.110 --> 00:06:06.779 which is a real mouse. It was pretty weird all right. So back 74 00:06:06.860 --> 00:06:12.180 to the bipolar style. Whole thing about not wanting to focus on bipolar too 75 00:06:12.259 --> 00:06:15.420 much, because you know who focuses only on your sickness, especially like I 76 00:06:15.500 --> 00:06:19.290 don't get any benefit from that except for getting it off my shoulders. I 77 00:06:19.370 --> 00:06:24.170 can do that at the DBSA meetings. Right, I could just go talk 78 00:06:24.290 --> 00:06:27.290 and can get it off my shoulders. But I do like to practice podcast 79 00:06:27.370 --> 00:06:30.529 production skills and they need to talk about something now and then. So bipolar 80 00:06:30.810 --> 00:06:32.959 was it. But, like I'm saying, you don't want to do a 81 00:06:33.040 --> 00:06:38.360 podcast just about your wart or just about your whatever. I mean, pick 82 00:06:38.399 --> 00:06:42.360 a random thing. If you got a thing that's quote unquote, a disorder, 83 00:06:42.399 --> 00:06:48.870 do you want to sit around and talk about just that? Seven feel 84 00:06:49.910 --> 00:07:08.540 ready to feel, ready to feel to see you anyway. You if you've 85 00:07:08.540 --> 00:07:12.180 listened to the show before, you've heard me rant about this. So what 86 00:07:12.300 --> 00:07:15.610 I do was I started like a fan club. I guess I come from 87 00:07:15.649 --> 00:07:19.889 the music industry, so we used to. I've been in bands and I've 88 00:07:20.009 --> 00:07:24.490 managed bands and things like that. One of the keys to a successful band 89 00:07:24.569 --> 00:07:28.449 is creating a fan club of some sort. You can have a facebook group 90 00:07:28.490 --> 00:07:30.959 at that's not quite what I'm talking about. It has to be more separate 91 00:07:30.000 --> 00:07:33.720 from facebook. You should have that completely on your own, with your own 92 00:07:33.759 --> 00:07:36.959 mailing lists and, you know, a place where people can gather where there 93 00:07:36.959 --> 00:07:43.079 aren't other people's ads or other people's fan clubs trying to get their attention. 94 00:07:46.750 --> 00:07:53.110 Sounds like a lawnmower engine. Huh. It's a little scooter built this place 95 00:07:53.149 --> 00:07:58.660 called Bipolar Partycom, as you probably here on the bumper joint, is exclusively 96 00:07:58.740 --> 00:08:05.939 a boy pulled that partycom and that is basically just a link to slack channel. 97 00:08:05.019 --> 00:08:09.620 Are you guys familiar with the APP slack? If you're on bipolar party, 98 00:08:09.939 --> 00:08:15.050 you are. So slacks a really popular, you know, chat APP, 99 00:08:15.250 --> 00:08:18.410 basically in America. It's probably growing other places. It's not the biggest 100 00:08:18.449 --> 00:08:22.410 in the world, but it's one of the bigger ones. So anyway, 101 00:08:22.449 --> 00:08:28.480 bipolar party had a little fan club area where people can talk about bipolar. 102 00:08:28.240 --> 00:08:31.519 So that worked out cool. And then I just said the wrong thing to 103 00:08:31.639 --> 00:08:35.639 piss somebody off and I don't want to like stir up trouble and fight back, 104 00:08:35.759 --> 00:08:37.240 so I'm like, Oh, I fuck it, you guys can, 105 00:08:37.480 --> 00:08:39.960 you guys can play there and I'll just go find something else to do. 106 00:08:41.549 --> 00:08:45.269 You know, it's like, how do I liken it if I had a 107 00:08:45.350 --> 00:08:50.549 party and my house and somebody else was coming over and acting like an asshole 108 00:08:50.149 --> 00:08:54.070 and I told him to leave, but they came back anyway and everybody else 109 00:08:54.070 --> 00:08:58.259 at the party was like no, let him stay, let him stay up. 110 00:08:58.419 --> 00:09:00.740 I'm just going to sell a house and move them just because go somewhere 111 00:09:00.740 --> 00:09:03.019 else. I like, no, because I'm me. I just I want 112 00:09:03.019 --> 00:09:07.220 to be like me and I want to live in a peaceful environment and not 113 00:09:07.340 --> 00:09:13.690 talking about off topic, crazy shit whatever. So I just left that be. 114 00:09:13.970 --> 00:09:18.409 So if you go to bipolar PARTYCOM now, it's an awesome place. 115 00:09:18.409 --> 00:09:22.929 I'm sure I'm just because I'm not there. That's probably why it's more awesome 116 00:09:22.009 --> 00:09:26.919 now than ever. So of course that left me with a lot of extra 117 00:09:26.080 --> 00:09:33.240 time. Well, unfortunately, during this time my dad started needing a place 118 00:09:33.360 --> 00:09:37.960 to be. So he's hampering my life. I can't produce the podcast. 119 00:09:37.669 --> 00:09:45.110 Feelings stifled completely. The dude doesn't contribute shit around and it's just sucking the 120 00:09:45.190 --> 00:09:48.870 life out of me, on top of me being depressed anyway, my friend 121 00:09:48.990 --> 00:09:50.870 Dine, my dad doesn't give a shit about any of that kind of stuff 122 00:09:50.870 --> 00:09:56.460 either's all about himself. So I've got all these pressures and then people on 123 00:09:56.539 --> 00:10:00.179 the bipolar party group or taking my words out of contact. It's obviously on 124 00:10:00.379 --> 00:10:03.659 purpose, just because they got a different acts to grind or whatever. So 125 00:10:03.779 --> 00:10:05.179 anyway, the whole thing just spun out of Control. I to back off, 126 00:10:05.899 --> 00:10:11.850 but I still like podcasting. One of the dudes in bipolar party Christian 127 00:10:11.929 --> 00:10:16.570 fellow Brian and, which is strange because if you've heard me talk, I 128 00:10:16.690 --> 00:10:20.409 rant and rail about Christianity and religion sometimes. I was raised as a Baptist 129 00:10:20.440 --> 00:10:24.639 in America, but this kind of grew out of it. Anyway. Met 130 00:10:24.639 --> 00:10:33.120 A guy named Brian over in North Carolina and Brian has a podcast about Christianity 131 00:10:33.320 --> 00:10:37.509 and mental health. That's pretty cool. So at least one good thing came 132 00:10:37.549 --> 00:10:41.830 out of that, right. So it also got me thinking that will Jeez, 133 00:10:41.990 --> 00:10:43.750 let's just do this with more people. So, frankly, if you're 134 00:10:43.870 --> 00:10:46.990 out there and you want to try to make a podcast, totally hit me 135 00:10:48.070 --> 00:10:50.620 up by will be happy to help you host it for free for you, 136 00:10:52.100 --> 00:10:54.779 show you how to put it on Itunes, help you, you know, 137 00:10:54.899 --> 00:10:58.659 put up your twitter account and your website and all of that. Totally happy 138 00:10:58.700 --> 00:11:03.100 to help. We need more podcasters willing to speak up about mental health. 139 00:11:03.139 --> 00:11:11.690 There's a bunch of youtubers. There's a good twitcher on her name's amnxiety and 140 00:11:11.889 --> 00:11:15.649 it's like anxiety but instead of the An. It's the letter M, like 141 00:11:16.529 --> 00:11:22.039 mouse. I guess I don't know. Anxiety. M Xie TUI anxiety on 142 00:11:22.159 --> 00:11:28.679 twitch. She's good and look tons of youtube accounts anyway. But point being, 143 00:11:28.879 --> 00:11:37.350 I just don't think there's enough great sounding podcasts for other mental illnesses and 144 00:11:37.950 --> 00:11:41.669 there's not as many voices as I would like to hear from other countries really 145 00:11:41.669 --> 00:11:48.700 different cultures, different heritage and different view points on mental health and mental illnesses. 146 00:11:50.059 --> 00:11:52.019 I'd like to hear that and if you have an idea for podcast, 147 00:11:52.419 --> 00:11:54.820 let me know. I help you work it up. You can be your 148 00:11:54.820 --> 00:11:58.980 own star. I don't have to talk on it. The whole thing can 149 00:11:58.019 --> 00:12:01.129 be yours and it can be free. I'll help you do it. So 150 00:12:01.250 --> 00:12:05.009 that's what you know. Long and short of it, through all that turmoil, 151 00:12:05.450 --> 00:12:09.210 that's what I came up with. So we'll do bipolar style. Go 152 00:12:09.289 --> 00:12:13.690 to bipolar stylecom and you can, you know, schedule a guest appearance and 153 00:12:13.809 --> 00:12:18.279 be on this show and anytime you see that there's a new episode of bipolar 154 00:12:18.320 --> 00:12:22.480 style, it's only because somebody new decided to come on the show. That 155 00:12:24.039 --> 00:12:28.120 was one of the harder things I found about running a podcast with guests is 156 00:12:28.200 --> 00:12:31.990 booking the damn guests, especially if the guests also have mental health issues. 157 00:12:31.470 --> 00:12:35.429 It just the shit show. It's hard to book anybody, and I'm really 158 00:12:35.470 --> 00:12:39.950 organized, so I have like a calendar, reminders, scheduling, all that, 159 00:12:41.470 --> 00:12:45.659 text Yit, and people still couldn't get it together. So anyway, 160 00:12:45.659 --> 00:12:48.700 I'm not going to not going to fight for guests and I'm certainly not going 161 00:12:48.700 --> 00:12:52.059 to sit here and keep blabbing on my own story again and again, again 162 00:12:52.100 --> 00:12:56.220 again. It's lame. So now, bipolar style, is your turn to 163 00:12:56.340 --> 00:12:58.809 talk, but if you want to hear me, keep talking. This is 164 00:12:58.850 --> 00:13:03.289 the other thing I found out. You can check out chaos updates. So 165 00:13:03.490 --> 00:13:09.490 chaos update. I've always had this fascination with chaos. I don't see chaos 166 00:13:09.529 --> 00:13:13.480 as a negative I don't see chaos in the sense of mayhem and turmoil. 167 00:13:15.159 --> 00:13:18.960 To me, chaos is a void of nothing from which everything begins. So 168 00:13:20.120 --> 00:13:22.639 in my mind I'm always, I've always been, like a positive thinker. 169 00:13:22.919 --> 00:13:28.230 So I see a lot of beauty and potential and possibilities in chaos. It's 170 00:13:28.110 --> 00:13:35.110 it's not stable though, that's for sure, but even though it's not stable, 171 00:13:35.750 --> 00:13:39.710 I still see beauty in it and I think it's worth celebrating in my 172 00:13:39.830 --> 00:13:45.700 own life and also worth documenting to the outside world. So my new podcast 173 00:13:45.899 --> 00:13:50.980 is called chaos update. Of course you can go to chaos UPDATECOM, follow 174 00:13:50.100 --> 00:13:56.610 the twitter at chaos update, that whole stick. But that's only like to 175 00:13:56.649 --> 00:13:58.690 the people that have been listening to me for a while. And you probably 176 00:13:58.809 --> 00:14:05.049 know that because that other show, the Johnny Motion Show, and I changed 177 00:14:05.129 --> 00:14:11.320 it to upbeat for a minute because at one point I was so low I 178 00:14:11.440 --> 00:14:13.600 was going through that will. Fuck it, I'm not going to die. 179 00:14:13.600 --> 00:14:16.879 I'm not going to die. Just fake it until you make it like everything 180 00:14:16.960 --> 00:14:22.240 was coming down on me. I'm sorry. Okay, just pretend you're upbeat. 181 00:14:24.080 --> 00:14:28.990 Go the whole colorful, upbeat, happy music, everything. Just force 182 00:14:28.110 --> 00:14:31.789 it. Just go be happy and I don't I don't know if it helped 183 00:14:31.830 --> 00:14:35.190 or not, but it helped because I'm alive. I'm not dead. I 184 00:14:35.309 --> 00:14:41.379 didn't die by suicide and lived to see another day. That said me. 185 00:14:41.539 --> 00:14:46.299 If you just if you're for some reason you're turning tuning into this podcast because 186 00:14:46.340 --> 00:14:50.980 you like to hear me ramble. You probably dig chaos update a lot, 187 00:14:50.019 --> 00:14:54.289 because I'm going to do it frequently. They're going to be short. They 188 00:14:54.330 --> 00:14:58.809 will revolve around mental health topics, or at least from top the at least 189 00:14:58.809 --> 00:15:03.450 be topics from a mental health perspective and always be trying to bring that kind 190 00:15:03.490 --> 00:15:07.519 of back into the to the message, regardless if we're talking about entertain man 191 00:15:07.559 --> 00:15:09.879 or politics or any of the rest of the things we have to live with 192 00:15:11.000 --> 00:15:13.399 in the real world anyway. And so I think it's important to get that 193 00:15:13.480 --> 00:15:16.720 out there, that people with mental illnesses have a perspective on those things and 194 00:15:16.919 --> 00:15:24.149 that our perspectives matter. But there's no both sides anymore. They're just trying 195 00:15:24.230 --> 00:15:26.789 to wreck our goddamn country. Still trying to get out of this city. 196 00:15:28.389 --> 00:15:31.710 Have I said that on this podcast before? Like it's crazy down here. 197 00:15:31.830 --> 00:15:37.340 My job is crazy. I'm overwhelmed. Them stacked ten deep with like literally 198 00:15:37.620 --> 00:15:43.179 mentally ill people and some physically disabled old there's elderly people, homeless people, 199 00:15:43.740 --> 00:15:48.179 old war Vetts, you name it. I'm the thick of it right now 200 00:15:48.860 --> 00:15:54.529 and I have this paranoia or this thing where I fear of becoming the average 201 00:15:54.529 --> 00:16:00.570 of the five people I'm around the most. That's not good, not in 202 00:16:00.690 --> 00:16:06.360 this building. I gotta get can keep on moving. I got to keep 203 00:16:06.480 --> 00:16:11.240 on moving. So there's some people on twitter. Recently I was listening to 204 00:16:11.279 --> 00:16:18.590 a podcast the I know it's Becca Labarto and Joe but I was forget. 205 00:16:19.230 --> 00:16:25.909 Fuck, sorry, you suck yet, Jackass. Anyway, I think it's 206 00:16:27.029 --> 00:16:30.429 God damn, I won't have to edit this out. I'm fucking it up 207 00:16:30.429 --> 00:16:33.620 so bad. Check out the big brain on bread. So on twitter, 208 00:16:33.700 --> 00:16:40.940 Becca Lombardo and Joe Lombardo our to twitter mental health advocates and they have a 209 00:16:41.100 --> 00:16:44.379 podcasts. I just can't think of the name of it. I know their 210 00:16:44.419 --> 00:16:48.370 Hashtag is keep talking mh, but the name of the podcast is like left 211 00:16:48.450 --> 00:16:52.289 of the dial or straight radio. fucking see, I'm super fucking it up. 212 00:16:52.809 --> 00:16:56.769 Anyway, I'll get it right and I will put it correctly in in 213 00:16:56.970 --> 00:17:00.409 the notes and when I tweet this out. So they have a podcast to 214 00:17:00.519 --> 00:17:06.160 talk about mental health issues and they had one of the spokespeople, Aubrey good 215 00:17:06.359 --> 00:17:11.359 from the International Bipole Bowler Foundation, on this past week and I thought that 216 00:17:11.519 --> 00:17:15.230 was pretty entertaining, for it's just fun to hear people with bipolar disorder kind 217 00:17:15.269 --> 00:17:19.869 of Hash things out. And what I always find entertaining is when I listened 218 00:17:19.990 --> 00:17:26.910 to fucking mental health podcast with the start talking about politics and earnest. Meanwhile 219 00:17:26.069 --> 00:17:29.349 they're all saying, well, no, we don't want to talk about politics, 220 00:17:29.390 --> 00:17:32.299 but meanwhile let's talk about politics. It's funny. I know the other 221 00:17:32.339 --> 00:17:36.500 guy who is a comic, but he's also a rocker and his podcast is 222 00:17:36.539 --> 00:17:38.700 all about rock and roll. Is All man, this podcast isn't just about 223 00:17:38.740 --> 00:17:41.940 rock and roll. Hey, coming up next week, Dave, girls gonna 224 00:17:41.980 --> 00:17:45.569 be on if you say it's not all about rock and roll, but it's 225 00:17:45.569 --> 00:17:48.210 all about rock and roll. So if you know, there's no shame in 226 00:17:48.329 --> 00:17:52.970 talking about politics, just make a show more about politics. That's all I'm 227 00:17:53.009 --> 00:17:56.650 doing with the chaos update, by the way, is like I'll talk about 228 00:17:56.650 --> 00:18:00.359 politics that. We have to work our way through this, right, the 229 00:18:00.400 --> 00:18:04.240 guy who's president now won't be president in a few years, no matter what 230 00:18:04.440 --> 00:18:10.039 happens. So we've got US stick together. I think the ultimate battle will 231 00:18:10.079 --> 00:18:15.390 be the last of the organic humans versus the robot Trans Humans. We'll see 232 00:18:15.470 --> 00:18:21.430 when that day comes. Maybe all of the races of organics will finally unite 233 00:18:21.670 --> 00:18:25.430 to beat the robots. Actually, give me one set and I want to 234 00:18:25.430 --> 00:18:27.779 be look up to. The fucking name of that podcasts. So well, 235 00:18:30.339 --> 00:18:34.859 okay, here's how that should have sounded originally. So Hey, this past 236 00:18:34.900 --> 00:18:41.059 weekend I was listening to a podcast called voices for change. To nailed it. 237 00:18:41.140 --> 00:18:45.970 They're available at voices for Change dotnet. The host, Rebecca Lombardo, 238 00:18:47.569 --> 00:18:52.410 her husband Joe Lombardo. Welcome the guest, Aubrey good from the International Bipolar 239 00:18:52.490 --> 00:18:59.920 Foundation. Yeah, something like that right anyway. So the PODCAST is called 240 00:19:00.400 --> 00:19:03.799 voices for change. To point out, that's a good one. Listen to 241 00:19:03.880 --> 00:19:08.759 that one. Also, listen to that be word. Just coorse Becky, 242 00:19:08.880 --> 00:19:15.470 which she's produced a couple of podcasts with me together on both bipolar disorder and 243 00:19:15.869 --> 00:19:22.150 borderline personality disorder. We both have both of those. So that be word. 244 00:19:22.630 --> 00:19:26.019 She's way more mellow than me. She's like a normal person talking, 245 00:19:26.619 --> 00:19:30.579 very hypnotic, I think, is a good word. When I listened to 246 00:19:30.619 --> 00:19:36.299 Becky show that B word. So I'm thankful for meeting her and for what 247 00:19:36.460 --> 00:19:41.130 she's doing putting together the podcasts pretty frequently. I think she's slowed down a 248 00:19:41.130 --> 00:19:42.849 little bit too, but you know, we all do what we can do. 249 00:19:44.089 --> 00:19:48.130 That's nice that there are several us to fill in the voids when others 250 00:19:48.170 --> 00:19:52.369 are not producing shows. You know, that's one of the things I'm going 251 00:19:52.529 --> 00:19:57.519 to appreciate more about doing chaos update three, four five times a week is 252 00:19:59.160 --> 00:20:02.400 that I can just ramble and keep you updated on things I find on the 253 00:20:02.480 --> 00:20:07.829 fly. I also do you use flipboard? Do you use flipboard? flipboard 254 00:20:07.829 --> 00:20:11.869 is a cool APP. I use it on like a tablet and a phone 255 00:20:11.349 --> 00:20:17.029 where you can just save curated news articles from types of feeds that you're into. 256 00:20:17.789 --> 00:20:21.349 I've got a magazine over there, bipolar style. Can See a lot 257 00:20:21.349 --> 00:20:26.380 of the articles I read and get my ideas from for this podcast. So 258 00:20:26.619 --> 00:20:30.019 I'm you know, I'm no genius. I just read a lot. Super 259 00:20:30.140 --> 00:20:33.140 Curious. I want to know about your stories and your perspectives on the same 260 00:20:33.140 --> 00:20:37.450 stories I'm reading. Are we getting the same information? Are we hearing things 261 00:20:37.490 --> 00:20:41.730 the same way we processing? Are we heading for a solution for people with 262 00:20:41.849 --> 00:20:45.009 bipolar disorder? That's what I want to know. Can we separate mania from 263 00:20:45.170 --> 00:20:49.160 depression? Finally, when can we do that? As a person with bipolar 264 00:20:49.200 --> 00:20:53.720 disorder, I've never gotten the benefit of antidepressants. They simply will not give 265 00:20:53.720 --> 00:20:57.559 them to me because I'm a lean manic. I lean lean hypomanic or manic. 266 00:20:59.039 --> 00:21:00.759 I'm a fast person. I think I'm. That's my disease. I'm 267 00:21:00.799 --> 00:21:06.630 fast people. I got your spas spaz is in a diagnosis and honestly, 268 00:21:07.150 --> 00:21:12.150 mania tends to I mean, it feels fast, Hypomania, but I'm not 269 00:21:12.269 --> 00:21:15.750 ADHD. I'm not. I mean I'm I'm paying too much attention, not 270 00:21:15.829 --> 00:21:21.500 not enough attention. So if there were a disease called fast and I think 271 00:21:21.500 --> 00:21:25.140 I just have fast. I think fast and I speak fast and it's not 272 00:21:25.299 --> 00:21:27.460 that bad. I just it feels like you guys are slow, not you 273 00:21:27.579 --> 00:21:30.619 guys, but that you know, the regular people feel like they're slow and 274 00:21:30.980 --> 00:21:37.130 kind of boring and predictable. It's weird. Whatever. You know what I 275 00:21:37.210 --> 00:21:41.210 mean if you have bipolar dis or you totally know what I mean. All 276 00:21:41.210 --> 00:21:45.769 right. So, yeah, have you caught up to speed yet? So 277 00:21:45.970 --> 00:21:49.680 we're gonna tie a bow around the way I used to do bipolar style. 278 00:21:49.720 --> 00:21:56.279 I flipped the switch on the the order in which the podcasts play. So 279 00:21:56.400 --> 00:21:59.920 a lot of New People, hopefully have been listening from the beginning or caught 280 00:21:59.960 --> 00:22:03.710 up to the story. And now, when they get to the final episode 281 00:22:03.750 --> 00:22:08.509 of the bipolar style most recent ones they'll get this episode. You're you'll get 282 00:22:08.549 --> 00:22:11.509 this one. You're listening to the episode you got. Hey, how about 283 00:22:11.509 --> 00:22:17.380 that? Anyway, now you're caught up to speed. Moving forward, basically, 284 00:22:17.460 --> 00:22:22.619 starting two thousand and nineteen January, all of the new bipolar style episodes 285 00:22:22.099 --> 00:22:27.660 will just be me hosting somebody from around the world sharing their story. I've 286 00:22:27.700 --> 00:22:33.809 got a great platform to record your voice. Level it out, make us 287 00:22:33.849 --> 00:22:37.210 sound awesome on both sides. Record some place a little quieter so you don't 288 00:22:37.250 --> 00:22:41.289 hear the city behind me, and we'll make a really cool sound in podcasts 289 00:22:41.890 --> 00:22:47.039 and kind of try to do our part to reduce stigma by showing the rest 290 00:22:47.079 --> 00:22:51.440 of the world how, quote unquote, normal by polar people are. Right, 291 00:22:56.480 --> 00:23:00.150 I don't know that that sound effect, that revving motor, meant something. 292 00:23:00.349 --> 00:23:04.349 Right. I believe in synchronicity, so I don't know what that exactly 293 00:23:04.430 --> 00:23:11.980 meant right there. That said, do that. have an awesome Thanksgiving and 294 00:23:12.099 --> 00:23:19.180 if you want to hear me talk more, go over to itunes and just 295 00:23:19.420 --> 00:23:25.539 look for chaos update. That'll be me. I'm not going to use my 296 00:23:25.619 --> 00:23:29.450 name that much. I'm not going to say hey, it's johnny emotions or 297 00:23:29.490 --> 00:23:32.089 any of that I'm just I'm trying to kill my ego. Literally, I'm 298 00:23:32.130 --> 00:23:36.410 like, it's not about me, it's not about me, it's about well, 299 00:23:36.569 --> 00:23:38.930 get me getting my story, not my even my story, me getting 300 00:23:38.970 --> 00:23:41.440 my emotions out, my feelings out, my thoughts out of my head. 301 00:23:42.240 --> 00:23:45.720 That that's what it's about. To me. It's just me getting the shit 302 00:23:45.759 --> 00:23:48.680 out of my head. Instead of being the crazy guy talking at the bus 303 00:23:48.720 --> 00:23:52.880 stop or the Manic Street preacher on the corner, I'm just talking into a 304 00:23:52.000 --> 00:23:56.069 mic. But you don't know who I am and that's the way like it. 305 00:23:56.190 --> 00:23:57.190 I like it that way. You don't need to know who I am. 306 00:23:59.390 --> 00:24:03.109 So I'm not going to like promote johnny emotions or anything like that. 307 00:24:03.230 --> 00:24:10.019 In fact, I change that twitter account and the websites nearly defunct. I 308 00:24:10.059 --> 00:24:14.299 might just point that till main named back over to bipolar style kind of a 309 00:24:14.339 --> 00:24:19.500 race. Those tracks make that disappear. So I'm being I'm glad you're here 310 00:24:19.900 --> 00:24:23.529 and our witness to all of this, so at least we know what happened. 311 00:24:25.170 --> 00:24:29.130 So moving forward. People don't think I'm super nuts. Some of you 312 00:24:29.210 --> 00:24:32.009 will to actually just know. It's just evolution of a project. Right, 313 00:24:32.849 --> 00:24:37.529 yeah, what do you say? All Right, I'll let you go and 314 00:24:37.490 --> 00:24:41.759 go over and check out chaos update. I'll start recording those, probably Wednesday, 315 00:24:42.319 --> 00:24:48.200 thanksgiving morning, maybe even Friday, Saturday, whatever. I'll start recording 316 00:24:48.240 --> 00:24:53.589 those and also go to bipolar stylecom hit the book a guest spot button and 317 00:24:55.230 --> 00:24:57.990 come on, be on the show beyond an episode all to yourself. You 318 00:24:59.190 --> 00:25:03.269 can share as yourself, you can share as your twitter handle, or you 319 00:25:03.349 --> 00:25:06.789 can share as a meme. It doesn't matter. You can share anonymously or 320 00:25:06.869 --> 00:25:11.180 not. It doesn't really matter. People just want to hear like from others 321 00:25:11.220 --> 00:25:15.980 who've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder to know that they are not alone. All 322 00:25:15.019 --> 00:25:19.900 right, so you're not alone. You got me, which you know it's 323 00:25:19.940 --> 00:25:25.250 not saying a lot, but I'm happy I have you and you take care. 324 00:25:25.690 --> 00:25:36.279 Talk to you soon. Style on cheese and five following on. Excuse, 325 00:25:36.519 --> mecom