Guess who's back? John Emotions' bonus update episode; a little housekeeping before we continue.

WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.480 --> 00:00:23.019 Yes, BAA, BAA, it's only the head and now it's online Bible, 2 00:00:23.179 --> 00:00:31.820 this stylecom yes, emotions with Bible, that style. Oh yeah, 3 00:00:32.100 --> 00:00:35.140 that's right. What's up? How you been? Come on, step on 4 00:00:35.259 --> 00:00:40.090 into my confessional with me. Just you and I take care of a little 5 00:00:40.090 --> 00:00:47.210 housekeeping here. So I've been away from the podcast for a while. Nobody 6 00:00:47.210 --> 00:00:51.079 else's replaced me. I just haven't made any podcast because I've been moving around. 7 00:00:51.079 --> 00:00:54.600 So I wanted to give you an update on that. And sometimes I 8 00:00:54.640 --> 00:00:59.320 got to get it out of my system before I make what I call a 9 00:00:59.399 --> 00:01:03.349 clean podcast. I have this issue where I like create a podcast idea in 10 00:01:03.469 --> 00:01:07.870 my head and I'll write out the notes and kind of do a little formatting 11 00:01:08.109 --> 00:01:12.549 and then, when it comes time to get to that information, I turn 12 00:01:12.670 --> 00:01:17.870 on the mics and then I start rambling a better bunch of other stuff that's 13 00:01:18.109 --> 00:01:22.180 not pertinent to the show topic or the title of the podcast or any of 14 00:01:22.260 --> 00:01:26.700 that stuff. So this is that podcast and just get some junk out and 15 00:01:26.060 --> 00:01:33.010 the podcast right after this I'm going to call something like the newcomers guide to 16 00:01:33.329 --> 00:01:37.450 bipolar disorder, something like that, like the ten things to look for when 17 00:01:37.450 --> 00:01:40.609 you first get diagnosed I'll work on that. That'll be I think I might 18 00:01:40.969 --> 00:01:47.129 record that after this so you may be able to just fast forward this housekeeping, 19 00:01:47.319 --> 00:01:51.400 so to speak, episode and jump right into that if you're into that. 20 00:01:52.359 --> 00:01:56.000 Otherwise, here's what I've been up to. I think it's been sense 21 00:01:56.079 --> 00:02:01.189 okay. So back in December I started recording some podcast with a cohost and 22 00:02:01.349 --> 00:02:05.150 I still have those. I'm debating on whether or not to release them, 23 00:02:05.629 --> 00:02:08.389 but in hindsight it just didn't like the way they turned out. So they're 24 00:02:08.389 --> 00:02:12.189 kind of in the CAN ready to go. I'm just just don't want to 25 00:02:12.229 --> 00:02:16.099 put them out because things change. My mind changes, perspective on things changes 26 00:02:17.460 --> 00:02:22.379 and you know, think that's how things go. So I did want to 27 00:02:22.419 --> 00:02:29.460 put some space between that activity and now and my next podcast, which look 28 00:02:29.539 --> 00:02:34.530 right now, right. So what I did was purposefully step back, and 29 00:02:34.729 --> 00:02:38.169 I'm not just all during this time. I'm not just not doing things. 30 00:02:38.210 --> 00:02:43.210 I'm exploring life and trying to get other people's perspectives on things and just seeing 31 00:02:43.289 --> 00:02:46.719 how the world works. I'm very curious. I'm always like trying to find 32 00:02:46.759 --> 00:02:52.840 out how and why and what happened and, you know, just general knowledge 33 00:02:52.879 --> 00:02:58.159 about everything. So I'm in the south. Now I'm in the deep, 34 00:02:58.360 --> 00:03:02.629 deep South. You can't really get more south in a in the United States 35 00:03:04.069 --> 00:03:08.750 that I am right now. I'm in a place called Jennings Louisiana, which 36 00:03:08.830 --> 00:03:15.939 is south of the eye tend somewhere between Houston and New Orleans. And Yeah, 37 00:03:15.979 --> 00:03:20.620 it's a trip. I came here because I wanted some well, I 38 00:03:20.740 --> 00:03:23.340 like the Green. I like that it rains all the time, so everything 39 00:03:23.460 --> 00:03:27.969 is always green. Back in the bay area it's kind of like a desert, 40 00:03:28.009 --> 00:03:30.449 a high desert in some ways, especially as the climate changes. So 41 00:03:30.689 --> 00:03:36.409 every summer the hills instantly turned yellow. So you look around, you just 42 00:03:36.530 --> 00:03:40.919 surrounded by dried out, hey looking hills. In Louisiana, that never happens. 43 00:03:40.960 --> 00:03:45.439 It rains constantly. The first weekend I was here we got hit with 44 00:03:45.479 --> 00:03:49.719 a hurricane. I guess I moved in and we brought up Hurricane Berry, 45 00:03:49.960 --> 00:03:53.400 which wasn't really a hurricane at all to me, even though we're really close 46 00:03:53.479 --> 00:03:57.789 to the edge of America, down with a swamp start right before the Gulf 47 00:03:57.830 --> 00:04:01.669 of Mexico, and that fucking hurricane didn't do anything. There was way worse 48 00:04:02.310 --> 00:04:06.430 storms after that, big ass lightning storms, tons of rain. You know, 49 00:04:06.469 --> 00:04:11.340 a few inches of our kind of rain is pretty wild. Fortunately this 50 00:04:11.539 --> 00:04:15.419 area is built for that, so when it rains a couple of inches in 51 00:04:15.580 --> 00:04:18.740 an hour, it all absorbs into the ground and drains away fairly effectively. 52 00:04:18.939 --> 00:04:23.699 So you get a nice variety. You just get a nice variety of weather 53 00:04:23.819 --> 00:04:28.290 and and just sunshine and green and blue sky and big puffy white clouds. 54 00:04:28.569 --> 00:04:31.170 That's cool. That's what I came for, to get away from the concrete 55 00:04:31.170 --> 00:04:36.610 jungle of downtown San Francisco, and that part worked out pretty well. Happy 56 00:04:36.610 --> 00:04:41.120 with that decision. Some of the other things that I had hoped would take 57 00:04:41.160 --> 00:04:44.879 place have not yet taken place. It's caused a lot of stress in my 58 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:48.120 personal life. I'm currently in a place where I thought I would be like 59 00:04:48.240 --> 00:04:51.870 this is a great place to record a podcast, but where I'm staying now, 60 00:04:53.589 --> 00:04:56.269 even though it's a small town, we happen to stay right on the 61 00:04:56.350 --> 00:05:00.149 interstate, like the House is address is the highway, so that's the main 62 00:05:00.189 --> 00:05:04.430 thoroughfare through town. So there's always trucks and sirens and everything coming by. 63 00:05:04.509 --> 00:05:09.740 So every time I want to get up, the intention and you know, 64 00:05:09.779 --> 00:05:13.339 the intestinal fortitude to turn on the MIC and do a podcast. Here's a 65 00:05:13.379 --> 00:05:18.180 big truck barreling down the road sirens or like a block away from the from 66 00:05:18.220 --> 00:05:24.209 a very active railroad crossing. Right there on the interstate there's railroad tracks and 67 00:05:24.370 --> 00:05:27.649 they cross right there. We're close enough to where the house actually shakes, 68 00:05:28.250 --> 00:05:31.329 and I swear to God the train drivers are really into the horn. They 69 00:05:31.410 --> 00:05:36.360 start pulling that fucking horn about a half mile before the crossing gates and they 70 00:05:36.439 --> 00:05:41.079 just keep going all the way through town. So there's no peace, and 71 00:05:41.160 --> 00:05:46.879 this happens easily ten times a day. I'm not really fastidious enough to figure 72 00:05:46.879 --> 00:05:49.069 out when they come or to make a chart or anything, some kind of 73 00:05:49.149 --> 00:05:51.990 exhale spreadsheet of when the trains come by. I don't care that much. 74 00:05:53.029 --> 00:05:55.629 I'm just thinking love, fuck it. Find a better place to record. 75 00:05:56.629 --> 00:06:00.269 So I'm over at a different house in the same town which is a lot 76 00:06:00.310 --> 00:06:06.699 quieter. You hear that? Good, you shouldn't hear anything, but if 77 00:06:06.740 --> 00:06:11.060 you do, I'm still near a road and cars and every once in a 78 00:06:11.100 --> 00:06:15.899 while motorcycle or something will come by and you'll hear it. That's temporary, 79 00:06:16.019 --> 00:06:20.329 but again this is part of the housekeeping of this episode. So if you 80 00:06:20.449 --> 00:06:24.050 hear it in future episodes. Just know that. Oh yeah, still in 81 00:06:24.170 --> 00:06:27.730 that one town. That's hell of noisy, hell of a noisy. That 82 00:06:27.889 --> 00:06:30.329 said. Okay, so here's what else I did in the past few months. 83 00:06:30.370 --> 00:06:36.720 I've been seeing lots of doctors, psychiatrists, therapists, whatnot, and 84 00:06:39.079 --> 00:06:45.399 change my meds twice. So I was, and these are all new meds 85 00:06:45.439 --> 00:06:47.230 to me. Not Going to go down a list of the MEDS. I 86 00:06:47.310 --> 00:06:54.389 take pretty much every antipsychotic that they prescribe for bipolar disorder. Of taking that, 87 00:06:54.470 --> 00:06:58.149 I think there's about ten, maybe, maybe twelve. There's a lot 88 00:06:58.910 --> 00:07:01.579 and I've tried them all, from Sarah Quel to l Mike. Told those 89 00:07:01.620 --> 00:07:05.939 common ones in the more things like DEP COO and a lons of pine and 90 00:07:06.379 --> 00:07:10.980 just names I can't remember a purposefully don't remember. I just take pictures of 91 00:07:11.019 --> 00:07:15.009 the bottle and file them away anyway. I don't take any anti psychotics now. 92 00:07:15.250 --> 00:07:23.610 They switched me to but a bum antidepressant and anti anxiety. Not Too 93 00:07:23.689 --> 00:07:30.600 much effect. So well, what do you do? Stop Smoking Weed Right 94 00:07:30.639 --> 00:07:36.480 now, not on the Zoloft or the out of facts adder acts, whatever 95 00:07:36.560 --> 00:07:40.480 that was called. I don't take either of those. I don't smoke any 96 00:07:40.480 --> 00:07:43.639 weed. I got some new meds that I'm not going to tell you what 97 00:07:43.680 --> 00:07:46.589 they're called. It's none of your business. I might tell you after I 98 00:07:46.629 --> 00:07:49.509 stop taking them, but they seem to be working pretty well. I'm a 99 00:07:49.550 --> 00:07:57.149 lot more motivated, got my clarity, got my intention back somewhat, and 100 00:07:57.269 --> 00:08:00.500 I think part of the thing with me when I'm depressed. Maybe it's the 101 00:08:00.579 --> 00:08:03.899 same with you, but I get depressed when I'm not on track, like 102 00:08:03.579 --> 00:08:09.259 being off track, misaligned with my life is what depresses me. When I'm 103 00:08:09.259 --> 00:08:11.180 able to get up in the morning and focus on a thing I like, 104 00:08:13.569 --> 00:08:16.410 whether it's work or play, a hobby or just, you know, doing 105 00:08:16.449 --> 00:08:22.730 something that I'm into, I feel in alignment with myself and the depression fades 106 00:08:22.769 --> 00:08:26.439 away pretty quickly. That said, it's dangerous for me to just sit around 107 00:08:26.439 --> 00:08:31.040 all day in bed and play on the Internet, especially if I'm on twitter, 108 00:08:31.360 --> 00:08:35.279 like mental health twitter, where everyone's always complaining about something. I'm my 109 00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:37.960 God. I got a step back from this, so that was part of 110 00:08:37.039 --> 00:08:43.750 that. I step back away from social media generally and twitter specifically, which 111 00:08:43.830 --> 00:08:46.549 is no dig against twitter, for sure. That's my favorite social media platform. 112 00:08:46.590 --> 00:08:50.950 If I were to pick one. Here's how I do social media. 113 00:08:50.950 --> 00:08:54.389 Whenever a new one comes out, I go there real quick and I lock 114 00:08:54.509 --> 00:08:56.539 down my name. You know, so you user name is your name, 115 00:08:58.259 --> 00:09:01.820 and that's primarily so nobody else in the future takes it right. But after 116 00:09:01.860 --> 00:09:05.980 a couple weeks and like I don't need this, Tick Tock, I'll that 117 00:09:05.059 --> 00:09:11.289 bullshit that. So I don't do snapchat, I quit facebook. I don't 118 00:09:11.289 --> 00:09:13.730 use instagram anymore, although I have some accounts with some cool pictures on there, 119 00:09:15.049 --> 00:09:18.409 I don't use it actively right now. I really just focus on twitter 120 00:09:20.169 --> 00:09:24.240 and to me it's not a stay. Like what is twitter really? So 121 00:09:24.360 --> 00:09:28.279 a lot of things I deal with when I do a podcast. I feel 122 00:09:28.320 --> 00:09:33.480 like back in the band days, I like to say I grew up playing 123 00:09:33.480 --> 00:09:35.720 music. I still play. I've been a drummer and lots of bands played 124 00:09:35.759 --> 00:09:39.870 in front of tens of thousands of people. Sometimes, well, twelve thou 125 00:09:39.070 --> 00:09:43.429 people. I think it was the biggest show. So cool I have that 126 00:09:43.549 --> 00:09:48.149 experience. But I see things through the lens of a band and part of 127 00:09:48.190 --> 00:09:50.990 that is when I was a kid, a teenager, I was fourteen, 128 00:09:50.029 --> 00:09:54.019 I got kicked out of my house forever. Never went back, and bands 129 00:09:54.460 --> 00:09:58.019 saved my life. If I didn't have a band to hang out with, 130 00:09:58.419 --> 00:10:01.940 I would have had nowhere to go. And since I play the drums, 131 00:10:01.980 --> 00:10:05.620 if there was a place where I could keep my drum set up, that 132 00:10:05.899 --> 00:10:09.049 meant there was a place I could lay down. So I would find a 133 00:10:09.169 --> 00:10:11.929 place, you know, keep a drums in the garage and will jam on 134 00:10:13.049 --> 00:10:15.929 Saturday. Cool. Well, how about you let me sleep in the garage 135 00:10:16.009 --> 00:10:18.009 next to my drums the rest of the week so I can go to school? 136 00:10:18.370 --> 00:10:20.129 So that's kind of how it worked out. Anyway, I have a 137 00:10:20.409 --> 00:10:26.039 affinity for the band metaphor and twitter. Okay, so when you have a 138 00:10:26.080 --> 00:10:30.159 podcast, you have to promote it somehow. I'm not going to pay to 139 00:10:30.240 --> 00:10:33.919 promote it because it's it's a hobby, you know, I don't even know 140 00:10:35.000 --> 00:10:37.029 how to describe that. But you're not going to pay to promote the fact 141 00:10:37.029 --> 00:10:41.269 that you're going Snowski in next weekend, as who cares? Like this kind 142 00:10:41.269 --> 00:10:46.509 of how I feel. But also there is some gamification to it, like 143 00:10:46.549 --> 00:10:48.070 you kind of like, well, let's see if I can get any more 144 00:10:48.149 --> 00:10:54.419 download so the podcast itself, in podcast world, gets plenty of downloads because 145 00:10:54.419 --> 00:10:58.100 people that are in the podcasts are already there listening to podcast out of a 146 00:10:58.139 --> 00:11:01.539 dot, but you got to bring in more people. So the idea of 147 00:11:01.620 --> 00:11:05.570 going to twitter and reminding people you have a podcast is one of the tools 148 00:11:05.570 --> 00:11:09.610 I use. So the band metaphor connection here is I think of twitter like 149 00:11:09.730 --> 00:11:13.490 a parking lot full of cars where I can go put my band flyer on 150 00:11:13.610 --> 00:11:20.039 everybody's windshield. Sometimes I run into people on this twitter parking lot and I 151 00:11:20.120 --> 00:11:24.919 have conversations. Sometimes you get into fights, sometimes you know, different things 152 00:11:24.960 --> 00:11:28.279 happen in a parking lot, but twitter is by giant parking lot where I 153 00:11:28.320 --> 00:11:33.470 go to post flyers on people's windshields for the podcast. So I wouldn't say 154 00:11:33.870 --> 00:11:39.669 by any means that I am any kind of mental health advocate because that's just 155 00:11:39.909 --> 00:11:43.190 not my frame. That's not my mindset. I deal with mental impairments, 156 00:11:43.629 --> 00:11:48.299 mental disorders. I have mental health issues, however you'd like to say it. 157 00:11:48.179 --> 00:11:54.860 I am not a disorder. I am human and I'm afflicted with certain 158 00:11:54.940 --> 00:11:58.139 conditions and they're in my brain and I'm always, you know, trying to 159 00:11:58.580 --> 00:12:01.129 think my way through them and get help with medication and doctors and therapists and 160 00:12:01.169 --> 00:12:05.690 things like that. But at the end you know, I'm not an advocate. 161 00:12:05.169 --> 00:12:09.889 I'm a guy with a podcast hobby that's out there putting flyers on people's 162 00:12:09.889 --> 00:12:15.049 windshields and that is my twitter. So anyway, if you see me on 163 00:12:15.129 --> 00:12:20.399 twitter and you happen to like engage just that, that's the that's the frame 164 00:12:20.440 --> 00:12:22.559 right there. It's like, Oh, you caught me in the parking lot 165 00:12:22.559 --> 00:12:24.960 putting stuff up on windshields. How you doing? Cool, how about you? 166 00:12:26.200 --> 00:12:28.480 Oh, you're putting some flyers up to what do you do? So 167 00:12:28.559 --> 00:12:33.750 I'm really into other people who do creative projects, whether it's other podcasts or 168 00:12:35.230 --> 00:12:41.070 film projects, documentaries, writing books and have well established blogs and things like 169 00:12:41.190 --> 00:12:46.460 that. I like meeting those folks on twitter and I like sharing their projects 170 00:12:46.580 --> 00:12:48.659 with my audience. So that's cool. So if you find me on twitter 171 00:12:48.700 --> 00:12:52.779 and you have something you want to share or say, hit me. Yep, 172 00:12:52.019 --> 00:12:56.860 I'm happy to share it with everybody else and it just kind of build 173 00:12:56.899 --> 00:12:58.889 a community that way, I guess, is the best way to put it. 174 00:13:00.690 --> 00:13:05.210 So with regards to this podcast bipolar style, I feel like I'm beating 175 00:13:05.250 --> 00:13:09.049 the dead horse with a podcast. It's not like hey, we're starting to 176 00:13:09.090 --> 00:13:11.370 radio station. We got to be on the air every day or we got 177 00:13:11.490 --> 00:13:15.720 to show up every Saturday at ten. That's that's not I think of podcasts 178 00:13:15.759 --> 00:13:18.679 at all. I think of podcasts more like TV series where you go in 179 00:13:18.759 --> 00:13:22.960 seasons or with the band metaphor. I think of a podcast more like an 180 00:13:24.000 --> 00:13:28.909 album, where each episode is a song and the whole album would be the 181 00:13:28.990 --> 00:13:35.029 season of podcasts. The great thing about that is that after each quote unquote, 182 00:13:35.070 --> 00:13:39.190 album, you can change things up. You can change the cast, 183 00:13:39.309 --> 00:13:41.059 you can change the band members, you can change your logo, you could 184 00:13:41.059 --> 00:13:45.700 do all kinds of things for season two or your second album, or however 185 00:13:45.740 --> 00:13:50.460 you like to think about that. But the idea that podcasting is like radio 186 00:13:50.500 --> 00:13:52.220 or TV were you you got to show up each time. It's not that 187 00:13:52.340 --> 00:13:56.009 way. PODCAST don't have to be live at all. In fact, the 188 00:13:56.210 --> 00:14:01.490 nature of a podcast is not live. That would be broadcasting or, you 189 00:14:01.570 --> 00:14:03.330 know, live streaming or something like that. That's not a podcast. A 190 00:14:03.409 --> 00:14:07.769 podcast is an individual file that people can download whatever the fuck they want to. 191 00:14:09.289 --> 00:14:11.240 Like you, you're listening to this right now. You don't know when 192 00:14:11.240 --> 00:14:13.320 I recorded it, but you know that I'm listening to it now. So, 193 00:14:15.279 --> 00:14:20.679 given that context, I think podcast should be more like albums or series 194 00:14:20.960 --> 00:14:26.190 of shows or seasons. So instead of continually flogging the bipolar style show, 195 00:14:26.029 --> 00:14:30.309 I have another project I'm working on that you may or may not find out 196 00:14:30.309 --> 00:14:33.870 about on twitter. I'm not really going to talk about it here because now 197 00:14:35.269 --> 00:14:41.700 just don't feel like it. Yes, and that show will be people with 198 00:14:41.860 --> 00:14:46.019 mental health problem. was producing an actual show that's not about mental health at 199 00:14:46.059 --> 00:14:50.539 all. So know that if you find us in the future, you know 200 00:14:50.659 --> 00:14:54.090 that we're the same crazy people just doing a quote unquote regular show. I 201 00:14:54.169 --> 00:14:56.889 don't think just because we have a mental illness that that's the only thing we 202 00:14:58.009 --> 00:15:01.009 have to focus on. That seems dumb. If you got other things to 203 00:15:01.049 --> 00:15:05.370 do, do those things. What you focus on grows. So if I 204 00:15:05.490 --> 00:15:11.000 continually focus on the downside of bipolar disorder, well, that's that's what my 205 00:15:11.120 --> 00:15:16.120 life becomes, the downside of bipolar disorder. So I think it's good when 206 00:15:16.120 --> 00:15:22.230 you create things like podcast or blogs, just to know that the world doesn't 207 00:15:22.269 --> 00:15:26.230 need us. We don't. There's plenty of other content out there. So 208 00:15:26.350 --> 00:15:28.389 if you need to take a break, just fucking take a break as long 209 00:15:28.429 --> 00:15:31.309 as you want, come back as a new person. Shit, I'm using 210 00:15:31.350 --> 00:15:37.899 a little anime chick icon on my bipolar style twitter account right now, just 211 00:15:39.059 --> 00:15:43.019 because I'm trying to shake people. Jake, not shake them, like upset 212 00:15:43.059 --> 00:15:45.620 them. I'm trying to get lose people. Look, people that are on 213 00:15:45.740 --> 00:15:48.139 my on my trail. I'm trying to shake them off so they're not paying 214 00:15:48.220 --> 00:15:52.169 so much attention. It's just too much. I'm a hobbyist, like I 215 00:15:52.409 --> 00:15:56.889 like I said, I'm a hobbyist and I consider this my little confessional booth 216 00:15:56.929 --> 00:16:00.250 with you. I don't see this as me standing on the stage going Yo, 217 00:16:00.490 --> 00:16:06.440 sir, hey, everybody out there and podcast, let's that's it's dumb 218 00:16:07.120 --> 00:16:11.679 to me. That's dumb anyway. You got it. So I I'm roaming 219 00:16:11.679 --> 00:16:15.720 around America gathering insight. I got a lot of experience from different places and 220 00:16:15.799 --> 00:16:21.750 I like to fill the cracks with real lived knowledge. So when I talk 221 00:16:22.190 --> 00:16:25.470 as California and you kind of tend to talk about people in the Midwest or 222 00:16:25.509 --> 00:16:30.509 the South Derisively, and I know that that's bad, obviously to do. 223 00:16:30.590 --> 00:16:33.899 You shouldn't talk that way about people anyhow, but some of the stereotypes about 224 00:16:33.899 --> 00:16:38.899 the South I've kind of dispelled firsthand. So now I know that not everyone's 225 00:16:38.899 --> 00:16:47.059 a big racist. Not everyone's anti gay. Not Most people do go to 226 00:16:47.139 --> 00:16:51.090 church. Not Me, but I mean to each their own. Lots of 227 00:16:51.090 --> 00:16:53.330 people go to church in this town. When they ask you what religion that 228 00:16:53.409 --> 00:16:59.570 you are, they don't mean Christian, Muslim or Jewish. They mean which 229 00:16:59.570 --> 00:17:03.599 version of Christian, like methodist, Protestant, Presbyterian, baptist. They want 230 00:17:03.640 --> 00:17:07.160 to know that. They assume you're a Christian already. That's kind of weird. 231 00:17:08.559 --> 00:17:12.759 But again, firsthand live knowledge here in the south, so that when 232 00:17:12.759 --> 00:17:17.910 I talk about things like mental health issues, I know more of which I 233 00:17:18.150 --> 00:17:22.630 speak from living it, and that's what I hope to bring to the table 234 00:17:22.109 --> 00:17:27.710 in the new podcasts and with these next couple of episodes of bipolar style as 235 00:17:27.789 --> 00:17:33.460 well. Cool. So let's get back to that. rambled long enough, 236 00:17:34.019 --> 00:17:37.740 but like as barns you in the beginning, you could have fast forwarded this 237 00:17:37.420 --> 00:17:41.819 the whole time just to jump to the actual podcast. But I'm glad you're 238 00:17:41.819 --> 00:17:45.769 back. I'm glad I have it in me to like record another podcasts, 239 00:17:45.369 --> 00:17:48.809 always like here, in my own voice, in my head set, you 240 00:17:48.930 --> 00:17:52.690 know, not because I want you to hear my voice, but because I 241 00:17:52.809 --> 00:17:56.410 just like talk. It's fun that said, let's get on with it. 242 00:17:57.009 --> 00:18:00.960 Here we go. I'm going to Oh yeah, this next episode. I 243 00:18:02.359 --> 00:18:06.480 do want you to share because there's a lot of information I've gathered from both 244 00:18:06.559 --> 00:18:11.240 living it and from all of the fans of the show, the people have 245 00:18:11.319 --> 00:18:15.309 talked to on twitter and the people have argued with, people in the south, 246 00:18:15.430 --> 00:18:18.470 the people in the West, the people in North, all these people, 247 00:18:18.109 --> 00:18:22.069 I've started to develop. You know, I've seen certain patterns with the 248 00:18:22.109 --> 00:18:26.470 way we are, with the way if people that are diagnosed with bipolar disorder 249 00:18:26.950 --> 00:18:30.500 are or become. So I'd like to kind of gelbows down into just like 250 00:18:30.660 --> 00:18:48.049 ten bullet points, and we'll do that coming up next. Following. Follow 251 00:18:48.089 --> 00:19:02.559 me, empty style Je following joy, excuse me,